Price of hubris

Gave myself a birthday present back in 2021. It was meant to be a motivation, a driving force for me to keep inventing.

But I suppose it could be a sin as well depending on viewpoint. For the sake of this blog entry, let's just assume it's a sin and not my inability to produce worthwhile invention this year. =P

As a punishment to my pride and hubris I failed to obtain any patent this year, so no award money, and there goes my charity fund.

Doubt I will have one in the remaining quarter of 2023, so the price for my hubris is to bear the donations from my saving. A bad year in that saving front as well, given the pay cut.

So a double whammy, ouch.

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To do

To do for tomorrow:

1. post-process the three thermal simulation cases, then analyse the results, then make decision on what are the next three configurations and designs to simulate, and then setup the cases to run.

2. clear the unread e-mails in October 2022 before their one year retention period expires.

3. set the October birthday reminders in calendar.

4. write up quarterly and send to manager, also update the tracking tool.

5. write up weekly. Hmm, it's a three working days week, do we still need to send weekly report?

Ya, it's a public holiday tomorrow but I have at least five tasks that need to be completed tomorrow, so working overtime tomorrow is unavoidable.

Taking annual leave on Friday to make a four days long weekend, I know I will be working overtime, my only wish is to keep the overtime duration to the bare minimum.

One can hope.

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Sharing

To promote work/life balance, camaraderie, inclusiveness, et cetera, my manager has this monthly 'coffee chat' session.

Being antisocial, it has not been high on my priority list, but I do join whenever I can, since it's usually on the same day as our monthly face to face staff meeting.

If I am busy with work, or there are more important meetings later in the day that will end close to the end of working hours, with less than an hour interim, then I will skip the coffee chat to drive home to attend those meetings from home. Let's just say I am allergic to traffic. =P

Today, some random remarks while discussing upcoming team event led to me disclosing that I learned the very fundamental of destiny codes, and the request for me to share it in coming coffee chat session.

More than a decade ago I bought a few books on destiny codes, and managed to finished the first two or three books, covering the most fundamental of understanding the destiny codes. About two years ago I revisited the books, while I progressed more than before, I still didn't managed to complete all the books I have. It was a good refresher though.

Of course, with my goldfish memory, I have forgotten most already by now. So time for another refresher if the colleagues are serious about me sharing in the coffee chat.

The absolute truth is, I would never have thought this is something I will end up sharing with colleagues, in my work environment.

It feels somewhat amusing.

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101

Today's overtime is the 101th of this year's working overtime count.

Broke the 100 yesterday.

Nearing the end of September, so one more quarter to go.

Really hope that this year I will work overtime less than last year, that's the trend I want.

But breaking 100 with one more quarter to go is not looking good...

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惯了

月尾年假累积总数又会超过上限，所以又要在月尾前拿一两天的假。几乎每个月都在重复这举动。

下星期四是公假，所以拿了下星期五。但还是会超限，所以也拿了今天下午半天假。

几天前大老板把原本是上午的会议改成下午一点，好啦，就会议完后才开始我的半天假吧…

想到两点会议完了也刚好是孩子放学回到家的时候，所以中午情人老婆仔说午餐准备好了的时候我就说今天就等她和孩子回来了一起吃，不必我独自一人吃。

然后就在老婆仔出门去载孩子的时候，大老板又把一点的会议改成两点…

唉，结果还是我一个人吃午餐。

会议完我把手头上的工作做完，设好四个热流模拟让它们过夜计算后，我才下班。

真的下班时，已经是靠近五点钟了，半天假拿了个寂寞。

这周末一样是要加班，那四个热流模拟，应该是需要半天的时间来处理和设下新的四个模拟去跑，所以两天加起来是整整一天的工作量。。

真的已经习惯了。

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hi, bye

Finally completed the thermal model and set to run on two different servers.

My working overtime is over, yay!

I can now start to enjoy my three days long weekend.

Only it's already 18:30 hours on the last day of the three days long weekend when I ended my overtime, normal working day resumes tomorrow. So ya...

Hello my long weekend, and bye!

Sad.

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三天长周末怨气篇

明天是马来西亚日，所以下星期一补假，凑个三天长周末。

这整个星期，除了星期一晚餐后直接病倒床上做死尸，每天都在加时工作。有些天也还是病到不行，晚餐前需要做死尸先，晚餐后才能勉强撑多几个小时的加时工作。

然而还是无法如期的在今天交出报告。昨天知道今天不可能会有成绩时，觉得很有责任感的提前告知项目管理。

然后他就直接把事情升级到老板的老板的老板哪儿去… 我真的很无语。

无法今天交出热流模拟的数据是很多因素的综合，但我承认是我的错，因为我说过今天要交报告但我没有做到。

原本我就是要那样自己扛起来就算了，但既然项目管理要把事情搞大到大老板的阶级，我的经理也为我出了声，我就把项目里的种种问题导致我热流模拟被耽误的事说清。我可不是那么好欺负的，既然不吃敬酒就来罚酒吧！

