这样的命

星期五晚上至今，我已经加时工作了超过二十二个小时。

我现在累得不行了，但今晚晚餐后还得继续加工。

我为什么要活得这么累？

为什么？

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Stress!

Back to back meetings until late Friday evening, I eventually left the last meeting because I had a hard stop. Family dinner out for Hsiang's birthday.

Already not a happy bunny because already have to work through this three days long weekend to complete task that's two weeks overdue.

It's not because I have been slacking off, but because some parachuted urgent tasks that demanded my time, used up my bandwidth.

And another atomic bomb just dropped yesterday. Results needed by Sunday.

These people never learned, thermal simulation takes time. It's two weeks, not two days. I already have more than my fair share of work, an overflowed plate as it is.

So tired and so stressed now. My health is a total wreck nowadays. Bollocks!

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有惊无险

昨天晚餐后犯贱做工，做到靠近晚上九点时情人老婆仔接了一个电话后很慌忙的告诉我我们的公寓着火了！

放下工作出去确认，看到浓浓黑烟从低过我们几层楼的一个单位不停冒出。

赶紧叫老婆仔和孩子们疏散到底楼安全的地方，我也匆匆关了电脑，拿了钱包和车钥匙，还有仓鼠「 可可」离开。

幸好已做了可以带宠物仓鼠外出的箱子，把它和它的水和沙棚放进去，锁好门就和家人到底楼去。

安顿了他们我就去把车子开到别的停车位，毕竟那着火的单位就在我们停车位的位子之上的几层楼。

消防局就隔了一条马路，所以消防车很快就到了，消防员也迅速的把火势控制，没有蔓延到其他单位。

情人老婆仔说有三个人被带到随之而来的救伤车里，应该是没有什么严重的伤亡。

靠近晚上十点那些急救人员还没有离去，但应该是安全了所以开始有人陆陆续续回自己的单位。

我把车驾回自己的停车位后也和家人回到自己的单位。孩子们冲了凉就去睡了，毕竟隔天要上课，我则继续命贱…

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放开

给工作到没有了生活的自己：要学会放开。

周末不加时工作是没有错的。

周末和关系好的朋友出去聚一聚，吃一餐而没在工作是不必感到内疚的。

周末载送家人和一起在外吃一餐是好过自己留在家里工作和吃快熟面的。

周末选择玩电脑游戏、看戏、看书、休息，是不用感到不安的。

工作量大没能迅速完成模拟有结果报告也不必一再的利用私人的时间加时工作的。

不要在乎老板把原本要交给我做的工转交给同事做，要学会放开、放下。

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Random notes

Stress rash is back in force, both legs covered in rashes. Arms too, but not as many as on the legs.

Interesting to note that the rashes seemed to move from torso to limbs. Maybe just coincidence.

Anyway got referral letter from clinic to see a dermatology specialist. Only thing is the doctor is so fully-booked that the earliest appointment I can get is in August.

Not sure whether by then the rashes will still be there or gone...

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Busy busy busy. Just darn busy.

Work/life balance does not exist for me. Not for a long time already.

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Is it me or is Cocoa turning lighter shade of brown at the butt?

Remember it being darker brown but wifey said nothing has changed.

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Diablo Immortal. Should have just used the previous business model. *Sigh*

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Diablo Immortal, a week in

Diablo Immortal arrived for Asia Pacific on 8th of July, slightly more than a week ago.

As an avid fan of the Diablo series, I have been playing daily ever since. My primary interest, for now at least, is the solo content, the storyline campaign.

However I did spent quite a bit of time doing daily missions, and running rifts, something that I usually would only do when I am at max level and had finished the main storyline.

But I am doing this now in Diablo Immortal because unfortunately, this is a pay to win game thinly-wrapped as a free to play game. Since I do not condone this kind of business model, I have to say this is not looking good.

Too many things that need a player to log in daily and grind to get stuff if you want to stay free to play, and despite that, still absolutely not competitive to those who paid to win.

Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the game thus far, nice graphics, engaging action, and my thirst for the Diablo storyline are still keeping me going. For how long I honestly do not know as I am nearing the end of the stroyline and also approaching the max character level.

I like to try all classes but the need to log in all characters to do the daily activities will make that not feasible for someone who doesn't have a lot of gaming time.

Too bad they have to make this game in this business model, I would have happily paid a one time cost and then being able to play the game in my casual, leisurely way, when I have time for it, instead of this need of daily gaming time.

