Appreciated

We should do something because it's the right thing to do, because it's something dear to the heart, or the unfortunate reality of because it pays for the bread.

In the latter case, work can be something we are passionate about too, if we are so lucky to get a job that we really like. But we can always choose to do the right thing, like it or not.

Right or wrong is of course determined by our guiding principles, everyone has their own. Just because something is not the norm doesn't mean it's wrong.

Anyway, I am writing about what happen after we have done something. We should follow our heart and do the right thing, and we shouldn't be doing something because we want to be recognised for it.

Having said that, it's always nice when we are being appreciated for our genuine effort, our kind gesture, our hard work. Being appreciated is a warm fuzzy feeling. ^_^

And I am feeling rather warm and fuzzy. ;)

It's a surprise, for I truely did not expect it. But my effort was recognised, and I am really, really happy and glad about it.

So happy that I am throwing a celebration, and started singing while taking shower. Here's hoping there will be many who will share my joy.

心的频道：友情·性格篇

直肠直肚的我，和那些讲话隐隐瞒瞒，弯弯曲曲的人几乎都不会成为很要好的朋友的。

那些和我谈得来的朋友，都是那些会踩我，挖苦我，和不用包装告诉我真实的人。因为我也是这样对他们。

毕竟，要认识和好到一定的程度，才会这样没忌肆，不保留的畅谈，开玩笑，和互相作弄。

对那些认识不深的人也冒冒然这样对话，分分钟会得罪，翻脸，翻桌子！

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我常说，朋友不开心，有烦恼，我不需要知道是什么原因也一样可以在乎关心，想办法帮忙纾解，逗开心。

对方想要讲，我当然乐意聆听，毕竟很多时候对方要的，就是那一双耳朵而已。

要讲，我就听，不要讲，我还是可以给你一个微笑，拍拍你的肩膀，讲一些冷笑话，约你去飚歌。

若朋友主动找我分担（或分享），告诉我事发原因经过，那是对我信任的肯定。这是不能强求的。强求，就是多管闲事，侵犯别人的私隐。

我不是那么八的。

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对人好，就只是发自内心的想要对人好，没有其他的目的。这不是很正常的吗？

如果我的一点贡献，一丝心意，可以给对方一个惊喜，一些喜悦，那又何乐不为呢？

看到，或知道自己给别人带来欢乐，不是很开心的一件事吗？

当然，我们对人好，人家未必会对我们好。毕竟除了父母，没有人有义务对我们好。

所以要珍惜和善待那些真心对我们好的人。

哦，好人是很难做的，而且不是每个人都值得我们的好的。切记切记。

当然，大多时候，我是邪恶的。 =P

心的频道 |系列|

Grumpier old man

Haven't seen my sons while they are awake for the whole week, and since I have to work tomorrow it's most likely I will only be able to interact with them on Sunday.

If I still have the energy to interact with them, that is.

For five days straight now I have missed the goodnight hugs and kisses. By the time I got home they had already gone to bed.

Hsiang asked his mom when I would be back, said he misses me. Bless him. Though when wifey asked Young, he said he doesn't miss me. So cold.

Wifey said the elder son is like me, touchy touchy and emotional. Her words.

I can only say the poor boy is gonna suffer, if he's really like me in this regard. Caring much, full of love and being emotionally sensitive is just... tiring and hurtful at times.

Hsiang also told wifey that tomorrow is weekend, papa is going to be happy and say woohoo!

*Sigh*

Not this weekend my boy, not this weekend, papa has gotta work still. =(

Not only has papa been working longer than usual hours lately, papa has to work night shift the whole next week. Not the usual 4 days work 3 days rest kind of night shift, but full week 12 hours per day night shift. >_<

Not a happy bunny. Not at all.

I am already grumpy to begin with, so if you find me grumpier than usual these few days, this is why.

Earth Hour 2013

Reminder: Earth Hour 2013 is 20:30 to 21:30 hours (8:30 - 9:30pm) next Saturday, 23rd of March.

brownie point if you spotted the blue round shape representing the Earth ^_^

Turn off all non-essential lights and electrical appliances during that hour to show support. And do be conscious of what this is all about.