是的，我写了封「情书」把那些导致我热流模拟还无法完成的原因列出来。有关这项目的两个最大因素：迟了两天才发给我的原图模型；队友没有做好他们分内的工作要由我这个热流工程师发现了提醒，星期三才解决。项目管理这些是不是你应该好好管理的事呢？我在帮项目解决问题，你就偏偏要制造问题…

我直到上个星期四都还在忙其他项目的热流模拟就不说了，这是人手不足，项目分配和交接点的问题。这些我和经理还有另一位热流工程师同事已经很和谐的理清了，现状还是最逻辑的安排。

所以搞到大老板哪，之后有什么不同吗？一样还是我说的下星期二我才交模拟数据，项目上的分配一样还是保持现状。唯一的不同，就是将来只要有得选择，我会避开这个人管理的项目。

今天又有新的更改，是对散热有影响的更改，我做到一半的热流模型也需要随之改变。不是问题，这就是我的工作。问题是那些猪队友，要把更改的细节告诉我我才能改我的模型啊！发了两封电邮和多个即时通讯上的讯息，完全没有消息，你们可不可以做好你们分内的工作，不要拖累其他的队友？项目管理，我特地把你加了进去，你看到没有回复，你也不会做些什么的吗？

靠近放工时间那些猪队友都没有回应，我抓住做另一个项目，但非常厉害的同事朋友，从她那拿到了我可以用来更改我的热流模型的资料。不到五分钟的事，那些猪队友一整天都给不到我，直接在会议里问也答不出，唉…

感谢那位可靠的同事朋友，我这三天长周末能够继续完成我的热流模拟了。

是的，三天长周末，没得休息养病，还得加时工作，确保下星期二可以有热流模拟数据，塞住那项目管理的嘴。

真的，不怕神一样的对手，只怕猪一样的队友。

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Stressed!

As usual, the simulation results are wanted last Friday, I honestly no longer have the energy to repeat that thermal model generation takes time, and running the simulation takes time too.

And I only received the latest mechanical CAD on Sunday evening, and the latest CAD is still having many unfinished stuff.

Finally got the mechanical engineer to fix all the issues at the keyboard region today, sadly it's the thermal engineer who spotted the problems and had to go through rounds of discussion to finally got all things ironed out.

Keyboard skin temperature being the critical path for the intended customer, yet such lack of attention to that region from mechanical design. Really need the colleagues to pull together and do their own job properly.

What initially thought was a few changes in component placement turned out to be a full-blown system change, thus far every single part in the thermal model I have gone through needs modification, practically generating a new thermal model.

Last Friday I said my target is to have the first thermal simulation results this Friday, as the initial plan is to have the "few" modifications completed by today.

I expected to get the mechanical CAD on Friday evening, so I have the weekend to get things started. The CAD was sent to me late Sunday evening, and I only saw it on Monday morning.

To cover the lost time I intend to work overtime everyday till I drop, and fate would have it that I am so sick I dropped after dinner on Monday, so that's another time lost.

Managed to worked till past midnight on Tuesday, but today the splitting headache forced me to stop around 23:00 hours.

It's looking like I won't be able to deliver this Friday, for I only have tomorrow (Thursday) left, the model is only half-completed, and the simulation takes hours, and that's assuming all goes smoothly for a first run, since for all intents and purposes this is basically a new model.

Feel so stressed now, which is not conducive to my recovery, and being sick is impacting my efficiency but I simply have no time to rest which is again not conducive to my recovery... the vicious cycle.

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生活点滴：好好活下去

感冒多天，今天感觉特别烂。

下午实在是不行了，倒头床上做死尸。

傍晚晚餐时间情人老婆仔来叫我吃饭，我起床后抱着她很戏剧化的说：“我不行了，你要好好活下去…”

我病得七彩失去生存的意愿总比 Padme 生了 Luke 和 Leia 后就失去生存的意愿还说得通吧？

还是一样烂梗？

怎么都好，那过后还是跟情人老婆仔讲了几次。我的确感觉糟透了，也希望可以逗她笑笑。

“我不行了，你要好好活下去…”

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Down

Have been sick for many days now. Cold.

It wasn't so bad the first few days, when it was in the running nose stage, but when the nasal congestion started, the stuffiness, it made me feel absolutely lousy, rubbish.

Very low on energy and mood. Sick of feeling sick.

Health has been declining. Physical, mental and emotional.

Not a happy bunny. Not at all.

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Facial hair

It has been a long while since I last clean-shaved my facial hair.

I kept my facial hair throughout the 100 days after mommi passed away, as my show or respect and mourning.

But before that I have already been keeping my facial hair, so it has really been a long while since I was last clean-shaven.

While wifey prefers me to be clean-shaven, I don't really have a preference. To me it's more to do with mood.

For months I have kept the trimmed facial hair look. To me that look better reflects my life: not smooth, but I am trying to make the best of it, to keep it somewhat under control.

Now that the 100 days are over, and wishing for a change to the better in September, I clean-shaved this morning.

To me it's a very obvious difference in my look, but as usual, none of the family members noticed. No mystery there, just my insignificance at home.

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