有感而发：贱

连续九天的加时工作，除了吃饭、如厕、和难免的载送做司机任务外，真的就是那睁眼就工作到晚上或凌晨闭眼睡觉的那种。

哦，还有那些要找工作间隙，像人体工程学软件促使的工间休息时间，来完成的家务。因为如情人老婆仔所说的那样，要抱着当作放假在家很有空的大儿子没有在心态。

问题是，这“没有在”的人，我还得照顾他的三餐，洗、晒、收他的衣服… 如果真的是没有在我反而轻松些。

欸，不是要写关于那话题，让我言归正传。

连续九天夙兴夜寐的加时工作，既是周末也一样，来赶出热流模拟的数据。

然后就被一句 “热流模拟数据不对” 给敷衍带过。

勾叉零蛋三角形！你敷衍我，我还不是很在意，因为那是你人品的问题，与我无关；但你说我的热流模拟不对，我就非常的在意，那是对我工作品质的攻击！

请把话说好来，热流模拟数据没有问题，数据显示那设计很有问题我们两位散热工程师一点都不出奇，毕竟我们早已跟你们说过了，你们那设计对散热非常不友好。

你们不相信我们散热工程师说的，硬要数据来支撑我们的意见，现在数据出来了，你就讲这样的屁话？

你过后说设计变了，不是热流模型那设计了。那不是我的热流模拟不对，是你改了原本那烂设计又没有告诉团队，却要抛锅到我头上，勾叉零蛋四角形！于是我把你之前发出来给我做热流模型的 3D图，那你说我模拟数据不对的部分的截图，放在团队的即时通讯群里留个证据。

要攻击我的工作品质，请慎重考虑，那是我必会捍卫的事。

会议里跟你要最新的 3D图来修改或重建我的热流模型，你就推说待会。到了下班时间都没有发给我 3D图。第二天星期六我又加时工作来跟你要 3D图，你依旧说待会。我到了中午就下班了，没理由因为那迟迟都发不出来的 3D图傻傻的等，浪费我的周末。

所以这周末我不算真的有加班到，但因为连续那么多天没日没夜的忙，周末没有在做工我竟然有点不习惯，有点莫名的愧疚感。真是的，工作上遇到贱人也就罢了，为什么自己要这么命贱？

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Stressed

Worked overtime every single day, including two weekends, for the simulation results shared to team today.

Before the simulation results are available, the thermal team (all two of us) already knew that the thermal performance is going to be bad, but the rest of the team would not listen, and would not make changes to improve the design.

So I had to go through the motion of building the thermal model for this badly designed system, ran the simulations, and showed the results to the team.

The bad results are no surprise to the thermal team, if only the rest of the team could have believed us, we would have made better and more efficient progress in system design.

But alas, such is the team, so such is the progress. Waste of my time and effort really, could have been put to better use.

Still the lead is not fully on board, still pushing back on improvement ideas, rejecting some without a thought.

Great, more rounds of this low value simulation just to have the data for "I told you so".

Rather not really, but oh well, such is the team...

Needless stress.

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二十年

小天使，二十年了…
你和奶奶在天国可好？
希望是那样

你那总要人操心的大弟弟大学先修班重考了一次后可以进大学了
成绩单里没有一科优级，虽没有期望，但还是有点失望
看来他还是那样的态度…

还没有收入的他很舍得花了五百多块的生活费买个鼠标
因为要玩电脑游戏用
唉～

等待大学开学这几周他回到家里
妈妈劝我说就当作他不在，省点心
看来也只能那样，毕竟我很忙、很烦

妈妈不在家
跟公司在他州开会和晚宴，然后出国旅游
下星期五才会回来

妈妈不在，爸爸没有人可以依靠
没有抱抱、没有寄托
烦恼压力都只有自己撑

你要看护着妈妈哦
让她玩得开开心心
安全的归来

想着你，小天使…

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Tough days ahead

Project management is a mess, things changed on a daily basis and yet the deadline for thermal assessment is two days.

I said I need two weeks, and they said two days, simply because they want something to report out this coming Friday.

Too bad then, should have managed the project better. Can't even have the project properly defined, still making changes today. The dimensions today are totally different to yesterday's, so I guess they would ask for one day thermal model generation, simulation and assessment if I asked today.

I didn't bother. There is no point when working with this kind of people.

I am doing my best, did overtime yesterday, and going to work overtime after dinner tonight. But I am not miracle worker, the thermal model will not be ready, let alone thermal simulation.

What's really going to make it tough though, is that wifey is going on a trip, so I am losing my wellbeing support.

Going to be stressful these coming days. I am already dreading it.

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Small, meaningful

Supposed to meet up with some colleague friends last week.

I was preparing for it since Monday, looked up the location, identified the routes (two, one as back up just in case), located a nearby coffee shop that I can spend time in as I planned to arrive early to avoid the rush hour traffic.

I was prepared, but then headache struck on the day. The kind that rendered me zombie-like on the bed, dead to the world.

So I missed it. Bollocks.

Today, there was another gathering with ex-colleague friends, and I made it.

Just three of us, but then I preferred small gathering with meaningful conversation, instead of big gathering where people talked in small groups anyway, where most of the people in the gathering do not know what's happening at the other end of the table. Or just two seats away really.

So a lunch and we moved to a tea house after, and then it's already 16:00 hours, just like that.

I take that as we were having a good time, so the time passed quickly.

For a borderline antisocial person, I find this a worthwhile social event.

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Potato mode on!

Public and replacement holidays next Monday and Tuesday, plus the half day leave I took today make a 4.5 days long weekend, yippie! =D

And since the project management keeps changing their mind on a weekly basis, I actually do not have the latest information to be able to do anything, so there is no worry about working overtime this long weekend.

I will take that as a blessing in disguise, and worry about the unrealistic deadline they will demand when they finally decided on something solid.

Not like it's the first time we suffer for management issue. Have zero confidence they will improve. Call me a skeptic, but I am just being realistic.

Anyway, I intend to sink some substantial time in playing Diablo IV, to progress in the season journey and be done with it. Like the storyline, but can't say I enjoy the gameplay. The latest and not greatest item and loot changes have been unnecessarily convoluted, and the many more one shot kill mechanisms are pure frustration. Most of the time I didn't even know what killed me.

Don't really have any other plan for the long weekend...

So heads up, potato mode is on! Don't contact me for work related stuff, bad karma and shittiest luck for the remaining of the year to whoever that does.

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Never end

Just when I was about to finish with the questionable aesthetic pleasing chassis that is a nightmare for thermal model generation, they change the whole damn thing yet again.

Every single week, a major change that renders whatever I am working on obsolete.

Basically they haven't decided on a firm direction, just randomly throwing out ideas, yet they demand thermal assessment to be done as soon as possible.

And had the cheek to say more changes coming.

What the fish and duck? What's the point of doing an assessment on something you already discarded? Bunch of monkey clowns.

Waste of my time and effort.

I will just wait until you get your mess sorted and decided on something more solid, a proper project direction instead of this sorry state you shamelessly considered defined.

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