Long weekend (7)

Friday evening now, a temporary pause in work. Giving myself a respite, shall resume after dinner.

The past Monday was a public holiday, so last weekend was a three days long weekend.

Usually I will post an entry on the last day of, or on the next day of, the long weekend. However I haven't got a breather for days.

Not counting today, as it hasn't happened yet, six consecutive days of working overtime thus far.

So ya, I had worked through the three days long weekend. Needless to say, a failed long weekend.

The coming weekend is not a long weekend, but will be a sucky one nevertheless, as I will be working through it.

Stressed～

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Long weekend (6)

Tuesday night now, the last few hours of my four days long weekend.

Today's a public holiday, and I took Monday off, hence the four days long weekend.

Worked overtime in two days out of four, and resisted the urge to work in the other two.

Definitely not a win, but didn't totally suck as well.

The backache sucks though.

Got the car serviced. Got the insurance thing sorted. Bought the laptop for wifey. Managed to get to the last chapter of the Diablo IV season 11 journey, or I should say the last rank of season 11, as that's what they are called now. Nope, didn't complete all objectives and challenges within each rank, just focused on the capstone objective. Too bad the capstone objective for the last rank requires players to complete at least 10 objectives or challenges. Hate the grind, so bollocks to the game designers for setting this kind of objective.

Anyway, fairly fruitful weekend.

Expect the coming long weekend to be working overtime through though.

*Sigh...*

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Long weekend (5)

As the blog title implied, had another three days long weekend. Took Monday off.

Again, it's neither a win nor a fail. Could have been better, could have been worse.

Pretty much the same like the previous weekend: still sick, still constant stuffiness and discomfort, didn't worked overtime (not counting the less than one hour foray), and coincidently also had visitors and went to the same place for dinner.

Actually, eerily similar to the previous weekend...

*cue spooky music*

Anyway, still a few more long weekends to come. In fact, I won't be working on any Monday in August.

If all goes as planned, that is. Since even though I have aligned with my manager to take leave on all Mondays in August, the workload has other ideas.

So yes I might be on leave, but I might also be working overtime while on leave.

Happened way too many times. Sad, I know.

Well, can still hope.

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Long weekend (4)

Another Monday. Another last day of three days long weekend.

Neither a win nor a fail this time. On the fence.

Still sick, at around 50% to 60% these few days. That stuffy feeling. Phlegm that couldn't be coughed or blew out, yet enough to cause discomfort. Nose and throat annoyingly partially unclear, just enough to be irritable.

Didn't worked overtime. No, that less than one hour wasn't counted. That's just how it is.

Managed to get some real progress on my Diablo IV season journey, albeit it's by giving up on the previous character and restarted a new one to do the boring rushed playstyle.

So ya, it's a neither good nor bad long weekend. Could have been better, also could have been worse.

Hope the next one is better.

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病夫

终于熬到星期五。还活着。感恩。

八月至今，七天。病足七天。

八月一日开始生病，第二天全日死尸般在床上度过。

第三天开始渐渐比较像活人，但就是不能完全痊愈。

如果老天是要告诉我，这八月也将会是个烂透的月份，我收到、明白了。

真的，毋庸置疑，我完全理解了。不必再让我病下去。

我都没有期望八月会比七月好…

贱命一条。

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Long weekend (3)

Another Monday. Another last day of my long weekend.

But this time, it's a four days long weekend. Took Friday and Monday off.

Would have added a "yay!" at the end of the last paragraph, if it had gone as planned. You know, the rest and relax, chill long weekend.

But alas, it's a big fail.

Not the usual worked overtime through weekend that kind of fail. But the sick throughout the long weekend that kind of fail.

Friday at half hit point, deteriorating. Saturday was half dead. Sunday was bedridden the whole day, fully dead to the world. And today, Monday, was quarter dead.

No, this is not rest and relax, this is recovering. They are different.

So ya, failed long weekend. Hope the next will be better.

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有感而发：离

今天是 My FM DJ 颜薇恩在电台工作的最后一天，告别她二十二年的广播生涯。

我开始工作至今，早上上班路上总有她的声音陪伴。

想到以后上班途上不会再听到她的声音了，还真的有点感伤。

那习惯了的声音，常常让我微笑，甚至笑出来的声音。

唉～

曲终人散。

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雨

大雨，不停的下。

气温凉到，关了风扇好一阵。

天气冷，心里也只有残喘微弱的火苗。

蜡烛两头烧，耗尽了对任何事物的热忱和动力。

多日累积的疲惫，搞得精神很散漫、效率很低。

没有温度的世界，反映我愤世嫉俗的心境。

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Long weekend (2)

Another Monday. Another last day of my three days long weekend.

