Long weekend (8)

Monday today. Took annual leave so it will not burn by end of September.

So, three days long weekend.

Unsurprisingly, worked Saturday and Sunday, for a total of 8 hours and 38 minutes.

Forced myself to not work today. I am over-stressed, over-worked, and in a depression bout.

And struggling on my own.

But life always got a way to make it worse. Not only did I not get the support I hope to get, I get more stress from the one person who I thought I could rely on.

Failed long weekend. And in my current low energy, depressed state, a failed life that really has nothing to hang on to.

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又怎样？

提早告知无法在预期时间内完成三个同时进行的项目的那第三个项目，需要别人接替，但那又怎样？

结果是老板再空降追加一个十万火急、不切实际的大饼计划。

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提早告知模拟数据内部对比用就好，不要去跟客户对比，因为过往的经验得知客户是绝对不会认同的，但那又怎样？

结果是要我去跟客户分享报告，然后当客户开始排山倒海的反对时，没有一个出声，就是让我把模型改成客户要的那样就是了。

真的又何必呢？嫌我太有空是不是？

又不是没有凭我的模拟数据建出来的真品过，有哪一次那真品跟我的模拟不对应的？那么相信客户的模型和他们的数据，我真的也没差，就用他们的数据不就好了吗？

我无所谓，真的。够忙了，不必要这些徒劳无功的消耗。

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工作累垮了，那又怎样？

打个哈欠、伸个懒腰，然后还不是继续工作…

加时又加时，昨天加时工作到今天凌晨三点。

周末、假期、拿了年假，那又怎么样？

结果一样是在加时工作。

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讲了又讲，需要什么，不需要什么，但那又怎样？

依旧得不到需要的，和承受不需要的。

心语细述 |系列|

FUBAR

So, not only did you not offer help when I raised the bandwidth concern, you now dropped another atomic bomb on top of the burning cesspool!

And claiming you know of my bandwidth situation while doing so.

WTF?!?!

If you want to get rid of me, just come out with it. No need for all these dirty tricks to force me to fail, or force me to quit.

What a pile of crap.

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Treat...?

Diablo IV season 15 had a failed launch. No other way to put it. They broke the Solo Self Found mode among many other things, and only managed to fix it three days after the launch.

So I only started playing the season yesterday. Yup, three days after the launch. And yes, Solo Self Found mode. Of course.

What I have played so far is good, nostalgic trip down the memory lane. So kudos to that. Real shame about the failed launch though.

There is a first for everything. No, I don't mean Blizzard failed launch, that's definitely not a first, some people never learn. I meant binge buying.

Well, maybe it's not binge buying, but it sure is an impulsive urge to spend money in order to make myself feel better, to comfort myself, to treat myself.

Something that's triggered by the negativity, the stress, the hardship, the unpleasantness, that is overshadowing my life. Not sure for how long still.

I spent money getting some cosmetics for Diablo IV season 15. First time ever, and honestly, hopefully the last time as well.

Do I feel like I have treated myself? Ya...

Do I feel good about it? Not really.

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Hello cave

I suppose it's inevitable, given the long stretch of lousy, shitty days.

Still, the low energy state will make life even harder.

I am over-stressed as it is, this is going to suck. Big time.

Another depression bout has landed.

Hello cave.

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7 hours 7 minutes

Public holiday today, happy 63rd Malaysia Day!

Worked overtime for a total of 7 hours and 7 minutes, so basically it's another working day instead of a holiday to me.

Bollocks to this!

Not a happy bunny. Not at all.

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Seriously

For the love of all things holy and unholy, honestly, at this point, I do not care, enough with the crap!

Come on, give me a break already.

Enough is enough.

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