累

明天开始

公假加周末加补假共四日

我只想休息

真的好累

有好几样东西急需要做

期限已近

有很多东西想要做

一拖再拖已经可以用年来算

但我现在能够想到的

就只有休息

真的是好累

心累脑累身体累

随兴随想 |系列|

Looking for monster-sitter

A monster-sitter is just a baby-sitter really, except instead of caring for babies or children, a monster-sitter cares for little monsters.

=P

Wifey and I are looking for one to handle the little monsters so we can go watch the new Avengers movie.

I think perhaps it's best to be mentally prepared for the job, try to think of it as a test or challenge. A test for the following: mental strength, anger management, temper control, blood pressure challenge, noise tolerance, endurance to chaos, et cetera. I think you get the picture. =P

Also I should state the potential risk of the job to avoid being sued later. You may, depending on the mood and behaviour of the little monsters, suffer from one or more of the following:

- temporary lost of hearing

- high blood pressure

- lost of sanity

- irresistible urge to pull out your hair or bang your head against the wall

- hair lost and/or head damage (see above)

- become put off from having offspring

This list is by no means exhaustive.

To be fair the little monsters can be nice, sweet and fun to be with too, it all depends on their mood of the moment, which can change at any moment.

So... any takers? ^_^

Spoken word count

These numbers were recorded end of last year, when wifey and the little monsters were away at the inlaws', and I took leave to rest at home.

These were the number of my spoken words throughout the day, for three days. All happened when I was ordering food and drink while eating out, the only time when I had human interaction.

21st December 2014: 32 (18 during lunch, 14 during dinner)

23rd December 2014: 16 (dinner)

27th December 2014: 11 (dinner)

Guess I can really go through a day without saying much.

And yes, I record all sort of stuff.

我是这样的吗？

刚刚做了个网上的测验，测验结果如下：

不是跟你很熟的人觉得你是…

一个常常把自己藏起来的人。很有神秘感。不容易接近。

跟你很熟的人觉得你是…

可以跟你讲道理。黑白之间分辨得很清楚。

你想要别人觉得你是…

很清楚自己想什么要什么的人。

你最希望你的情人是…

很细心。你需要什么她都有准备。不会因为很小的东西便找你。

其实真实的你是…

觉得朋友比天还重要的人。很珍惜身边很多朋友。敢爱敢恨。不过不喜欢的人你就不会去管。

怎么样，认识我的人，测验结果还算准吗？



随兴随想 |系列|

心的频道：给有忧郁症的人

你不孤单，因为其实，很多人有忧郁症的。我就是其中一个。

只是有些患者不知道自己有忧郁症，或不愿承认自己有忧郁症而已。

或许是因为忧郁症是种心理病，有些人不想要承认自己心理有问题，或不想被误为精神有问题吧？

我看过医生，我不算太严重，所以我选择不依靠药物。

当然我不是医生，所以我只能告诉你我个人应付忧郁症来袭的办法。

首先，要接受自己有忧郁症这个事实。固执的否认是无济于事的。接受了，愈疗才能开始。

也要接受我们是无法控制忧郁症的来袭的。当忧郁症来袭时，要学会接受自己病了。

心理病也不过是一种病，人都会患病，所以不是什么大不了的事。生病了，就等它痊愈咯。

我经历了好多好多次忧郁症的来袭，至今没有一次是没好过来的。是时间长短的不同而已。

我会做些什么呢？

我是内向的人。内向的人是自己产生能量，在与人交际时燃烧这些能量的。

当然内向的人并不代表不喜欢群体活动，只是忧郁时往往能量已经低了，要再交际互动会好累好累。

当自己无法开心起来，和无法保持开心时，我通常会选择间隔自己。因为我不想要自己的情绪影响到他人，那只会令我感觉更不好。

生病了当然不想要感染别人嘛。但是整天一个人也好孤单哦…

所以有一群不在乎你的沉默和能够接纳你在群体中却有如活在自我空间的朋友是很有帮助的。要有知道你病了，不想有太多的互动但又不想要一个人的朋友群。

忧郁时就多做点自己喜欢做的事，那些可以纾解自己，让自己放松或快乐的事。不能保持着那快乐没关系，病了嘛，会好的。

尽量远离会令自己更不好了的事。烦恼，压力，吵闹是我忧郁时尽量远离的。有必要我是会拿假间隔自己的，生病了要休息。

让我感觉好的事是睡觉啊、看书啊、玩电脑游戏啊等等，那些我可以一个人悠闲清静的做的事。

还有我是很喜欢拥抱的，拥抱的感觉舒服良好，所以当我感觉很不好时我会去拥抱老婆仔。

老婆仔也惯了，她不会问我怎么了，她就是让我那么的抱着。有时她也会相拥抱回我。不需言语，她明白的。

有位明白了解你的伴侣是超棒的。

心的频道 |系列|

Hello cave

Perhaps it's the voluntary separation package that triggered the deep contemplation, and that serious thinking that triggered the sense of mid-life crisis.

Perhaps it's the overwhelming unabated issues that simply piled up one after another, that sense of going in circle, the endlessness, the helplessness, the sense of inadequacy.

Perhaps it's all of that, and then some other, but when I couldn't even feel happy knowing the pregnancy of a dear friend, I know I am in depression.

*Sigh*

Here we go again.

Hello cave, been a while.

Lost chicken

I am not an ambitious person, really am not.

I just want a simple life where I earn enough to support the family without having to worry about every single expense.

If it's a work that I enjoy, then it's icing on the cake, else I would just grumble all the time. Not like that's new...

For the family, I will endure.

I don't have to be rich. I don't need a big car, designer stuff or expensive gadgets. I do like to have my own house to call home though.

But anyway, I just lost an opportunity to earn myself a sizeable sum of extra money because I am not bold enough, and I am not ready to seize opportunity like this when it arises.

If only I had a steady second income, a backup plan.

If only I wasn't the sole breadwinner, the single source of income for the family.

If only I wasn't that emotionally attached to my colleague friends.

If only I was more of a risk-taker, adventurer, one who embraces change, and less of a conservative coward.

Feel such sense of... lost now.

A missed opportunity that may not come again, a big catch that slipped away, because I am unprepared, and I am a chicken.