This is the second of the three long weekends this month. One more to come.

This three days long weekend is a solid fail. Instead of rest and relax, I have clocked 11 hours and 24 minutes of overtime work thus far. That amount will likely increase after dinner tonight...

Worked overtime from after lunch to before dinner on both Saturday and Sunday. Solid working hours. Only stopped because had to go pick up kid from tuition and to have dinner out.

And worked past midnight on Saturday. Spared myself on Sunday night, as I was simply too tired.

And too fed up. The discontentment with work has reached too high a level. Frustrated with how the project is managed, the frequent change in direction, resulting in all these overtimes, and still struggled to keep up.

This long weekend is definitely a failure, and despite all the overtime hours, I am still behind. So the pressure is still looming large.

Can already foresee the endless bombardments tomorrow when I resume my online presence. Not looking forward to it. At all.

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Long weekend (1)

Monday today, last day of my three days long weekend. Resuming work tomorrow.

This is the first of the three long weekends this month. Two more three days long weekends in subsequent weeks.

I will rate myself successful for this long weekend. Only did about half an hour of overtime, which I considered as does not count.

Yes, kind of lying to myself but that's just how it is.

Spent the long weekend mainly catching up on my gaming, and napped more than usual.

Though game progress is a lot slower than I hope, I try not to stress about it. Defeats the purpose of gaming otherwise.

Can't say I am well-rested, because I am still constantly tired, and the headache still lingers. Subtlety, but there nonetheless.

Oh well, work resumes tomorrow. Too bad.

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又一季

今天看了《奔跑吧》第十四季的最后一集，还是暖暖的收官。

希望年尾会有特别篇啦。

一开始是韩国的 Running Man，然后是中国的《奔跑吧兄弟》，然后改称的《奔跑吧》，到最近的泰国版 Running Man，我都看了。而且如果没有什么特别原因，我都打算继续看下去。

喜欢综艺，因为看了、笑了，就足够了。就是消遣娱乐嘛。看看、笑笑、轻松一下。

那些偶尔会看到的美丽风景、新地点的介绍、突如其来的感动，都是额外附加的福利。

希望一直都会有这样的综艺节目啦。

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To not burn

To not have any of my hard-earned annual leaves burned by the end of the month, I will need to take at least two days off in July.

In terms of work, the whole of last month was just one exhausting and frustrating mess, that left me with no life, no time and energy for anything else.

July didn't actually started off great, but these few days are slightly better. Here's hoping there will be no repeat of last month.

Anyway, I have to take at least two days off this month, and initially I wanted to take a whole work week off, five days leave to make a nine days break.

Manager asked me to have a coverage. Fair. And if possible, to break it down to two and three days leaves, given I am not going on vacation or anything, just wanted a break. Okay.

Which got me thinking. I don't really have coverage, not for the primary hands on work I do anyway, because my thermal model and my thermal simulation are built and run on a Computational Fluid Dynamics (CFD) software that none of the other thermal engineers in the department uses.

Used to have another colleague in the team who knows that CFD software, but he has left the company. Maybe I should switch to the more common but less features CFD software...

Anyway, shorter break will probably mean I could get away without a coverage, and I also think that I will most likely end up working overtime if I took the whole work week off. My manager thinks so too. She knows me.

So I dropped the whole work week off idea, and am just going to take two separate Mondays off to make three days long weekends.

Monday instead of Friday because there is a weekly Artificial Intelligence sharing on Friday afternoon that I like to attend. Goodness knows I need to get on that A.I. bandwagon before I am left in the dust, outdated and irrelevant.

If I am not already.

