31 January 2024

滚!


一转眼二零二四年第一个月已经最后一天了。

很废的一个月,万事不顺。真是的。

今天发现了那正在做着的项目的热流模型里有个微小、但致命的差误。第一个想到的形容词是「晴天霹雳」!

第四版模型里那一个0.3毫米的差误,作废了十二月尾开始和整个一月跑过的四十多个模拟。我的天啊~

现在能够跑热流模拟的电脑资源缺乏的情况下,需要重跑那么多的模拟,真的很崩溃。

是我自己的失误,浪费了自己那么多的心血和时间,真的很沮丧…

对自己太失望了,整个人都不好了。

二零二四年第一个月真的是太残酷无奈了。终于都过去了,不送,请滚远远去!

二月你就不要也是那副衰样,可好?



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29 January 2024

Misery loves company


I am evil, I have never denied that.

In fact, I am proud to admit that, and to make sure people know that when they somehow have the notion that I am a nice person.

Being nice is overrated, rather be evil really. To the mass majority anyway.

Being perceived as evil sets the right expectation. This is how I like it.

So ya, my dear colleague, I totally get you, I truly understand what you are feeling and going through, but I feel devilishly gleeful. Not because of your suffering, for I sincerely wish you well.

It's just all so very familiar for me that I find it amusing and somewhat funny, not maliciously, more like helplessly, a mirroring self-deprecatory.

And ya, it's nice to have a company in miseryville. =P



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28 January 2024

23 hours 17 minutes


Four working weeks have passed for 2024.

During which there were two public holidays, the New Year's day and Thaipusam. I took a day off during this period, so it's a total of 17 working days time period for me.

In these 17 working days period, I have worked overtime 13 days, with a total work time of 23 hours 17 minutes.

The longest overtime per day is 3 hours 35 minutes. The average overtime per day is 1 hour 47 minutes and 27 seconds.

The longest stretch of continuous working overtime in these four weeks is 7 days in a roll. If I worked overtime again tomorrow it will become 8 days in a roll...

Ya... work/life balance is just a myth. A glorified slogan so those in charge can feel good about themselves.

Yes, strive for work/life balance please, but no, I don't care that it's public holiday or that you are going to be on leave, give me the results in two days time.

Oxymoronic hypocrites.



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26 January 2024

不平衡


花了几周准备的散热方案,大老板详情不问就拒绝了。

系统最终的散热能力全在细节里,我的优化和改善,全都是细节的调整。偏偏老板们、管理们,总是只看高层,和随空抓来个散热能力目标。

散热工程师去解决吧,仿佛物理极限是可以随心改变那样…

唉,真的很无语。

星期三把最新的模拟数据报告上去后,也提供了根据数据资料推理出来的优化方向。项目管理问我几时可以给新的模拟数据的报告,我说下个星期二。星期一改模型和让它通宵计算,一切顺利星期二会有数据。

项目管理说不行,太迟了,星期五就要数据。我说星期四是公假,星期五我休假。项目管理重复,星期五要数据。

真的,如果我已经决定离开那部门的话,我一定会把这事吵到人事部去的。

但我没有,毕竟喜欢现在的工作,而且问题不是工,是那些人。累人的人类。

所以公假也好,休假也好,我都是在加时工作。而且因为不能浪费不足的电脑资源,要确保人睡觉时电脑还是在工作,所以撑到凌晨两点都还是需要把新的模拟设好去计算了才可以下班。

真的好累。心里很不平衡。

换了部门这么多年,第一次有了做不下去的念头。



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24 January 2024

Diablo IV third season


The third season for Diablo IV, the Season of Construct, has begun.

While I managed to reach the max character level 100 just before the previous season ended, I didn't managed to complete the season two journal. In fact, I was one quest short of completing the last chapter of season two journal.

Managed to experience all the new bosses in season two, defeated all except Echo of Lilith, who one shot killed me when I faced her at character level 96. After several times of being one shot killed, it's just more frustration than enjoyment. This is not how I think challenging encounter should be.

Anyway, if I had another 'work-free can play game most of the day' weekend, I would have completed season two journal. Well, not all the quests in all the journal chapters, since the PvP-related quests are not my thing. Most likely I would have completed the 'level up 5 glyphs to level 21' quest as the last one to complete the last chapter. Oh well.

Hope I will be able to complete the season journal in season three. It all depends on how much game time I have during the season period.

Such is life.



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19 January 2024

Had better days


My simulation throughput has dropped significantly after the team that owns the powerful computing resources withdrew the resource.

Crippling along is how I would describe my thermal simulation progress nowadays.

So it's no surprise at all that I have been working overtime consecutively, since losing the resource to run multiple cases in parallel means I have to babysit the simulation to minimise the time in between runs.

Anyway, I have not been idle. I have been seeking out computing resources that I can use and so far have gotten access to another shared server to run simulation, and soon I will also get another workstation from colleague who had left the company.

