31 January 2020

心的频道:开工大吉


今天虽然如常七点前就到办公室,但开启了电脑却先不做工,一直到七点过后才默默在心里念了一句 “开工大吉!” 后才正式开始工作。

是的,我等那开工吉利的时辰。

农历新年也特地拿假到吉日才开工。

我知道啦,某某风水师说只要吉日吉时开电脑发个电邮意思意思就行。

但我比较老土,觉得那样很没有诚意、很假很虚伪,也根本不是我正常的工作模式。

我相信开工吉日是要在我平时正常工作的情况下度过,一整年才会有好预兆的。

我才不要一整年工作就只是开电脑发电邮而已咯…


越老越迷信。

这几年开始选吉日才开工,不像比较年轻时的我的那不在乎。

没有了年轻的本钱,精力和身体状况大不如前,已经不能像以前那样的拼。

更重要的是,到了人生的另一个阶段,选择了重视身体和心理的健康,选择了不要为工作拼了命。

或许,是一种领悟。

和随之而来的那坚持的决心。


不要误会,我不是工作偷懒「吃蛇」、得过且过的那种人。

我仍旧是个责任感很重,要把东西做到我能力以内最好的那个人。

我有我的原则,和我的水准。

纯粹就是,不再工作优先,而是健康和生活优先。

不再为了工作妥协我身体和心理的健康、我生活的素质。

工作为了生活,不是生活为了工作。


所以,开工要选个吉日,祈求工作上会顺心顺意。

不要有小人、猪队友、难搞的经理、同事、客人什么的。

让我避开那些办公室政治、有私人目的阴谋、复杂的人际等等烦人累人的那些有的没的。

就让我安分守己做好我的工作,交出我能做的最好,这样就够了。

由衷诚心祈望啦…

开工大吉哦~!



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29 January 2020

Win!


Slept in and stayed in bed until noon, win!

Did my burpee exercise. Oh my goodness so tiring, could only manage ten sets in one go, had to break twice to complete my goal of thirty. My legs are jellyish for a while but win!

Stayed home and be potato the whole day, a relatively peaceful and quiet day, win!

Played many hours of computer game, win!



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27 January 2020

Expanding waistline


So I have been steadily getting fatter as I age, the metabolism slowing down, all that.

Losing the twice weekly badminton sessions since I changed department didn't help.

Gorging and indulging during Chinese New Year is only going to make it worse.

Oh well.

Already decided to start the daily burpee after Chinese New Year, and if that's not effective after a couple of months then I will have to get a pair of running shoes and restart the brisk walks.

And if by June I am still not seeing positive changes, then I will have to think of something more drastic.

That's the plan.



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23 January 2020

Shopping and I


Some people like shopping, love even.

They can shop for hours and hours.

And end the shopping spree not only full of spoils but also still full of energy.

Not me.

I just want to go in there, get the stuff I want, pay and get out.

As efficient and as hassle-free as possible.

Dragged out long hours shopping session is not my thing, I would get exhausted and my back would start to ache and lock up.

That makes me miserable and irritable.

Worse when there is a crowd, the antisocial side of me cringe and wither inside.

Really just not my thing, oh well.



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19 January 2020

生活点滴:家有底裤男


大瓜从小就喜欢在家里赤裸着身子,就只穿一条底裤。

经过邻居可以看得到的窗或就那样站在天台他也不以为然。

小时候还好啦,包着尿布的宝宝不也是这样,是吧?

但现在他可是比我还高的少年了嘞…

几天前情人老婆仔晚餐时叫他「底裤男」,还真贴切。

我想,应该没有什么人会突然来访的啦。

再说,有人来他应该会赶紧穿上些衣服的呱?

怎么都好,就是想要说:我家里有底裤男哦!

是类似那些「内有恶犬」标志的用意啦,请不要被吓到。



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16 January 2020

Hello cave


Wish you would leave me alone, depression.

Wishful thinking, I know.

You came knocking, uninvited, unwelcomed.

Yet I have no say in the matter, I can't even refuse entry.

So hello cave, here we go again...



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14 January 2020

Yes!


Today is the first working day in 2020 when I don't have to work overtime.

Actually it's since my business trip but whatever.

Fantastical!

(Yes the balls are also feeling fantastic =P)

Just wanted to record this.



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10 January 2020

好累的一周


我二零二零年的第一个工作周,真的是忙到~

而且都不知道忙到虾那样,做了那么多模拟,到底有什么意义?

徒劳无功的感觉。

身心都好累。

准备的报告总是被断章取义只拿想要的部分,叫我冷汗直流。被省略的部分有很重要的讯息的啊!

客人很客气的告知根本不信方案的可行性,其实我完全明白他们的立场。

毕竟到现在为止就只是我热流模拟的一组数字、一些面积,少了热流模拟以外那些零件啊、机构啊、等等实物做得到的支持数据和资料。

少了那说服他们的全面方案,唉…

所以真的,还就只是一个想得很美的梦。

感谢客人没有直接嘲笑天真无知,就是很婉转的叫我回到地面。

我也很想有结实的地面的啊!但我现在就只能漂浮在一直在变的热流中。

我也很无奈,真的。

唉…

不要负能量,要往好的地方想…

今天只是加工两小时就下班了也,没到十二小时,嘢!

(因为放弃了,明天再继续吧…)



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08 January 2020

2020 work life trend


I took a break end of last year to rest and relax for the new year.

For a new and better beginning, all that.