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七月

七月了。

新的一个月份，希望是新的的一个开始，换掉上个月的晦气，和无尽的劳烦。转转运吧。

希望是那样，现实又是另一样。

七月一日，病了，还连续病了两天。

七月一日，就需要加时工作了。至今七月才第四天而已，已经加时工作了两天，还是睁一只眼闭一只眼没把今早（星期六）做了半小时算进去那种，自我欺骗的算法。

转运？噗嗤！真可笑。

这就是命。

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有感而发：废掉

六月，有三十天。

今年六月的这三十天里，有三天的公假，八天的周末，和我拿了一天半的年假，所以照理我只有十七天半的工作日。

事实却是我做了二十六天的工，其中加时工作了二十一天。

抛开周末不说，这个月的公假和我拿的年假加起来都已是四天半了，但这三十天里，只有四天，我没有工作。

现实很残酷。有些苦，真的只有自己知。

整个六月，根本就没有时间运动。可以不累着起床，整天可以不头疼，还真的就当作赚到了…

可悲，但事实。

整个月就这样废掉了。

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My bad!

Okay, after a thorough check, there is nothing wrong with my thermal model after all.

As in, I didn't made any mistake in building it, hence it could run without problem. High quality mesh, correct power inputs and all that.

The simulation results showing unbelievably high temperature all round are in fact, the correct prediction, the computational fluid dynamics software doing its job flawlessly.

All the grieves came from me making a rookie mistake: leaving the cabinet in its default settings of adiabatic walls. Meaning I am putting a device that keeps generating heat inside an enclosure that cannot transfer the heat out, so everything within the enclosure keeps getting hotter.

Such a noob mistake! >_<

Funny thing is I don't remember why I changed the settings back to default, because in the previous version, I had it set correctly. It's supposed to be a temporary thing, but thanks to my goldfish memory, I forgot to change it back.

Oh well. My bad, I freely admit it.

At least the grieves were my own making, not from the others.

Goodness knows I have had enough grieves from the others for this particular project.

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Low batt

Low energy level. Everyday.

Headache comes and goes. Ever present.

Working everyday, no day off. No break.

Tired. Just tired.

Shitty condition. Shitty situation.

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Tough days ahead

Project management is a mess, things changed on a daily basis and yet the deadline for thermal assessment is two days.

I said I need two weeks, and they said two days, simply because they want something to report out this coming Friday.

Too bad then, should have managed the project better. Can't even have the project properly defined, still making changes today. The dimensions today are totally different to yesterday's, so I guess they would ask for one day thermal model generation, simulation and assessment if I asked today.

I didn't bother. There is no point when working with this kind of people.

I am doing my best, did overtime yesterday, and going to work overtime after dinner tonight. But I am not miracle worker, the thermal model will not be ready, let alone thermal simulation.

What's really going to make it tough though, is that wifey is going on a trip, so I am losing my wellbeing support.

Going to be stressful these coming days. I am already dreading it.

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Small, meaningful

Supposed to meet up with some colleague friends last week.

I was preparing for it since Monday, looked up the location, identified the routes (two, one as back up just in case), located a nearby coffee shop that I can spend time in as I planned to arrive early to avoid the rush hour traffic.

I was prepared, but then headache struck on the day. The kind that rendered me zombie-like on the bed, dead to the world.

So I missed it. Bollocks.

Today, there was another gathering with ex-colleague friends, and I made it.

Just three of us, but then I preferred small gathering with meaningful conversation, instead of big gathering where people talked in small groups anyway, where most of the people in the gathering do not know what's happening at the other end of the table. Or just two seats away really.

So a lunch and we moved to a tea house after, and then it's already 16:00 hours, just like that.

I take that as we were having a good time, so the time passed quickly.

For a borderline antisocial person, I find this a worthwhile social event.

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Random thoughts

Spent one whole working day, just to get something acceptable in thermal model for the rounded corners the mechanical design loves so much.

And most likely will have to totally replace them with stair-step version when the mesh gives endless convergence problem.

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How can someone feel alright for hurting another person? Knowingly.

That is care? That is privilege?

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Headache, for no apparent reason.

Left eye. Top left side of head.

Being zombie in the bed is all I could do.

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Diablo IV Lord of Hatred item, loot and Horadric Cube are just one convoluted system that I do not enjoy.

A fail in my book.

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悟

“天下无难事，只要肯放弃。”

我笑点低，所以第一次听到这句话，觉得是很搞笑的歪理。

然后几年后的如今，开始怀疑，那是不是已经活到了另一个境界的领悟？

当然要放得下，先要学会不在乎。断舍离。

所以我自己加了条后句：

“凡事都能放，只要不在乎。”

如果做得到，应该会活得轻松快乐些吧？

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