Why couldn't they do it like Diablo, Diablo II, Diablo III and all their expansions? As it stands now, I don't foresee myself playing this game for a long time, unlike the previous three of the Diablo series.

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心的频道：第四个

今天起床后依旧是开公司电脑工作。周末加时工作已经是习已为常的事了。可悲，但事实。

等跑了一整晚解完的热流模拟输出数据时，快速查看有什么重要的电邮。我的电邮阅看率很差，现在大概有两百八十封左右的电邮我还没有看…

就是很忙啦，哪有时间去看电邮哦？模拟不会自己建成，不会自己跑，不会自己变成报告的。

嗯，这不是抱怨的文章，所以言归正传，今早看到有封令我很开心雀跃的电邮哦！

终于有第四个专利啦！嘢！ ^_^

获得第三个专利已是超过一年前的事了，而且去年年尾还给自己设了个坑，但今年前半年的努力都没有修成正果后我心里已经放弃今年会有专利的期望了。

主要是太忙了，连项目的工作量都需要加时工作才能够应付，哪有时间去做其他的呢？

庆幸的是有同事邀我一起做他们的发明概念，寻求我的意见和领域知识。我提供了想法、意见和优化的建议，执行模拟则是由他人去做。那个发明概念被公司接受，要去申请专利权了，呵呵！

我的为善资金有着落了，哈哈！ =D

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Bliss

The coming Monday and Tuesday being replacement holidays, today's the second day of my four days long weekend.

I have worked three hours yesterday (Saturday) and five hours today (Sunday). To be honest I am used to it by now, numb is probably a better word.

After working for five hours since I woke up, I progressed to a stage where I can call it a day. So I did, and had my late lunch.

It's lunch alone since wifey was out chauffeuring the kids to basketball. The kettle was on but the water hadn't boiled by the time I finished my lunch.

So I took a can of Coke from the fridge and the novel I am currently reading and went to the lounge with the natural light from the balcony, to wait on the kettle.

It's there and then, sitting in the couch, in a peaceful and quiet house with only the birds chirpping, reading an enjoyable novel, and sipping chilled Coke, that I felt contented.

I am a simple person, hoping for a simple life. I don't need much, that moment there was blissful to me.

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Diablo Immortal has arrived

The PC version of Diablo Immortal has finally arrived for Asia Pacific! I am a PC gamer and am totally into the Diablo series so this is something I have been looking forward to.

Diablo Immortal is a free to play massively multiplayer online action role playing game (MMOaRPG). What a mouthful.

Oh, for both mobile (bleh!) and now PC (yay!).

It's the story between Diablo II and Diablo III, which I have been avoiding spoilers and which I am now eager to find out playing through the game. ^_^

Good timing since I have a four days long weekend starting tomorrow. Yes I still have to work but hopefully I will only be working half day and then spend the rest of the time playing Diablo Immortal. =P

I have already created a character and played for a bit. A wizard naturally, brains over brawn. Loving the highest graphics settings that my latest gaming machine can easily handle.

Alrighty, less blogging more gaming.

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不平衡

六月有花红。

几千块的花红，令人雀跃的数目。

但恐怖的抽税一大刀，基本上是屠杀的程度。

结果我六月拿回家的薪水，只比五月多了一百八十九块钱…

几千块的花红拿回家的不到两百块。

我心理非常不平衡。

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I went out (14)

Since the previous entry of this series, I was out of the house fifty times, so my total out of the house count stands at 150 as of today.

101th outing: went out on 12th of December to be chauffeur for kids' archery training and wifey's cookie container purchase. Took the opportunity to buy lunch home.

102th outing: went out on 17th of December to chauffeur kids from their friend's place. Bought dinner home.

103th outing: went to office on 20th of December to work, but office network was down so came back after a few hours there waiting in vain.

104th outing: went out on 22nd of December to be chauffeur for kids' archery training.

105th outing: went out on 25th of December to takeaway lunch.

106th outing: went out on 29th of December to the bank. Bought lunch home.

107th outing: went out on 1st of January to watch Spider-Man: No Way Home. Yup, in the cinema. Alone. A part of me no longer care about living.

108th outing: went out on 2nd of January for flu vaccination.

109th outing: went out on 5th of January to have dine out dinner. Second dine out since MCO started.

