24 May 2026

Random thoughts


Spent one whole working day, just to get something acceptable in thermal model for the rounded corners the mechanical design loves so much.

And most likely will have to totally replace them with stair-step version when the mesh gives endless convergence problem.

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How can someone feel alright for hurting another person? Knowingly.

That is care? That is privilege?

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Headache, for no apparent reason.

Left eye. Top left side of head.

Being zombie in the bed is all I could do.

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Diablo IV Lord of Hatred item, loot and Horadric Cube are just one convoluted system that I do not enjoy.

A fail in my book.



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21 May 2026

Shell


I am done. Finished. Drained. Emptied. Hollowed out.

Pushed around. Ignored. Disrespected. Gaslighted.

Repeatedly. Again and again.

No remorse.

I am broken.

A writhed husk.



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18 May 2026


“天下无难事,只要肯放弃。”

我笑点低,所以第一次听到这句话,觉得是很搞笑的歪理。

然后几年后的如今,开始怀疑,那是不是已经活到了另一个境界的领悟?

当然要放得下,先要学会不在乎。断舍离。

所以我自己加了条后句:

“凡事都能放,只要不在乎。”

如果做得到,应该会活得轻松快乐些吧?



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15 May 2026

忌日



三年。

我们好好。

对不起。谢谢你。



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13 May 2026

292 steps


I am getting further and further away from my flat rectangular shape. It's not an attractive body shape, but that's my shape for many years.

Well, many years when I was younger.

For the many more recent years, that flat rectangular shape is developing a bulge. It's getting bigger and bigger.

While round is also a shape and I have nothing against it really, I simply prefer the rectangular more. For my body shape, that is.

So I have been exercising since early May, every alternative weekday.

I would take the rubbish out after I washed the dishes, take the lift down, and climb the stairs back to my unit.

That's 17 floors, 292 stair-steps, and takes me around 6 minutes of steady walk without break.

Don't know how long this will last. I can but try.



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10 May 2026

Finally


Twelve days after the launch of Diablo IV second expansion: Lord of Hatred, I have finally completed the campaign.

I know there are many who bragged about completing the campaign, getting to max level, end game and all that in a few hours on launch day. Good for you, but as someone who loves the lore and enjoys the details, no thanks.

I am a slow gamer and proud of it, hahaha! =P

Sure am glad I am done with the campaign, mightily curious how Blizzard will continue the story? Is it going to be about another Prime Evil now?

Until the next lore update though, time for me to get myself familiar with the new features in this expansion.

And to complete the season journey.

Hope I will have enough game time for that, and not ending up with a mad rush that's totally not my way of having fun playing a game.



Other |geeky gaming| category entries.


07 May 2026

有感而发:散


几年前我换了部门。新环境、新同事。

反社会、反交际的我绝大多数时候是独来独往,但还是在同事间有了两位朋友。

一位去年尾离开了公司。另一位这月尾将要离开公司。

有那曲终人散的感觉。

归零。

终究人走茶凉?

伤感。惆怅。失落。

愿他们寻获他们的梦想和成就…



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