Sadly I won't be participating this year, unless they are going to turn off the lights during the wedding dinner, which I don't really object to. =P

Well, at least I can do my part spreading the awareness.

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In this series: |2010| |2011| |2012|

Random Thoughts

Instead of the usual sharing, this entry is really written to serve as a memorandum for my future self. Sorry if you don't get it, well, it's not like my other entries made a lot of sense anyway, heh. =P

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Respect to GB, I openly admit that.

No shame in respecting someone who you are not fond of, when there is valid reason. Don't have to like someone to respect someone, I am just honest enough to give credit where it's due.

Respect is earned, not given, nor bought.

GB survived there for quite some time now and has truely grown in skill, so GB has earned my respect. It's that simple.

Note to self: people can change.

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Hero by Mariah K., holds a very special meaning for me recently. And perhaps meaningful to a colleague, or two.

There's a hero

If you look inside your heart

You don't have to be afraid

Of what you are

There's an answer

If you reach into your soul

And the sorrow that you know

Will melt away

[Chorus:]

And then a hero comes along

With the strength to carry on

And you cast your fears aside

And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone

Look inside you and be strong

And you'll finally see the truth

That a hero lies in you

It's a long road

When you face the world alone

No one reaches out a hand

For you to hold

You can find love

If you search within yourself

And the emptiness you felt

Will disappear

[Chorus]

Lord knows

Dreams are hard to follow

But don't let anyone

Tear them away

Just hold on

There will be tomorrow

In time

You'll find the way

[Chorus]

Note to self: pawn of a chess set, for the glory of the hand that moves the pieces.

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Too sensitive? Overactive imagination?

Why did the brain jumped to such conclusion when I saw that update?

Emotional pessimist who always assumes the worst? Or some kind of twisted sixth sense?

Too straight forward for my own good, should have stopped after the first expression.

Concern is one thing, intrusion quite another. Could have got it all wrong to begin with.

Note to self: keep your mouth shut and your thoughts to yourself.

生活点滴：前世情人篇续集

今天打球，回到家吃晚餐时已有点晚。老婆仔电视连续剧广告时刻进厨房问我有没有在面子书上看到大学朋友刚出世的女儿照片。

“好可爱哦！”

“是啊？我还没看到。”

然后我又看着天花板说：

“老天，我现在是很不爽你了咯。每个人都有女儿，除了我，我到底做错什么？”

“哪里是每个人都有啦？”

“我不管，对我来说是每个人。” 我很固执的耍赖。

“嘻嘻，谁叫你前世没有情人？” 老婆仔调皮的说。

“哎哟！这样的话我下一世不是又没有女儿？” 我突然惊觉。

“哈哈，谁叫你不懂得花心？” 又是那坏坏的笑。

“不是懂不懂，而是要不要的问题，okay？” 我讲到很厉害那样。

“你要吗？”

“不要。” 讲到很小声那种，真泄气… “显咯，我下一世要做女人！” 我发牢骚。

“哈哈哈！”

看来我下一世又是没有女儿的啦，真是勾叉零蛋三角形！ >_<

生活点滴 |系列|

生活点滴：前世情人篇

今天在霸级市场巧遇老婆仔的干妹和她先生，购物完回程时老婆仔说：

“二十个星期后她的肚子大得比较快，这次见她比最后一次大了很多。”

“有咩？”

我承认我是有点盲，没有去注意这些的啦。老婆仔又说：

“她老公知道是女的后很开心。”

“为什么嘞？他不要男的咩？”

“男人都喜欢女儿的啦。”

唉，这话题讲了就伤心，我是非常十分想要个女儿的。

“也是对的。”

然后我很戏剧化的对天花板说：

“每个人都有女儿，除了我。天啊！你为什么要这样对我？！？！”

老婆仔手托在我的肩膀上说：

“人家说女儿是前世的情人，所以看来你是不会有女儿的啦。”

“你是在说我前世没有情人啦！你就这样多情人，两个瓜都是男的。” *不爽* =\

“哦，儿子是你前世的仇人，跟我前世没有关系的。” *坏坏的笑*

“耶，情人就没有，仇人就这样多。很不公平喽，我二哥和弟弟都有女儿。” *抱怨*

“因为他们比你好看。”

“…”

“你为什么对我这么好？” *讽刺*

老婆仔很开心的笑。

有时候真的不明白她到底看中我什么？ -_-

生活点滴 |系列|

An aeroplane a day, part three

Copyright:

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All original work on this site is copyright C.K. Goh and may not be copied or reprinted without my express written approval.

