想

可不可以，拿了年假的那天，就真的只是休息、吃喝玩乐、做自己喜欢的事？

而不是拿了假，却是在无薪加时工作。

同样的，公假和周末，可不可以也一样，是没有工作的日子？

为什么我活得这么累？

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聚

二零一八年尾，我换了部门。

改变不了旧部门待人做事的态度、又改变不了自己来接受那样的工作环境，所以我唯有离开。

有得选择的话，我是不希望离开公司的，所以换了个部门。

换了部门，离开了那群工作以外也有互动、一起吃喝玩乐的同事朋友们，唉…

在新部门，心境变了，毕竟自己也不再年轻，不再是刚进公司那时的新血。那重新开始的感觉很累人，包括新部门里的人际关系，所以变得越来越孤僻。

很幸运的，还是交了两位同事朋友。也许就是有人喜欢和邪恶的人做朋友的吧？

遗憾的是，如今，他们都已经离开了公司，唉…

今天和他们约了一起吃午餐，聚了聚。

喜欢那还是如往的互动和交情。

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Go ahead

Say, if you rather believe the mechanical engineer instead of the thermal engineer on things thermal simulation related, be my guest.

Better still, just let the mechanical engineer do the thermal simulation. I welcome anything that reduces my workload.

Maybe it's unknown to you, but the mechanical engineer has been asking me thermal simulation questions a few months ago. Not just once, but a few times when said mechanical engineer was exploring Computational Fluid Dynamics.

Not sure how far the mechanical engineer has progressed in his learning of CFD, but a few months ago he couldn't figure out what's wrong with the thermal model he was exploring (probably copied from someone and tweaked himself), didn't know his settings was basically making his heat exchanger one giant block of metal instead of the proper fins, and many other things that he consulted me on.

And now he said something that contradicted with what I said with detail explanation in black and white, and you are questioning me?

It's because of his higher grade, isn't it? So he must be right.

Go ahead, listen to him all you like, but just get someone else to do it, not me.

I will not compromise the quality of my work, and yes, I do know my stuff.

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Learned a new word today

Boss' boss is here, had team dinner yesterday.

Went in early again today. Didn't slept well, and with the constant stress lately, was (and still am) having irritable bowel syndrome (IBS).

So I went to the toilet fairly early in the morning, around the time when the cafe started to serve breakfast.

When I came out of the toilet, saw a few colleagues hovering around my cubicle, they were looking for me to go breakfast and wondered if I had gone ahead myself.

I explained that my stomach was acting up, and one of them asked if it's due to the beer yesterday night?

I told him that I don't drink, and he said, "ah, teetotaller."

First time hearing that word so I asked for the meaning and spelling, he looked it up on the web, and showed it to me. And that's how I got to learn a new word today. =)

Teetotaller, noun, a person who completely abstains from alcoholic beverages.

Yes, never stop learning.

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Failed

One of my resolutions for this year is to work overtime less than 100 days over the whole year.

Reached 100 days of working overtime yesterday, so another failed resolution.

Today the count went up to 101 days.

Jokingly I would say I am totally ashamed of myself, but honestly I am absolutely fed up.

All these years of my career life, this is the worst ever burnt out.

No light at the end of the tunnel yet.

Other |wretched workaholic| category entries.

Crushed

This most recent depression bout is a bad one.

These two days have been particularly hard.

Feel totally defeated. Crushed.

I am not well. Terribly not.

Other |sane side| category entries.

熬

千辛万苦撑到星期五。

好难过的一个星期…

连续几个月，长期一个接一个不间断，燃眉的工作期限，是绝不会有优裕悠闲的奢侈。

偏偏工作效率因为职业倦怠变得超级低，所以感到更加烦闷挫败。

煎熬、颓丧、低迷、无力。

唉～

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