Worker's block

I think I am having worker's block.

It's like writer's block, only in my case it applies to my work.

After close to three hours working overtime and made insignificant progress while the frustration mounted up, I decided it's no good and I am better off having my weekend break.

How am I to deliver on Monday I do not know, I can only hope that I will fare better when I work overtime tomorrow.

Low time.

Other |wretched workaholic| category entries.

Let me work

After attending to the important emails, instant messages, and the numerous meetings, the normal working hours are over.

Actually, no thanks to the many overran meetings, by the time the last one was done, it's already one hour past the normal working hours.

And by that time I am already nursing a splitting headache.

Yet by that time I haven't even started with my work, I mean, the real work, not all these emails and meetings.

No, although it may seem like it with my packed calendar, I am not a meeting engineer! >_<

So it's already overtime before I even start on doing actual work, and it's only by doing more overtime that I can get some real work done.

Just let me work already! Someone gotta do the actual work you know?

I am a doer, so bollocks to all the talkers.

Other |runaway rants| category entries.

心的频道：纳闷·忧郁

几个星期了，没有工作的动力…

嗯，不是工作而已，整个人没有了动力，常常意志消沉的。

这周末两天，每天都做了几小时的工，但进展依旧很慢。因为人很消极？

总觉得很纳闷、无奈、乏力、无助，但又说不出什么具体的，就是… 感觉不好、不对，低能量。

是忧郁症吗？有点迷惘。通常忧郁症来袭自己会知道的啊…

应该是吧？觉得什么都没有意思。

就当作是吧，是时候进入洞穴。

心的频道 |系列|

「可可」公主

仓鼠「可可」还真不简单。

它的弹跳力和纸盒破坏力比「雪球」强多了。

而且好像蛮精明的，短短几天就已经把小窗口咬到它可以通得过的洞。还不是纸盒建筑物墙上的窗口，而是屋顶的，然后它再从屋顶爬出去“越狱”。

暂时它还是跨不过我发现它在制造“越狱”洞后新增加的、没有窗口的阻墙啦。如果它连那没有窗口的阻墙都能咬出一个洞就真的是很厉害的超级塞亚仓鼠了！

今天傍晚喂食时又发现一样新的东西。我把粮食放进它的喂食碗，它就在喂食碗里也不肯进食，跑来跑去不时只用后腿站立、前腿垂着，那我们称为“暴龙”的模式（就是要人喂食的举止）。

引导它回去喂食碗它依旧不肯进食，还是做小“暴龙”，期待食物的样子。

情人老婆仔从喂食碗把一颗粮食放在手心，再把手掌放在地上，「可可」马上就很开心的爬上她手心去进食了。

吃完那一颗，老婆仔把它放回喂食碗旁，它又不进食了。等老婆仔又把一颗粮食放在手掌，它才又爬上她手心去进食。第三颗也是这样。

「哦麦古呢斯」！我们家「可可」是只有公主病的仓鼠！进食时要被捧在手掌心，还要有人抚摸它。

所以今天它多了一个称号: 「可可」公主 （Princess Cocoa）。 =P

随兴随想 |系列|

Prick struck again

Spoiler prick struck again, this time is about the Squid Game drama.

Despite knowing I haven't finished watching the series, and my gentle reminder of "Say no to spoiler" when they started discussing the drama storyline, the prick continued to disclose more spoilers when the others courteously stopped.

Prick will be prick. This particular one is especially egotistic and self-centred.

When he started to harp on the same old lines about it's okay to post spoiler after a certain period of time or after a certain percentage of people have watched the movie/drama, whichever suits his purpose really, and totally missed the crucial point that it's perfectly fine to do so with those who want to, and not with those who don't, I knew it's time to pull the plug on this toxic person.

He can give whatever lame excuse he has for his behaviour, but shoving something down someone's throat when that someone explicitly said no is an act of bullying, an intentional transgression.

The others in the chat group said nothing about his behaviour so I guess it's just me having issue with this. Perhaps it's because I am pretty much always the slowest to watch a movie or drama, but whatever, I do not condone this kind of behaviour, and I don't want to be part of it.

Two strikes and every signs indicating the prick will continue to be a jerk, I am old enough to know that life is too short to be wasted on incompatible, toxic people. I am out.

Other |runaway rants| category entries.

Caveman has a new phone

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Caveman vs mobile phone series: |1| |2| |3| |4| |5| |6| |7| |8| |9| |10|
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According to the most recent entry of the 'caveman versus mobile phone' series I managed to locate, the then latest smartphone I changed to was the Samsung Duos, but the smartphone I just changed out of is actually a hand-me-down Samsung Galaxy S5.

So either I didn't post an entry as a record of all my mobile phone changes, or perhaps I did but didn't manage to identify the entry in my quick glance through the blog earlier.

Anyway, wifey gave me a brand new smartphone last week, a Samsung Galaxy A32. She said it's for my birthday, so it's like birthday came almost a month early. =)

The Galaxy S5 I was using is still working fine really, the power button cap has fallen off but the actual button on the motherboard is working fine so I just used an expired credit card to turn the phone on and off. Wifey could do it with her fingernail.

To be honest I don't really need a new phone, I am not a phone person after all. The Galaxy S5 serves all I need and more from a smartphone. Smartphones simply have more gimmicks than I need and are almost always too jacked up in price for me to consider value for money.

