Small, meaningful

Supposed to meet up with some colleague friends last week.

I was preparing for it since Monday, looked up the location, identified the routes (two, one as back up just in case), located a nearby coffee shop that I can spend time in as I planned to arrive early to avoid the rush hour traffic.

I was prepared, but then headache struck on the day. The kind that rendered me zombie-like on the bed, dead to the world.

So I missed it. Bollocks.

Today, there was another gathering with ex-colleague friends, and I made it.

Just three of us, but then I preferred small gathering with meaningful conversation, instead of big gathering where people talked in small groups anyway, where most of the people in the gathering do not know what's happening at the other end of the table. Or just two seats away really.

So a lunch and we moved to a tea shop after, and then it's already 16:00 hours, just like that.

I take that as we were having a good time, so the time passed quickly.

For a borderline antisocial person, I find this a worthwhile social event.

Other |enjoyable events| category entries.

Potato mode on!

Public and replacement holidays next Monday and Tuesday, plus the half day leave I took today make a 4.5 days long weekend, yippie! =D

And since the project management keeps changing their mind on a weekly basis, I actually do not have the latest information to be able to do anything, so there is no worry about working overtime this long weekend.

I will take that as a blessing in disguise, and worry about the unrealistic deadline they will demand when they finally decided on something solid.

Not like it's the first time we suffer for management issue. Have zero confidence they will improve. Call me a skeptic, but I am just being realistic.

Anyway, I intend to sink some substantial time in playing Diablo IV, to progress in the season journey and be done with it. Like the storyline, but can't say I enjoy the gameplay. The latest and not greatest item and loot changes have been unnecessarily convoluted, and the many more one shot kill mechanisms are pure frustration. Most of the time I didn't even know what killed me.

Don't really have any other plan for the long weekend...

So heads up, potato mode is on! Don't contact me for work related stuff, bad karma and shittiest luck for the remaining of the year to whoever that does.

Other |hyped up heads up| category entries.

Never end

Just when I was about to finish with the questionable aesthetic pleasing chassis that is a nightmare for thermal model generation, they change the whole damn thing yet again.

Every single week, a major change that renders whatever I am working on obsolete.

Basically they haven't decided on a firm direction, just randomly throwing out ideas, yet they demand thermal assessment to be done as soon as possible.

And had the cheek to say more changes coming.

What the fish and duck? What's the point of doing an assessment on something you already discarded? Bunch of monkey clowns.

Waste of my time and effort.

I will just wait until you get your mess sorted and decided on something more solid, a proper project direction instead of this sorry state you shamelessly considered defined.

Other |runaway rants| category entries.

Random thoughts

Spent one whole working day, just to get something acceptable in thermal model for the rounded corners the mechanical design loves so much.

And most likely will have to totally replace them with stair-step version when the mesh gives endless convergence problem.

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How can someone feel alright for hurting another person? Knowingly.

That is care? That is privilege?

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Headache, for no apparent reason.

Left eye. Top left side of head.

Being zombie in the bed is all I could do.

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Diablo IV Lord of Hatred item, loot and Horadric Cube are just one convoluted system that I do not enjoy.

A fail in my book.

Other |temperamental thoughts| category entries.

Shell

I am done. Finished. Drained. Emptied. Hollowed out.

Pushed around. Ignored. Disrespected. Gaslighted.

Repeatedly. Again and again.

No remorse.

I am broken.

A writhed husk.

Other |sane side| category entries.

悟

“天下无难事，只要肯放弃。”

我笑点低，所以第一次听到这句话，觉得是很搞笑的歪理。

然后几年后的如今，开始怀疑，那是不是已经活到了另一个境界的领悟？

当然要放得下，先要学会不在乎。断舍离。

所以我自己加了条后句：

“凡事都能放，只要不在乎。”

如果做得到，应该会活得轻松快乐些吧？

随兴随想 |系列|

忌日

三年。

我们好好。

对不起。谢谢你。

心语细述 |系列|