心的频道：灰灰的我

忧郁症是大学研究期间开始的。

已经不肯定正确的日子年份，但记得和医生说不要靠药物，也没有继续去看医生或专科什么的。

觉得自己应该可以应付偶尔莫名的低落无劲，就让自己一个人宅在家里静静就是了。

反正也是差不多那时开始对人性感到失望，我人生的一个转捩点。

觉得人际关系太复杂了，人性可以很阴险丑恶，所以我变了。

好人难做，所以我变得很选择性的对待人，不是每个人都值得我们的时间和精力的。

能量有限，我不再大爱，我不再主动对人好。

就当我是自私、邪恶的吧。

朋友，可靠的有几个？真心的有几个？知心的有几个？

以前的我对友情很执着，会想尽办法去保持，傻傻的单面经营。

曾经对友情的褪色淡去会不舍、会失落。

随着年龄的增长，很多东西都已释怀。

现在我只在乎那些互相经营的友情。

对我好的，我加倍奉还。

把我的好当作理所当然的，我已经可以没有眷恋的割舍。

都一把年纪了，没有营养的友情就算了吧。

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El cheapo

My department has decided to cancel the annual dinner this year.

This is the first time since I joined the company, we have always had an annual dinner.

I asked colleagues from the other departments, they still have their annual dinner, so looks like it is just my department.

Cost saving initiative, no doubt.

As we all know sending the manager overseas quarterly on business class to have face to face meetings instead of video conferencing is critical to business.

The cost of just one of those trips would have covered the annual dinner for the entire local department here.

But I guess face to face meetings are what get things done, all those troubles and issues can be resolved by talking and discussion. Who needs hands on, getting the hands dirty, the actual action of fixing stuff? It's not like the managers do those things, don't be silly!

I broke my sarcasm meter long ago, but I can hear my neighbour's going off like crazy. =P 

Aiiiih... feel so strange to not have an annual lucky draw dinner.

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Oh really?

While I check Facebook daily, I don't post very frequently.

Probably the two most common things I post on Facebook are (1) heads up to a new blog post, (2) book review.

I am well aware that I have readers who rely on my Facebook update for my blog entry, and miss all those that I do not link in Facebook. The statistics are very telling. ;)

Anyway, I consider myself not someone who post frequently on Facebook, and I guess Facebook agrees too since I received this for the very first time:

Okay, I received this on 21st of August. Took me a while to post this...

I found it rather amusing so I took a screenshot. I have not received this notice again since.

Guess those two days were the outliers, I probably was crazier than usual or was in a spammy mood.

=P

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随兴随想

前天开始一直想写篇文章，更新我的部落格，但总是不知道该写些什么。

其实这样的情况还蛮懊恼的喽…

昨晚晚餐后情人老婆仔说了一句话，我想记下来，所以有了这篇文章的概念。

这几天家里很热闹，情人的家人们，除了阿妹和她老公都来了。

过去两晚的晚餐都是十多人的一大桌，除了家人外也还有他们很亲的朋友，可以说也像他们的家人那样的朋友。

昨晚岳母和情人一起煮了海鲜餐，有鱼、虾、螃蟹、蚌类。

在自己家里，很热闹的一餐。

过后不怎么爱吃海鲜的老婆仔说：

“这一餐已经吃完一整年海鲜的分量。”

我笑笑，还好啦，我可没有不爱吃海鲜嘞…

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Sensitive phone

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Caveman vs mobile phone series: |1| |2| |3| |4| |5| |6| |7| |8| |9|

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March 2016 to September 2017, that's how long I have been using my second smartphone. A disappointingly short period of time compared to my first smartphone, and I still didn't get any smarter...

I had four days off thanks to replacement holidays, the first three days I just stayed home and did nothing, today I actually had things to do out, and of course the phone decided to quit this morning.

Bollocks.