But it's a birthday gift! Thank you so much my dear wifey, I got a new toy, yippie! =D

Although it took me most of yesterday, all in all I think I handled the transition from old phone to new phone rather well, so...

Smartphone 4 : Caveman: 3

Other |hyped up heads up| category entries.

Jabbed

Despite having over 101000 active Covid-19 cases and around 8000 new infection cases every day, the government has decided to lift the movement control order, claiming the 90% vaccination rate will suffice.

Children who are not yet vaccinated or too young to be vaccinated, and those who cannot be vaccinated due to medical reason or personal choice are now the vulnerable group.

Younger son just turned twelve so wifey sent him for walk-in vaccination today, at least he got his first dose now. I will breathe easier when both sons have had their second dose.

My heart goes out to those who have children younger than twelve, who are still not eligible for vaccination.

Never let your guard down, even when fully vaccinated, as we can still be infected.

Have no delusion, Covid-19 is not over, don't be fooled into a false sense of security.

Other |temperamental thoughts| category entries.

心的频道：替代

上星期四夜晚、星期五凌晨，目睹「雪球」过世后彻夜难眠。

星期五起身后精神萎靡，整个人颓丧消沉的。

情人老婆仔找到一家动物医院有火化尸体的服务，我索性拿了半天假去处理「雪球」的生后事。

也给自己一些时间哀悼。

送走「雪球」后，每次看那空荡荡的、我们给它居住的容器，心情就很复杂难受。

星期六孩子和老婆仔把容器彻底清理了。午餐后我开始制造前个周末已构思，但还没实行，打算为「雪球」做的新楼梯。

虽然「雪球」突然就走了，但我就是想要完成那楼梯。我不知道为什么，但就是觉得我必须完成它…

我做了两天，星期日下午四点多才终于完成那新楼梯。我很满意，因为它综合了许多功用，而且占很少容器的范围。

「雪球」过世后，小瓜就说他生日礼物要一只新的仓鼠，连仓鼠的品种和哪里买都决定好了。

小瓜的生日在这星期的周日，周日不一定会有时间去宠物店买仓鼠，来着的周末才去买又已过了小瓜的生日。虽然小瓜不在意，但我觉得早好过迟，所以星期日做完那新楼梯就去买了。

新的仓鼠叫「可可」，就是英文可可豆（巧克力主要原料）那个字。「可可」是雌的，听觉没有问题，也不咬人。

带着「可可」回家路上，我心情很复杂，我问情人老婆仔，「雪球」才过世两天我们就用「可可」来代替它，是不是很冷血无情啊？

她反问我要哀悼多久才算合适呢？

我不知道，但就是觉得怪怪的，觉得内疚。

无可否认「可可」已经为我们带来欢乐，弥补心里的那个空缺，但我还是会想起「雪球」…

心的频道 |系列|

Rest in peace, Snowball

Rest in peace, Snowball (15th August 2020 to 8th of October 2021), you were a wonderful ball of cuteness.

We don't know when you were born, but you became part of our family on the 15th of August 2020, and that's all that matters.

My adorable Snowball, Ball Ball, Bally, Stinky, El Stinky de Ball, Le Stinky Balle...

The many names we gave you, which didn't meant a thing to you, since you were deaf.

Plus you had poor eyesight, but you were a resilient survivor, a fiery fighter, and we adapted to your disabilities.

We would blow lightly on you to wake you instead of spooking you with a touch. We would let you smell the scent of our hand and let you be aware of us before we touched you. We would guide you to your food using our finger, or we would simply transport you over and told you it's magic, it's teleportation!

Thank you for all the joy and merriment you brought us. Thank you for the companionship. Thank you for putting a smile on my face just standing there looking at you, even when you were asleep.

Thank you for teaching the kids compassion, responsibility, and how to take care of other living thing. Thank you for enriching our lives.

Even though it's traumatic and with profound helplessness witnessing your death throes, I am glad I was with you through the last moments of your life. I am sorry that I couldn't do more.

My heart broke when you finally stopped breathing and became still. Deep down the extremely heavy heart I knew that you suffered no more, I find solace in that.

I hope you had a good and happy life with us. I hope we had given you a better life.

I hope you are energetically running wheel in hamster heaven now. Make friends, my dear Bally, and don't bite your friends.

I am in all black today, for I mourn your passing. I will miss you.

Other |sane side| category entries.

Say a prayer

Snowball is not itself today.

Didn't eat, not even the dried worms that it usually went crazy for.

Kept its eyes shut.

Don't know what's wrong with it, but this is definitely not normal.

Unfortunately we only noticed the odd behaviour after dinner, when the dried worms were found not eaten.

Called the 24 hours animal clinics, the first one said the veterinarian has already gone home, made an appoitment for tomorrow.

The second clinic said the vet is busy at the moment and will call back. Haven't heard back.

Don't know what else we can do, so I will say a prayer for Snowball.

Other |sane side| category entries.

Win!

Did not work overtime this weekend, didn't turn on the laptop at all, that's a win in my book.

While I went out of the house twice this week, which is double of my running average of about once per week, they are for worthwhile endeavours.

First was going to office to work, since I was needed in the lab. Duty calls and I am a responsible employee.

Second was today, where I chauffered elder son to his Covid-19 vaccination.

Protecting my family is of upmost importance, so I am glad the elder son is already given the first dose. This is a major win.

Hopefully the younger son will have his vaccination soon.

Other |temperamental thoughts| category entries.