生活点滴：想念

小瓜星期六开始去露营了，不是野外搭帐篷那种，而是在建筑物内的露营。

不要问我，我也觉得有点怪。但是是学校课外活动团体搞的，应该没问题呱？

所以这几天家里都没有小瓜的身影和声音，露营明天才结束。

晚上冲凉后情人老婆仔突然间问我：“小瓜不知道有没有想我们嘞？”

我问她是不是很想小瓜，她说是。

我又问：“做什么这样想他喔？”

她说：“因为他是我的孩子。”

我追问：“有没有因为我是你老公而想我的？”

她睬都不睬我调头离开。唉，果然她还是偏向她的前世情人…

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The great equaliser

Regardless of one's age, gender, race, education, fame, wealth, success, title and whatever status, everyone only has 24 hours per day.

No exception.

Some may argue that you can buy other people's time by paying them to do things for you, but really, you still only have 24 hours per day.

So you may get more things done in the same 24 hours by getting others to do things for you compared to doing all those things yourself, but you do not get more time, it's still 24 hours per day.

Our achievement or lack of, and our fulfilment in life, depends on how we utilise that 24 hours every day.

It's a matter of our choice and priority. So many things to do, so little time.

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沉默

我是不是和平的人应该有所争议，毕竟我是邪恶的… 但我绝对是一个不喜欢冲突对峙的人。

有得选择，我是会避开或离开那样的场景。

说是明智也好，是逃避也罢，总之我就是超级不喜欢那样的情况。很多时候我被惹怒了，我就会选择离开。

我本来就是个喜欢听多过喜欢讲的人，而且我也觉得插嘴和打断别人讲话是很没有礼貌的。

沉默并不代表我没有话说、没有意见、或赞同。很多时候我就是选择聆听，没有觉得有必要发表意见，除非被询问。

有时就是反正都没有人想听，既然一直都讲个不停或一直打断我的话，我就干脆不讲了。特别是对那些三观不合又固执己见的人，何必浪费口舌呢？

我也是个自以为是精明、智商不低的人，所以除非实在是看不过眼，看穿了也不说穿，就继续看人演戏吹牛，当作娱乐。邪恶又厌世的我很可能是在心里冷嘲人性品质啦…

越老就越觉得没有必要解释自己，反正懂我的人自然懂，不懂又固执己见的人我也没必要在乎。

时间和精力，就留给那些值得在乎的人吧。

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贱

国家的劳动法律让公司无法强制减薪，而是要劳工的同意才能执行。

要我们同意减少自己的薪水？

我没有那么伟大，做牛做马才拿到的血汗钱，我怎么都说服不了自己去自愿接受减薪。

我独撑整个家的经济来源，家里的开销是没有花红就没有储蓄的状况，要我怎么接受减薪呢？

我又很想公司渡过难关然后成成功功，是真的想要在这公司做到退休的。

再说，白纸黑字写的可以是很宽容大气，但上司管理层都是人，人是有情绪的，不是人人都是圣、都是无私的，到真的需要选择裁员时…

我无法自愿接受，也不想拒绝，所以我不答复决定，让公司在截止日期后自动把没有表明决定的员工当成是接受来表态。

截止日期那晚，我还在加时工作。真的，我觉得自己很贱。

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聚

昨天和一群同事朋友们聚餐，是曾经一起打球、唱歌、玩桌上游戏的同事朋友。

很多年没有见了，所以我这反社会、反社交的宅男也会为此在星期五放工最赛车的时间过桥去聚会。

只能说，有些事，还是值得去做的。

很庆幸的，没有陌生或疏离感，就是很开心又见到这群死党。

当然希望那些好久没见但缺席的同事朋友也可以出席，但是理解每个人优先的事项不同。

不是人人都觉得这是值得经营的，或是有更高、更重要的事优先。

但给个通知、留个信息也不是很难的事吧？

怎么都好，只能说人各有别。

现在没有特别期待下一个聚会，毕竟刚刚才聚过，但几个月后心境又会不同了吧？

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Accept or Decline

Due to Malaysia labour law, the company requires our consent to its pay cut plan.

Accept to consent to the pay cut for the rest of 2023, to take one for the company, in the hope that the situation will become better and we will be rewarded for our sacrifice.

Decline to keep the base pay, headcount reduction will be necessary as the management puts it, so either be prepared to potentially be laid off, or have confidence oneself is indispensable.

There is no guarantee the situation will become better, the pay cut plan may not be enough and headcount reduction may still happen if things got worse.

Pay increment doesn't come easily, so a pay reduction is a big deal, it's like rolling back some hard earned increments.

To invest in the company, or to invest in oneself?

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Dead to the world

I am a light sleeper. One of the reasons I have low quality sleep.

Stress from work and life do not help, but I usually wake on the slightest sound.

Yesterday I woke up with a headache, I don't know if it's the bad quality sleep or something else.

I had to work overtime anyway, regardless of headache, so that's what I did.

Until it got so bad it became a splitting headache that disabled me. Paracetamol did nothing.

So after lunch I could only lie in bed, it's so bad that I couldn't do anything else.

I must have drifted off to sleep, because the next thing I knew was the shouting match between elder son and wifey that woke me, before they went out.

I couldn't even mustered the energy to tell them off, felt like if I got up then I would vomit. I was just glad when they left and there was finally peace and quiet in the house.

And I must have drifted off to sleep again, and apparently this time I was dead to the world, because the next time I was up it's close to five in the evening, and I saw a message from wifey saying she came to my room to call me but I slept through it.

To be honest I still cannot believe I didn't woke up, being such a light sleeper and all that.

Must have really needed that rest. Not that it helped, the headache persisted the whole day, and returned to the splitting headache level during the Saturday movie time with wifey.

It was a bad one.

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Tired

I am tired. Just so darn tired.

Very low quality sleep for many days now, hard to fall asleep and wake up frequently throughout the night.

Is it the constant, insistent stress from work and life?

Feel like a husk running on empty. Hollow and drained.

Tired, just so tired.

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圆

终于，双亲都要回来了。

将会是个不容易的过程，感恩情人老婆仔的策划和安排。

真的没有她我该怎么办？

有种团圆的感觉，但其实又不是，毕竟妈咪还是需要住在疗养院…

总之，回来同一个州，在靠近的疗养院就是比在越洋他州好啦。

爸比也是需要人照顾的了。

希望我能够尽孝道，做个孩子应该做的事啦。

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立春

今天立春，癸卯（水兔）年的开始。兔年快乐！今天这样祝贺我就不觉得有违和感了，呵呵。

今天开始到明年立春前出生的宝宝就是属兔的啦。

天干又一轮了，明年又回到甲（木），配的地支是晨（龙），所以明年的甲子是甲辰（木龙）。

希望癸卯年的开始可以转一转我至今不是很好的运啦…

太忙了，不然还真的很想继续研究下八字，再了解多一些。

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二月啊二月

期待的二月是一个全新的开始、一个美好如意的月份。

现实是起床开工加入全公司大会的短短几分钟后，最大的老板就抛了一个原子弹，毁灭了全新美好二月的希望。

其实不是二月而已，而是毁灭了整年的期盼。

没得加薪也罢了、没有花红也罢了、没有奖励金也罢了，还要强制减薪，我的天啊～

真的是狠狠的当头一棒！

整个人都不好了。

唉…

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