110th outing: went out on 7th of January to bridge Touch n Go office wanting to resolve the expired card. The office is closed so the trip was a waste of time and effort.

111th outing: went out on 8th of January to takeaway dinner.

112th outing: went to office on 11th of January to work. Took the opportunity to buy lunch home. Also went out to takeaway dinner later in the day.

113th outing: went out on 13th of January to takeaway dinner.

114th outing: went out to deliver Chinese New Year cookies on 18th of January. Had lunch out.

115th outing: went out to the bank on 19th of January.

116th outing: went out on 20th of January to takeaway dinner. Used it as an exercise opportunity, 44 minutes walked to the hawker centre and back.

117th outing: went out on 22nd of January to chauffeur kids for their archery training. Had breakfast out. Then went to the workshop to service the car air conditioner.

118th outing: went out on 23rd of January to takeaway lunch. Walked there as exercise.

119th outing: went to office on 25th of January to work. Took the opportunity to buy lunch home.

120th outing: travelled to the inlaw's on 29th of January for Chinese New Year. Had lunch out.

121th outing: went out on 31st of January to window shop and to have lunch out.

122th outing: travelled back from inlaw's on 4th of February. Had lunch out.

123th outing: went to office on 14th of February to work, primarily for the office move.

124th outing: went out on 26th of February to send in faulty monitor to PC Depot. Then went looking for temporary office location, did a drove by. Then bought lunch and picked up kids from their archery training.

125th outing: took half day leave and went out on 4th of March to sort out a few stuff: two banks for different agenda, post office for parcel collection since postman was too lazy and lied about nobody home when there's always someone home 24/7, drove car around for battery health since last drove about three weeks ago, bought lunch home.

126th outing: went to office on 11th of March to work.

127th outing: went out on 22nd of March to drive the car around for a bit to keep the battery healthy. Took the opportunity to buy dinner home.

128th outing: went out on 26th of March to takeaway lunch.

129th outing: went out on 31st of March to pick up replacement monitor from PC Depot.

130th outing: went out on 5th of April to attend a dear friend's mother's wake.

131th outing: whole family had lunch and dinner out with inlaws on 16th of April.

132th outing: went out on 21st of April for car service and maintenance.

133th outing: whole family had dinner out with eldest brother on 28th of April.

134th outing: whole family went out for dim sum as brunch on 8th of May.

135th outing: chauffeured kid to tuition on 12th of May.

136th outing: whole family had dinner out on 14th of May.

137th outing: whole family went out on 15th of May to watch Dr Strange 2.

138th outing: chauffeured kid to tuition on 19th of May.

139th outing: went to office on 20th of May to work. Took the opportunity to buy lunch home.

140th outing: went out on 24th of May to the clinic for skin rashes.

141th outing: chauffeured kid to tuition on 26th of May.

142th outing: chauffeured kids from shoooting training on 29th of May. Had lunch out.

143th outing: chauffeured kid to tuition on 2nd of June.

144th outing: chauffeured wifey around a few places on 4th of June. Had breakfast out and bought lunch home.

145th outing: went out on 7th of June to the clinic for follow up. Bought lunch home.

146th outing: went to office on 15th of June to work.

147th outing: chauffeured kid to tuition on 16th of June.

148th outing: went out on 21st of June to the clinic for follow up.

149th outing: chauffeured kid to tuition on 23rd of June. Bought supper home.

150th outing: went out on 25th of June to Hsiang's high school to get his (oh my goodness) results, as the teacher requested a meet up. Had breakfast out and bought lunch home.

As of 2nd of July 2022, 844 days have past since the beginning of Movement Control Order on 18th of March in 2020. I have been out of the house 150 times in 120.6 weeks, so about 1.24 times per week on average, or about once every 5.63 days.

Here are the main reasons I went out:
- drive around to keep car battery healthy: 21
- work at office: 39
- bank: 5
- grocery: 1
- takeaway meal: 20
- dine in restaurant: 7
- clinic and vaccination: 7
- customer service: 4
- car service: 4
- pet shop and pet clinic: 3
- chauffeur duty: 32
- law firm: 2
- movie: 2
- commute to/from inlaw's: 2
- wake: 1

This is most likely the last entry for this series as people pretty much no longer care about Covid-19, what with schools reopening, tuition centres reopening, kids always out and about going to social events and what not. Personally I do care, but duty calls and my outings are predominantly for chauffeur duty lately, due to the kids.

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