I actually like the second smartphone, it is more than sufficient for my need and it has not given me any problem, until today. It hang this morning after I turned it on, and refused to start up after I did a hard reboot. It just quit like that and my limited revival skill failed to resuscitate it.

Interesting enough, the first thing that came to my mind was what a colleague friend said last Friday during lunch, when he was cheating the game EverWing on his phone.

When I said I don't play game on smartphone or tablet (because I am not a touchscreen as game control fan), he said that's because my smartphone is too lousy and outdated.

I don't deny that I have cheap phone, I am actually quite proud of my sensibility. I am one of those who thinks expensive phones are ridiculously jacked up, making them absolutely poor value for money, and are just the silly luxury and perk of the rich.

I am not rich, and I like to think I am sensible.

But I guess the phone doesn't like being bad-mouthed. Phones have feelings too! Especially these smart ones.

In Mandarin there is a saying: crow mouth, someone who said something bad about a certain thing and jinxed it. So I am blaming that colleague friend! =P

Anyway, it's good to have in-laws who pass down their old smartphones. Wifey has a couple ready hand-me-downs for me as replacement, I picked the Samsung Duos, the dual SIM is handy on the rare occasion when I am on business trip.

As a veteran of one smartphone transfer and set up, this second time is no big deal. =)

Smartphone 4 : Caveman 2

番薯

这几天觉得自己很番薯。

四天假期过了三天，整天无所事事。

或许不该说无所事事，毕竟看书、玩电脑、和睡觉就是我喜欢做的事。

是宅男宅女就会明白的啦。

而且也没有计划要做些什么的嘛…

但就是感觉怪怪的。

觉得自己很颓废。

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That annoying EverWing spam

If you are a Facebook user and have a decent amount of friends, then you probably received some notifications from a Facebook Messenger game called EverWing, which currently has 12 million players according to the game splash screen.

Most does not seem to mind these notifications, or simply couldn't care less, but there are some who find them annoying.

I concur. They are spams really.

And I am also guilty of causing some of them. Got a bit carried away yesterday, sorry...

A friend broke me out of it sending a link about turning off EverWing notification. That's when I finally pause to think about it and realised I have been spamming.

Da horror! >_<

So ashamed of myself... for I really hate spam and scorn spammers with a passion.

Now I am one. Bollocks.

The friend suggested me to stop playing before I get on people's nerve (misspelled as nerf but I understand). Hmm... that's like asking those who like to post selfie, post food photos, post disturbing images, post political stuff, or caused all those cosplayers' photos to show up in Facebook to stop what they are doing, since they inevitably get on the nerve of those who dislike these things.

Oh well, the friend meant well, and I did spammed (da horror!), so I did some searching and reading online to see if there is any way around this.

Looks as if Facebook is not going to do anything about it, complaints filed months ago went unanswered. Probably because that's the intention of the game, spreading through notifications to attract more players.

Bummer.

Anyway, for those who are enjoying the game but annoyed by the notifications, here's a quick guide to turn off the notifications. Oh, the following images are from Windows PC version of Facebook Messenger since I am not a touchscreen fan. The mobile version should have similar options.

turn it off from the Facebook messenger group you are playing EverWing with

A quick shortcut to step 2:

 

As for not spamming the non-players, I only have partial solution since the game designed it into the Tournament Mission. The challenge player portion is the one that probably still need to spam someone (unless you skip it, which is a valid option), but the invite friend/group part is where I came up with a solution.

Just clone your existing EverWing playing group into many groups! =)

Well, just create new groups with the same players and ask them to only invite group from these cloned groups. Turn the notifications off, of course. =P

See the second image above, the one with the shortcut to step 2, all those dummy# groups are for this purpose. ^_^

Be nice to others, stop the spam.

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Random Thoughts

A third of September over.

Guess I will skip the impormptu resolution for this month as well.

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Reading speed has picked up.

Well, should say that my reading speed is back to the norm.

The 'A Song of Ice and Fire' series was a real damper.

