Losing it

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Dementia, noun, (pathology) a progressive decline in cognitive function due to damage or disease in the brain beyond what might be expected rom normal aging. Areas particularly affected include memory, attention, judgement, language and problem solving.

Alzheimer's disease, noun, (neurology, pathology) a disorder involving loss of mental functions resulting from brain tissue changes.

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Many years ago, I took the time and effort to learn how to solve the Rubik's Cube.

Granted, I learned only the beginner's method, so it's not for speed, but just for being able to solve it.

I put in the time and effort, and for a few years after that, the skill stayed with me, so I thought it's something that will stay for life, like how to ride a bicycle. Learned once, skill gained forever.

But I was wrong, for I have lost the skill. Retained neither the muscle memory nor the brain memory.

Sad, for the lost in memory, the skill, and the effort.

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灰

嗯，凌晨已过，所以不再是今天，而是昨天的事了。

昨天，天灰灰。下了一整天的雨。

早上一直到傍晚，长命大雨逐渐转小。究竟几点雨停，或者有没有停，我不知道，因为傍晚下班后我关了窗帘。

有阳光，但乌云全胜的密布，整个白天都没见到太阳。

就只有阴天，一片灰。

下雨也好，可以缓解邻国每年都要制造的烟霾。有些人就是可以这么自私，不在乎对环境的污染。

这个雨天，没有浪漫，就只是阴暗，和凉。

天灰气凉，心也灰凉。

最近常常想退休的事。我真的累了。

现实是，最少也还得挨多六年。那是如果孩子们一切顺利，大学毕业就可以自立自供的话。

我还真的怀疑过，自己是不是还能撑多六年？

健康太糟糕了。整个人废了的感觉。

已经病了十五天，还是不能痊愈。

灰，很灰。

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Long weekend (4)

Another Monday. Another last day of three days long weekend.

Neither a win nor a fail this time. On the fence.

Still sick, at around 50% to 60% these few days. That stuffy feeling. Phlegm that couldn't be coughed or blew out, yet enough to cause discomfort. Nose and throat annoyingly partially unclear, just enough to be irritable.

Didn't worked overtime. No, that less than one hour wasn't counted. That's just how it is.

Managed to get some real progress on my Diablo IV season journey, albeit it's by giving up on the previous character and restarted a new one to do the boring rushed playstyle.

So ya, it's a neither good nor bad long weekend. Could have been better, also could have been worse.

Hope the next one is better.

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病夫

终于熬到星期五。还活着。感恩。

八月至今，七天。病足七天。

八月一日开始生病，第二天全日死尸般在床上度过。

第三天开始渐渐比较像活人，但就是不能完全痊愈。

如果老天是要告诉我，这八月也将会是个烂透的月份，我收到、明白了。

真的，毋庸置疑，我完全理解了。不必再让我病下去。

我都没有期望八月会比七月好…

贱命一条。

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Long weekend (3)

Another Monday. Another last day of my long weekend.

But this time, it's a four days long weekend. Took Friday and Monday off.

Would have added a "yay!" at the end of the last paragraph, if it had gone as planned. You know, the rest and relax, chill long weekend.

But alas, it's a big fail.

Not the usual worked overtime through weekend that kind of fail. But the sick throughout the long weekend that kind of fail.

Friday at half hit point, deteriorating. Saturday was half dead. Sunday was bedridden the whole day, fully dead to the world. And today, Monday, was quarter dead.

No, this is not rest and relax, this is recovering. They are different.

So ya, failed long weekend. Hope the next will be better.

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有感而发：离

今天是 My FM DJ 颜薇恩在电台工作的最后一天，告别她二十二年的广播生涯。

我开始工作至今，早上上班路上总有她的声音陪伴。

想到以后上班途上不会再听到她的声音了，还真的有点感伤。

那习惯了的声音，常常让我微笑，甚至笑出来的声音。

唉～

曲终人散。

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雨

大雨，不停的下。

气温凉到，关了风扇好一阵。

天气冷，心里也只有残喘微弱的火苗。

蜡烛两头烧，耗尽了对任何事物的热忱和动力。

多日累积的疲惫，搞得精神很散漫、效率很低。

没有温度的世界，反映我愤世嫉俗的心境。

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