Finally

One solve per day for the last ten days consecutively.

All diverged. That's a new record.

For the past seven plus years, coming to eight in a few months, I resolved the majority of diverged cases with one debug attempt, and the few that needed more than one debug attempt, would usually be resolved within three attempts.

But lately, it's taking me more and more attempts to resolve a diverged case. Breaking the three maximum attempts previously, and now, only managed to resolve in the tenth.

*Sigh*...

Am I getting too old for this shit? Or the usual quality and focus have deteriorated as I am beyond burnt out?

Don't know. Just know that I am getting sick of all these.

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Don't come

Already beyond burnt out, so no thank you to any additional workload and meetings.

Low value, time consuming task and event for Hollywood purposes.

Really, no thank you.

Which part of being bandwidth-constrained, overloaded, overworked, that is unclear?

But it's not like I got a say in things.

So better off just don't come, save me the trouble and grief.

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不要不要不要

又已是星期天晚上，周末就这样过去了。

明天又要开工了…

不要不要不要！ >_<

现在的我，是没有热忱的躯体、没有灵魂的空壳。

公司部门再继续这样的操作，我也只有离开的选择。

随兴随想 |系列|

心的频道：废

好吧，既然你们是那样一个态度，我也可以有我的态度。

你们要那么废，我就跟着废。

看你怎么利用一个废人。

是的，我也懂得怎么躺平摆烂的。

是要不要而已。

心的频道 |系列|

Long weekend (8)

Monday today. Took annual leave so it will not burn by end of September.

So, three days long weekend.

Unsurprisingly, worked Saturday and Sunday, for a total of 8 hours and 38 minutes.

Forced myself to not work today. I am over-stressed, over-worked, and in a depression bout.

And struggling on my own.

But life always got a way to make it worse. Not only did I not get the support I hope to get, I get more stress from the one person who I thought I could rely on.

Failed long weekend. And in my current low energy, depressed state, a failed life that really has nothing to hang on to.

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又怎样？

提早告知无法在预期时间内完成三个同时进行的项目的那第三个项目，需要别人接替，但那又怎样？

结果是老板再空降追加一个十万火急、不切实际的大饼计划。

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提早告知模拟数据内部对比用就好，不要去跟客户对比，因为过往的经验得知客户是绝对不会认同的，但那又怎样？

结果是要我去跟客户分享报告，然后当客户开始排山倒海的反对时，没有一个出声，就是让我把模型改成客户要的那样就是了。

真的又何必呢？嫌我太有空是不是？

又不是没有凭我的模拟数据建出来的真品过，有哪一次那真品跟我的模拟不对应的？那么相信客户的模型和他们的数据，我真的也没差，就用他们的数据不就好了吗？

我无所谓，真的。够忙了，不必要这些徒劳无功的消耗。

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工作累垮了，那又怎样？

打个哈欠、伸个懒腰，然后还不是继续工作…

加时又加时，昨天加时工作到今天凌晨三点。

周末、假期、拿了年假，那又怎么样？

结果一样是在加时工作。

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讲了又讲，需要什么，不需要什么，但那又怎样？

依旧得不到需要的，和承受不需要的。

心语细述 |系列|

FUBAR

So, not only did you not offer help when I raised the bandwidth concern, you now dropped another atomic bomb on top of the burning cesspool!

And claiming you know of my bandwidth situation while doing so.

WTF?!?!

If you want to get rid of me, just come out with it. No need for all these dirty tricks to force me to fail, or force me to quit.

What a pile of crap.

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