*sigh*

Wanted to post something cheery, nice, funny, or a combination of those.

But that would not be genuine in my current state.

I am in a depression bout. Four days now.

Did have a few bright moments, like the visit of the university friends, so nice to see them again, together, happily married, and well. And the LEGO session with the kids, that was meaningful too.

Only I couldn't sustain the happiness. Not when I am in such psychological state. Darn depression.

I suppose I should be grateful that it has been a while since my last depression bout. But again, it's hard to be optimistic in this state.

Just so... lifeless, meaningless, tired.

Don't like myself when I am like this. Don't want to. But I can't help it.

*sigh*