My plan to be potato during the break didn't panned out as expected, but I did stuck to the plan of ignoring all work related stuff, so that's a win.

Anyway, my 2020 work officially started this Monday, so I have been working for three days now in the new year.

And all three days were 12+ work hours day, not a single day below twelve hours. Official work hours are 9 hours.

It's already been close to 14 work hours today and I still have to work about an hour later before I go to bed.

Bollocks.

So much for a better beginning.

It's like the slave pen has been upgraded in 2020 to be even more horrible... >_<

So if these three days are any indication, then this year is going to suck.

The latest reorganisation is not a good turn of event, because unlike the previous, the new job scope and nature do not put the group in position of power.

Very low down the chain we are now, which is not conducive to job satisfaction and work/life balance.

*Sigh...*

Can only make the best out of it, and if cannot adapt or change to my liking... well, been there, done that.

And not afraid to do it again.



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05 January 2020

Prick


This entry is first drafted on the 2nd of January 2020, expanded on the 3rd, and added a link to a relevant article today.


I am writing this with the intention of holding on to it until I posted something else since I don't want my first entry of a new year to be a rant.

The gist of it is that someone spoiled the Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker for me by posting a main plot of the movie in a WhatsApp group.

Initially I was just annoyed, unhappy about it, but chalking it as a careless mistake of an often over-excited, notorious spammer who pretty much always shove things down other people's throat through all his available social media channels.

I voiced my displeasure, since who likes to have a movie spoiled before getting a chance to see it?

Maybe there are people who like spoilers, who like to know what's going to happen in a movie before they see it, but I am definitely not one of them.

In fact, it's pretty well known among my old lunch gang that I hate it, which of course became one of the things the gang made fun of.

Those who watched movies soon after they were out would say they were going to talk about the movie, just to get a rise out of me. Never seemed to get old for them.

But nobody actually said or posted any spoilers. It's simple manner really.

Until now.

I was annoyed initially, but now I am really pissed off.

Because not only did the prick feel no remorse, he said it's alright to post spoilers two weeks after the movie is out, that it's my own fault I haven't watched it, that I am slow.

He can give as many lame excuses as he likes, jerks will be jerks.

I know him well enough, he will probably accuse me of being too serious next, trying to make light of it as a joke.

Well, I am old enough to know not to waste my time on toxic person.

And no thank you, I don't need to have my next anticipated movie spoiled because I don't watch the movie within two weeks of it being out, or whatever time period that suits him next.

Let's hope the WhatsApp block function works.

*****

The below is added in a later date.

Nope, blocking someone in WhatsApp doesn't do any good in group chat. I was hoping I will stop seeing that person's messages in group chat but no dice.

Bollocks.

Guess my other option is to leave the group, oh well. Maybe when the next movie I care about comes out.

And unsurprisingly, the prick is still harping on about it's okay to talk about the movie after two weeks, quoting someone said so. Pure coincidence it's the same time period, to the dot, as when he watched the movie and couldn't keep his mouth shut.

He then tried to get the others to talk about it to lessen his guilt.

Of course it's okay to talk about the movie you watched, go ahead and discuss it with those who want to, whenever you like to, like as soon as you finished watching it. Why bother with some period of time someone else said?

The timing doesn't matter one bit, a spoiled movie is a spoiled movie for those who haven't watched it and who are looking forward to the enjoyment watching it. 

The point the prick totally missed, or chose to ignore because that implies he is in the wrong (ridiculous! The prick is never wrong! Yea, I broke my sarcasm meter a long time ago...), is that it's common courtesy to ask first, or at least put a spoiler warning, before you blurt.

You know, let those who don't want to know or discuss with you have the option not to be involved.

Something any decent person would understand and do, surely.

But I guess it's like common sense, common courtesy or decency is not common at all. Else there wouldn't be so many jerks and pricks around, right?

Or is it something like what this article (in Mandarin) says?

Anyway, onto the shit list he goes.



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03 January 2020

不番薯天


明明就拿了两天假来筹足五天长假,好宅在家里做番薯、生蘑菇、结蜘蛛网什么的。

偏偏今天一点都不番薯,在外溜了一整天。

没有在家里睡觉、看书,没有生菇、没有结网,但还是很爽。

因为去和较好的同事朋友们聚餐吃顿收工宴,一年一次的项目。

有许多真的是好久不见了。

虽然见了也不知道要讲什么,毕竟交际不是我的强项,但还是很开心见到他们。

是一群见了嘴角就会自动上扬的同事朋友。熟悉的面孔,不会觉得不自然或不舒服的一班人。

好啦,是有一个我现在是超不爽的啦,但认识也够久了知道他就是那样「衰款」的人。

一大班人里总有一些不是那么合得来的。八字不合,还是性格不合,还是价值道德处世观有太大差异吧?

没关系,不睬他就是了。

大伙一贯的谈笑和恶搞,笑声不断。吃了什么对我来说一点都不重要,重要的是和他们聚一聚。

餐后和少了很多的一小群去唱歌。

我们说好的每三个月一次的聚唱也渐渐没了,这次的人数也就只剩一半…

很多东西是不能尽如人意的,曲终人会散。

很难会大家坚持同一个意愿的,毕竟每个人注重的东西不同,优先次序不同。

人是会变的,在所难免。

不过不要讲伤感的话,因为我今天很开心,真的。

谢谢这一班同事朋友,由衷感激。谢谢你们接受反社会、反社交的我。

因为你们,我选择不番薯一天,呵呵! =P



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