Ready

When I sent out the reports for the two concurrent projects I am working on late yerterday evening, a day before I said I would deliver, I felt I am ready for my upcoming break.

Took tomorrow (Friday) and next Monday off for a four days long weekend.

Nothing special, I just needed the break. Goodness knows I need the rest.

Ideally it will be four days of staying home doing nothing except chill and relax. Okay, with some novel reading and computer game playing.

But definitely with a lot of rest, nap and sleep.

That's what I hope for, ideally.

Yet I already know I have to wash the car, do the tax and log in to set up and run three different thermal simulation models with multiple workloads over the four days...

So much for ideal. -_-

Nevertheless, I am ready for my break. Oh yes I am.

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心的频道：寻求简单

我是简单朴素的人，至少我真心这么认为。

没有追求荣华富贵、对物质享受没兴趣、喜欢小贩食物多过餐厅食物。我不是奢侈的人。

不在乎职位名气，对高职、专业领袖什么的都没有意愿。就真的只想做好自己的工作，有稳定的收入来养家。

钱当然是越多越好，但可能我会这样想是因为自己的经济状况无法任孩子们想去哪升学就去哪，感觉辜负了他们…

若孩子们自立了，还真的只要足够来活得舒适就好。我绝对是低维护费的一族。

向往的是简单平静的生活，内向和反社交的我宅在家里很轻松愉快，可以不出门我就不出门。

毕竟外面的世界太危险了。人心莫测、人言可畏，最残忍恐怖的生物。

嗯，还有一大堆的脑残智障…

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Small win

Today, around 18:30 hours, I finally set to run the thermal model I have been working on for many days.

Two weeks to be exact. That took longer than I expected, and as usual, the program manager wanted the results two weeks ago, oh well...

Set to run for the first time, so it doesn't mean I will get results because unless I am lucky, there usually are some problems with the model that need a few rounds of troubleshooting.

And I have no luck.

Nevertheless, it's a positive progress in the struggle to deliver results with due date that only miracle worker can achieve.

Actually deep down I don't believe anyone can deliver to that unrealistic ask date. Perhaps that's just my ego talking, *shrug*.

Anyway, gotta celebrate the small wins. Goodness knows I need that.

Will check the model solving progress through the weekend, and debug as necessary. But for tonight, I will celebrate this small win by not working overtime.

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累到梦里

已经好多好多天没有睡好了，都可以用星期来做计算单位那种。

睡眠素质很差，很难入睡，夜间又屡醒。

所以精神状况不佳，每天都很疲倦。

今早能够记得最后一次醒来前在做的梦，连梦里的自己都是累的。

真是的，已经累到梦里了，唉…

>_<

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*Twitch twitch*

Argh! No Running Man this week!

*Twitch twitch*

Why oh why? I need my weekly fix.

*Twitch twitch*

Rewatch an old episode then...

*Twitch twitch*

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57.5%

Official working time is from 08:00 to 17:30, that's 9.5 hours.

Minus the 1.5 hours for meal breaks, that's 8 working hours per day.

5 working days per week so that's 40 working hours.

This week, out of this 40 hours, I was in meeting 23 hours. That's 57.5% of my working time.

That's not including the various impromptu, unscheduled 1:1 meetings that started with instant messages asking for help or to discuss something that ended up becoming virtual conferences.

Tried as I may, I just can't get the thermal model done, even with working overtime. Granted, I didn't work long hours overtime thus far.

The in between meetings time periods are too fragmented to make good progress on the model. What I need is a long stretch of uninterrupted time to work.

Instead, what I get is long hours of meetings that drain my energy and scattered time slots to try to squeeze in some real work.

Bollocks!

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生活点滴：吱吱噗噗

仓鼠「可可」不聋也不哑，但不常发出声音，就是只文静的小公主。

今天晚餐后情人老婆仔把它放到天台让它自由跑动，我洗完盘碗就开了天台的门坐在门栏看它。

天台和门栏有高度差，但「可可」爬得上，所以没有人在门栏守着就会把门关上，以免「可可」爬上了往屋内乱跑。

今天我关了家门，开了天台们，说若「可可」爬上天台的高度差，就让它在屋内闯一闯，看它会去哪里。

它果然就爬上了，去探索对它来说新开拓的世界，呵呵！当然老婆仔，小瓜和我有一直护航啦，以免它一溜烟跑向大门，再从门缝溜出去。

它在客厅转了转，从沙发下钻过到电脑桌下比较阴暗的角落，然后就变成扁扁贴着地要睡觉了。

情人老婆仔见状就想把它放回它居住的容器让它休息，但要把它托在手心里时它感到被骚扰，很不悦的发出难得一闻的吱吱声。

原来小小的身体是可以发出那声量的哦！

噗噗又是什么呢？

把「可可」放回容器后，和情人老婆仔一同去洗手后，谈着「可可」那难得的叫声时，我很惯性的拍拍老婆仔的屁股。

那么巧合的，我一拍她就放屁。她笑说像「可可」那样，是不要骚扰她的信号，呵呵！

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Ineffective overtime

Program manager expected results yesterday, while I am still at the first stage of thermal simulation, i.e. the model generation.

There are solving and post-processing stages before getting the results, and that's assuming everything went smoothly, which almost never.

There will be problem, and there will be debugging, a few iterations of that before a successful simulation.

Hence the time period needed before I can give any useful results. But of course, the manager wants the results yesterday...

So I have to work overtime today, and tomorrow, during the weekend when I am supposed to be taking a break to recharge for next week.

And I am tired, just tired, so the progress is slow. Many hours of work for little progress.

It's frustrating, it's disheartening, it's a psychological drain on my already tired state.

Bollocks really. Bollocks.

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Bad combo

Poor quality sleep and the need to work overtime do not go well together.

Unrealistic due date for thermal simulation request yet again.

I am not trying as hard as I used to, because I am tired.

Tired from the poor quality sleep, also tired of this kind of rushed job request being repeated again and again.

So I work overtime, but I do not push myself.

Pretty sure I will not get it done by Friday, and I am not burning my health to meet it.

Unwanted and unnecessary stress.

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生活点滴：大瓜打杂

疫情缘故，学生的学期乱七八糟，现在是孩子们的“年终假期”。

也不知道大瓜和情人老婆仔之间发生过什么事，还是老婆仔那天狠心去断了秀发时和也是亲友的理发师谈了些什么的，但这几天一直叫大瓜去那理发店做工。

大瓜当然是一万个不情愿咯，但我真的很意外他今天竟然去了。

埋怨着出门，但还是自己走去了距离大概五到十分钟步行路程的理发店。

从天台看他拖得很慢的脚步，该是有多么的抗拒和无奈啊…

两点到六点，他两点才出门，五点半就回到家了，真是的。

老婆仔说是帮忙做点杂工什么的，大瓜回家后说就是清理和抹这抹那的，加上他一贯的埋怨。

说真的，我很意外他竟然去了。

还真的莫名有点感动…

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悼念长发

情人老婆仔那一头秀发，她狠狠剪掉了九寸。

她说至少要剪六寸，因为那才可以捐献给癌症的人做假发。

做善事是好的，但… 怎么多剪了三寸呢？

我喜爱的长发没了。 *哭哭*

请勿打扰，我在哀悼中。

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