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In this series: |part 1| |part 2|

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Some time between the making of the last plane shown in part 2 of this series and August 2012, wifey and I decided to mix all the LEGO pieces from all the sets the children have together, and keep them in containers based on their colour.

No longer being constrained by the pieces of a single set, the freedom to create suddenly has a larger rein. Basically, a lot more stuff can be done, and done nicer, with the collective pieces from all the sets. ^_^

So in late August 2012, I made a few fighter jets, colour themed. All in the name of teaching my kids about creativity of course, definitely not because I was indulging the kid in me. No sir. =P

So behold, the white fighter jet!

The red fighter jet!

And the yellow jet!

All the jets had guns and carried two missles as their payload. ^_^

While the kids probably learned nothing about creativity, they played with the jets rather happily. In order to let myself play more show more examples of creativity, I created anti-air tanks to go with the fighter jets.

Well, they were really just wheeled vehicles but I called them tanks, sounds nicer. =P

The blue tank carried anti-air missles!

The green tank carried a huge laser canon and a large calibre gun!

The orange tank had many guns, many!

 Yes, the weaponary on the tanks could swivel and tilt. ^_^

Needless to say, a mock war happened, the kids being the generals of opposing forces. As for me, well, I was the one they came running when they broke something.

So much for creativity lesson...

the heck with creativity, just let me play with them!

Teaser for next in the series: robots!

生活点滴：胸肌篇续集

这是上载了胸肌篇两天后的生活小插曲。要看过那一篇才会明白这一篇。

懒虫的我当然是七点会议前几分钟才起床，开电脑，登录公司网络然后蒙蒙查查开一个接一个的会。

那天早上最后一个会议拖了超过半小时才终于结束，之后我匆匆准备出门上班。

冲凉后剃胡子时，刚游泳回来的老婆仔问：

“等下我会去 Tesco，你有什么要买的吗？”

满脸满嘴剃胡子的泡沫，所以我没有马上回答。

老婆仔又加了一句：

“要我帮你买女孩发育时穿的乳罩吗？”

哇唠！害我差点剃伤我自己。

“要这样对我昧？不要睬你！”

“哈哈哈哈！”

生活点滴 |系列|

*sigh*

Wanted to post something cheery, nice, funny, or a combination of those.

But that would not be genuine in my current state.

I am in a depression bout. Four days now.

Did have a few bright moments, like the visit of the university friends, so nice to see them again, together, happily married, and well. And the LEGO session with the kids, that was meaningful too.

Only I couldn't sustain the happiness. Not when I am in such psychological state. Darn depression.

I suppose I should be grateful that it has been a while since my last depression bout. But again, it's hard to be optimistic in this state.

Just so... lifeless, meaningless, tired.

Don't like myself when I am like this. Don't want to. But I can't help it.

*sigh*

Weekend without internet

Home internet connection started to die on us on Friday night, then whole day Saturday with sporadic moment of extremely slow connection available, and thus far the whole of Sunday until now.

It's 15:21 hours and wifey, after answering a call on her smartphone, noticed she got some updates on her Facebook, so I opened my web browser and lo and behold, we have connection, albeit a slow one.

Not sure how long this slow connection will last so just a brief entry here to say that initially I planned to post the next entry in the "An aeroplane a day" series but since it requires many images upload I have decided to leave it till later in the week when internet is really back to normal.

Gotta say I am so used to having internet now that without it, life is just... less interesting. For one thing that darn Diablo III can only be played online and weekend is  when I have some time to play game, *sigh*.

Here's hoping the internet will stay up for the rest of the day, though I am not optimistic about it.