05 February 2026

不会开的签唱会…


时隔六年,唱片公司终于把我从冷宫拉出来,给我出张超级限量版的虚幻专辑。

真心感恩。

如果不出我所料,这应该是我的最后一张(虚幻)专辑了。

这么多年之间,发生了很多事,那位十三年前曾默默赞助我开签唱会的唱片公司经理已离开了公司。很多曾经一起打拼、一起组团合唱的歌手们也离开了唱片公司,还留着的要么已单飞,要么就有各自的团队了。

所以以往出唱片就开个签唱会的习俗也消失了。感觉应该,但不会开的签唱会…

是遗憾,但也有庆幸。我承认我老了,没有了以前的精力和热情。

怎么都好,希望专辑可以大卖,纾解些供孩子读书的费用。

花钱的人比赚钱的人还要潇洒…

这篇文章,这些内容,懂的人就懂。主要还是写给我自己。



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04 February 2026

立春


今天立春,丙午(火马)年的开始,祝大家马年快乐!

今天开始到明年立春前出生的宝宝就是属马的啦。

我有皮毛的八字命理学知识,略懂五行属性: 天干「丙」是太阳的火,地支「 午」也是火,所以今年是双火年。

那些八字里需要火,或火是有利的五行的人,今年应该会很旺。

我已经忘了自己的八字和五行的利弊,没时间重温,就笼统的希望今年会给我带来好运和福气啦!

太需要了…

附笔: 社交媒体可能又会被那些把鸡蛋站立起来的照片洗版。真是的,每天都能做到的啦,不是只有立春而已。



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02 February 2026

心语细述


有些习惯很难改。

每年一次的祝福,重复了很多很多年的那种习惯。

“妈咪,生日快乐。”

有些习惯不想要改。



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31 January 2026

破功


还真的以为,会成功坚持一整个月都没有加时工作。

结果在一月的最后一天(星期六)破防,已经加时工作了六小时半,今晚可能还要继续。

就因为星期四那会议里,那位经理的一个热流模拟要求。报告下星期三要,不然就已经迟了。他是那样说啦…

问题是,我还在更新基准的热流模型,应该还需要一个星期才会完成。所以是等不到这新版本了,但用旧版本的模型又跟实物有很多差异,有缺精准度。进退两难的处境。

还有就是星期五我拿了假,几乎一整天在医院里耗费掉。原本以为还会有些时间可以(加时)工作,但精神也被弄得恍恍惚惚,所以就那样浪费了一天。

来着的星期一是大宝森节的补假,所以不加时工作的话,我只有星期二一天来完成那不可能的任务。

我不是神仙,也不是超人,只是个平凡无奇的普通人,所以我唯有加时工作。还是那种就算我加时工作也不一定能够及时交报告的情况。

唉~

真是命贱。



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30 January 2026

Meaningless system, part four


Another week, another visit to the hospital. Second appointment with the nephrologist (kidney specialist), and new referred appointment with the ophthalmologist (eye specialist).

Arrived by 08:00 hours for the blood test, which went smoothly all considering, got delayed at the registration part but the lab part was smooth. Thumbs up to the lab people.

Done within 30 minutes, including the surprised urine sample request, which I wasn't awared of until then. Gave them what my bladder could produced then, not a lot but they didn't called me back so I guess it's sufficient.

Went straight to the nephrology clinic, the nurse took my weight and blood pressure and told me in a nice way to bugger off. The appointment with the nephrologist was scheduled for 10:40 hours.

So I went out to breakfast. Oh, I walked to the hospital in the morning, and walked back home when I was finally done. Everywhere else in between that was also walked, for a total of 1 hour and 47 minutes split between six walking sessions.

Took 15 minutes to walk to breakfast and 15 minutes back to hospital, still more than an hour until the appointment with nephrologist so I went to the ophthalmology clinic first, see if I could get lucky and get that appointment done first.

No luck, the appointment was at 11:00 hours. I told them I had a 10:40 hours appointment with the nephrologist so most likely I would be late. They smiled, they know. Well, at least I prompted them to sort out the medical insurance thing, which strangely was issued for yesterday instead of today, so not totally a waste of effort.

Went back to the nephrology clinic and took out my novel to pass time, slightly more than one hour to kill. If the consultation was on time, that is, which it wasn't. No surprise there, and no prize for guessing if it was earlier or later than the appointment time.

The nurse called me 37 minutes after the appointment time. Took 6 minutes for the consultation, basically being told my blood test showed same results as the one done in December, and still need to wait a few days for the other test results. So another appointment was scheduled in late February and none the wiser on what's wrong with my kidneys.

So naturally I was late for the 11:00 hours appointment with the ophthalmologist. The consultation happened at 12:24 hours, but if we take away the time delayed by the nephrologist, then really it's "just" 41 minutes late.

The ophthalmologist said maybe it's the spectacles, or maybe dry eyes. Advised me to make a new pair of spectacles and gave me some eye drops, and said to go back early March. So another appointment. Looks like I still have to visit the hospital on weekly basis end of February and beginning of March.

I went straight to the optometrist to get a new pair of spectacles made. They tried to sell me two pairs, one multifocal for distance, intermediate and near, the other an office glasses for intermediate and near. I resisted and said I only need one, the office glasses. Already cost me an arm for that, I don't need to lose both arm and leg.

After all that is done, went for a late lunch and by the time I reached home, it's already 15:25 hours. That's another leave gone.



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25 January 2026

随兴随想


一转眼一月只剩一个星期。时间都去哪儿了?

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原本是中文的故事,我竟然用英文写了个前序的开头。

故事情节一点一滴的浮现脑海里,需要好好整理时间点和怎么相互连接。

已经想成是三部曲的大纲是不是有点可笑?毕竟连一个篇章都没有完成,就只有那些片片段段的情节。

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还不会赚钱养活自己的孩子花钱倒是很豪爽。

还是诸多抱怨、感恩有缺。

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期待不用每星期去一次医院的日子到来。



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22 January 2026

让我 emo 一下


又有一位同事辞职了,两个星期后离开。

感伤。无奈。

是团队里最开朗友善的人,也是位可靠能干的同事。当然最叫人羡慕妒忌的是他有吃不肥的绝世好运(或基因)。

团队越来越小了,唉…

就是觉得忧伤、不舍、遗憾。

唉,有时还真的希望自己不要这么感性,情感不要那么细腻,感受不要那么深刻。

好累人。



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