So ya, while I do rant like a grumpy old man (I have never denied that), I also actively look for solution.

Anyway, after 130+ simulation cases on one of the projects I am working on, another colleague is complaining today why there are still change requests because of thermal? That the colleague is supposed to be working on another project that is starting. Why the request is not earlier in the project timeline?

Ah, the luxury of working on one project only, of dropping from one completely before starting on the other. I envy that. Wish for the same too, really, but know that's just a pipe dream in this group.

But anyway, it would really pissed me off if the colleague is implying that I have been slacking. You know, I would be a happy bunny if the big boss accepted the solution path I presented in the meeting this morning, the solution that does not require your part to change. And it's not like I have not been highlighting this concern, if you have been paying attention to the past few updates I shared in the project meeting, you would have known about the change that requested by the program manager today is one of the many things I have assessed and shared. Your reluctance to accept it as an option because it requires more effort on your part doesn't make the solution less effective, and definitely does not mean I have not been diligently doing my part to find the best possible cooling solution.

And really, project cooling capability target is getting more and more ridiculous. Initially I thought that the next project that is starting (yes, I am in that too and already been requested to provide results...) is going to be the one that I finally fail to achieve the ridiculous cooling capability target. Now perhaps this project is the one instead of the next, since the solution path that I painstakingly assessed and produced, is being casually rejected because, well, I am supposed to be able to break the laws of physics...

Ya, guess it's time for me to fail spectacularly so they will stop expecting me to perform miracle. Okay, hubris is a sin, so I should say time for me to fail so they can get someone more capable to realize their lofty pulled out of thin air target.

It has seriously been sucky these few weeks, had better. Much better.



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14 January 2024

不顺


二零二四年至今,不顺。

病着开始的一年,第一周在虚弱不适中度过。

第二周,工作上开始不顺。做着的项目找不到解热的方案,新项目种种约束下荒谬的散热要求,又偏偏在这样的时候失去可以每天同时模拟几个方案的资源。

大儿子学年大考成绩出炉,又满江红,比上个学期的成绩更差。看来真的是向着全级最后一名迈进。

家里越来越不温暖、越来越少爱。只有自己在乎,不被重视,一直降低的底线。心寒。

睡眠素质比平时还差,每晚难眠又频醒。身体各种大大小小的健康问题。

唉,这命…

真的就不能有好的一年吗?



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12 January 2024

Unneeded preparation


Plan for the worst, hope for the best.

Not sure whether the amount of water stored is sufficient since no prior experience, but I was mentally prepared for a four or more days of water supply disruption even though the schedule said for my area it's supposed to be 72 hours.

Ya, I have trust issue when it comes to these things.

Anyway, staying in a condominium with water tank (and probably sensible neighbours) meant that we still had water when the water supply disruption started on Wednesday. So it's life as usual but I am sure being sensible people we were all being conscious of our water usage.

In fact, all stored water is untouched when the management informed us that the water supply has resumed on Thursday. So basically I have experienced no water supply disruption, not even a drop in water pressure.

Absolutely no complaint about missed experience, I love hot shower! =P

Well, I foresee many days of flushing toilet with scoop and bucket.



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09 January 2024

Eve of water supply disruption


Tomorrow 06:00 hours onwards, for up to 96 hours, there will be statewide disruption in water supply for some maintenance and repair work.

For my area, the scheduled down time with no water supply is 72 hours. I hope they will at least meet the schedule, better still if they can complete ahead of schedule. Truth is I am skeptical.

Since the weekend I have been storing water in various containers, think I have about 400 litres of water stored at the moment in a few 90L plastic containers that we usually store other stuff in, as well as rubbish bin sized plastic bags in two laundry baskets.

Dad said he has filled up his bathtub, that should last him through the no water supply period.

Later in the day I will fill up all the buckets and pails, and all that remain is to hope the stored water will be enough for the whole family for however long the water supply disruption will be.



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07 January 2024

乏力


二零二四年第一个周末,我没有加时工作,那是好事,感觉成功。

但整个人仍是大病刚复的状态,仍旧病弱和易累,不时还会咳嗽和气喘。

凡事乏力,精神和身躯都一样,就是很差的一个状况。

情人老婆仔买了益生菌和免疫丸给我,所以每天就是起床三颗胶囊、睡前两颗,间中还服用止咳药,感觉很老人。

唉… 二零二四年至今,不好。

我又能怎样?

乏力、无奈。



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03 January 2024

2024


Ended 2023 down with Covid, started 2024 on the fifth day since tested positive, the last day of the quarantine.

This is the second time I was infected with Covid-19. Still feeling weak and tire easily these few days.

The shortness of breath is new, at least I don't remember having it the last time I had Covid-19.

Definitely not a good way to end a year and start a year, but then, this is just so... my life.

Can still hope that 2024 will be good to me.

Ya, hope, the thing that get me through life.



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