Don't know what all the fuss is about, perhaps it's just the television series, because the novels are really just so so and a lot of same old same old.

Anyway, don't think I will hit my thirty books a year target.

Meh!

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Almost examination time, so it's a war zone at home.

Another heated morning, the 'bad cop' (me) needed to use the cane.

At lunch, when emotions were settled, I gave the kids a heart to heart talk.

Told them the importance of education, of having good grades, of being a good person.

Told them about the progression in education, how it's related to the kind of job they can get.

Told them about job searching, about resume, about reference, about interview, and about learning and application of knowledge in life, not just answering exam question.

Told them the sacrifice wifey is making, and why I am disappointed and angry when they not only do not appreciate what their mom is doing, go further to say nasty things to hurt her.

Don't know if any of it sunk in.

Probably just wasted my breath as right after lunch the shouting and scolding resumed.

*Sigh...*

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Don't know why I am still playing that Facebook messenger game...

The lack of content, the luck based and the long grind, part of the reason I do not play smartphone or tablet games, because they are pretty much all like this.

Yet I am still playing it.

Wonder when will I give up?

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Heterochromia iridis

According to NIH, heterochromia iridis is a condition characterized by abnormalities of the iris (the coloured part of the eye).

The way I explain it is: different colour eyes lah. =P

image source

After being repaired due to the accident last month, the front lights of my car are now of different colour.

One sparkly brand new white, one the aged yellow tint, like having cataract.

Does anyone know a good way to clean or clear the tint from the old light?

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Stressor

In two weeks time, there will be two holidays in the work week.

Well, one of it is a replacement holiday that my company chooses to have on Monday.

There is an unconfirmed rumour that maybe my company will replace the SEA Games win holiday in that week as well, making it a two working days week.

Sweet!

I was seriously thinking about taking that remaining days off to make a full week holiday.

Well, that's before I brought it up with wifey.

Because her immediate reaction was: "No! Too stressful for me."

Got to say I am absolutely crushed by that immediate reaction.

Me being home is stressful for her. That's so... hurtful.

As damage control, she explained that it's specific to when she is teaching the kids homework, when the home often becomes a war zone, and that she knows I don't like that high tension situation.

Yes I like the home to be peaceful and full of love, not full of negative emotions, anger and raised voices.

Is that wrong?

I like to stay at home, I am a home staying kind of person.

But now I know that I am actually inducing stress to wifey when I am home and she is teaching the kids homework, which happens every day.

Where can I go? Where do I belong?

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一个人晚餐

星期一送老婆仔和两个瓜去码头。

原本是要一起坐渡轮过海然后载他们去火车站的。

但太多车辆在等渡轮，要至少两轮才会到我们，所以他们干脆步行上第一艘渡轮，以免误了火车。

那天起我就一个人晚餐了咯…

其实还常常独自吃晚餐的啦，每次迟回到家就是自己吃的咯。

那些打羽球的天和工作超级忙的天就是这样的。

但是还是在家里吃老婆仔煮的饭，和家里是有人那种。

现在是家里冷冷清清没人的，所以我干脆在外吃算了。

那连续几晚给「好兄弟」的歌台刚巧也完了，所以家里格外清静。

睡觉时可以关窗，靠房门留缝来通风也不必担心会被两个瓜吵醒。

那很好，但每每看到那寂寞的牙刷心里就有点感触…

为了要给老婆仔报告，我变成那些要拍照后才能吃的奇怪的人。

我心里应该是有点鄙视这样的举止，非常抗拒。

所以自己也这样做时超级不好意思的，总是匆匆忙忙鬼鬼祟祟的拍，希望没有人留意到。

我可是有鄙视自己这样做的哦。

应该还有得救吧？

一个人宅在家里我可没差。

睡觉、看书、写写部落格、上网游览、玩电脑游戏。

很写意的生活啊，呵呵！

就是没有抱抱和亲吻很惨咯。

唉…

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