30 July 2021

算了吧!


今天当工作到接近傍晚六点,工作量还是如山没减时,我知道今晚就算加时工作也是做不完的了,周末肯定要加班了。

不是我通常周末只做到午餐的那种加班,这次需要更长的工作时间,而且是都还不一定能够完成那种…

想想这星期一到星期四每天都加班到没有时间运动,反正周末是注定要加长班了,我今天傍晚和晚上就算了吧!

所以我六点出就下班了,然后就去快步走了半个小时。

今晚也不打算工作了,就放纵颓废,做番薯、生蘑菇都不工作就是了。

如果责任感不作祟,周末我也就如常做到午餐就算了,太累了。

总觉得自己已经工作到没有时间生活,这样的人生很没有意思。

真是的,周末加班工作到午餐,已经是“如常”了,唉…



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27 July 2021

It's only Tuesday


It's only Tuesday, three more days to go before the weekend.

Just two days, and I am already very low in energy level. The long hours overtime these two days didn't help.

Neither was the poor quality sleep.

Even though I probably have to work in the weekend as well, like the many past weekends, but at least I only work the morning half and get the rest of the day to rest. Well, usually. During shittier time I don't even get the half day off...

I know I should be grateful that I still have a job, still alive and well, all that. But at the moment all I can feel is tiredness, and the lack of energy for anything.



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24 July 2021

心的频道:烂泥·朽木


感恩上司的安排,分享和介绍怎么更上一层楼,迈进高官职位的路径和需求条件。

也许那是他工作范围内必须要做的事,我真心感激,但我也全心抗拒。

至少,现阶段的我真的一点也不想要这些。为何他在安排那会议前不先询问我的意愿?

请相信我是没有追求高层次、高职位的欲望的,我真的只要简单的生活。

我工作为了生活,不是生活为了工作,现在的我已经需要常常加班才能完成我的工作量了,真的不需要更高的职位带来的更多的工作量、责任、和烦恼。我已经因为工作少了生活了。

还能够勉强及时交出报告,不是因为我已在舒适圈,而是靠周日和周末的超时工作。去年两百四十三个工作天我加班了一百二十三天,我一点也不舒适!

请不要那么看得起我,就把我当作是扶不上墙的烂泥、是不能够雕的朽木吧。

我要正常工作时间和正常的生活时间,很过分吗?



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21 July 2021


不是“表现;露出”那个显,是马来西亚混杂语那个“郁闷;无聊”那个「显」。

我的显还要再加上不爽和无奈。

又开工了(虽然周末和两天假我还不是在做工…),显。

公司政治,显。

共同合作项目但死死不分享资料的客户,显。

一点都帮不上或根本没有在帮的项目管理,显。

要反社会、反社交的我做新人的伙伴,显。

唉,很显咯!



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19 July 2021

Destroyer


Wifey and I built many things out of cardboard for our pet hamster, Snowball.

Snowball proceeded to pee on them and munch away at where it urinated on. (Yes, our hamster has some disgusting habits.) Not grateful of and doesn't cherish the stuff we gave it, so like a human child.

It probably also chews where it didn't peed on given the many places being destroyed. Either that or it has really peed on all those places, not hard to believe really given the amazing amount of pee that tiny body can produce. It's like a peeing machine really.

Here's a short video of Snowball, the destroyer of cardboard constructions, blissfully munching on an apple stick.


It's contented, chewing away with it's eyes closed. =^_^=



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16 July 2021

Long weekend (2)


Coming Tuesday is a holiday, since my annual leave count is approaching the limit, I took Monday off as well to make a four days long weekend.

Sounds familiar? Hehe...

Will not fool myself about not working, since the last long weekend I ended up worked three mornings and really only had the last day off.

Will just try my best to minimise my work hours and maximise my potato mode time.

Let the chilling me time begin again!



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12 July 2021

1st dose done


Today, I feel particularly grateful that I work in a company that places the wellbeing of its employees as high importance.

My company puts in the resources to set up a Covid-19 vaccination centre for its employees and also those of nearby companies, working with the government to speed up the vaccination process.

Hence today I got my first vaccine shot, I am pretty sure if it's not for the company's effort, I would still be waiting for the appointment. The backdoor government has failed miserably.

Thinking it would be like typical hospital or government process, where waiting is the norm, I brought along a novel to pass the time.

I am very pleasantly surprised by how smooth and efficient the whole process went, gotta say it has been well planned and executed. Again I feel proud to be part of the company, this is how we do things.

From me reaching the centre to when I got my Sinovac shot took less than 15 minutes. The 15 minutes observation period after vaccination was the longest wait time throughout the whole process, and that wasn't long enough for me to warm the chair, I didn't bothered to take out my novel. I used that time to send WhatsApp messages instead. =P

Since selfie is not my thing, I skipped the photo booth, took my souvenir, which was handed to me by the highest ranking local boss of my company, and came home. From entering to exiting, I was in the vaccination centre slightly under 30 minutes.

So ya, I got my first Covid-19 vaccine dose, looking forward to my second dose in three weeks' time.



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10 July 2021

Long weekend


Coming Monday is replacement holiday for Penang governor's birthday, and since my annual leave count is approaching the limit, I took Tuesday off as well to make a four days long weekend.

Let's just pretend I didn't woke up and went straight to work until lunch, my break starts now, yay!

Since I already drove my car this week I do not need to go out in the weekend to keep the car battery healthy. I intend to go into potato mode, grow mushroom and play copious amount of computer game.

Here's hoping nothing will pop up to disrupt my delightful intention and potato plan.

Let the chilling me time begin!



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06 July 2021

就是那样衰


今天起身腰酸背痛,因为昨天下班后晚餐前用了超过一小时来洗车。

去洗车时情人老婆仔还没有开始煮晚餐,洗完车回到家整家人都已经吃饱了,唯有自己吃。*哭哭* =(

洗车,因为车太脏了,今天又要去公司。死要面子就是这样咯…

我这样怕死的人会出门去公司主要是因为需要打印、签名、然后邮寄跟专利有关的文件到美国。

但我工作的建筑里的每一个打印机都没有纸了,包括所有储放白纸的柜子里,我的天!幸好我的办公位有些白纸,虽然不是对的尺寸,但我也不管了,真的不想离开公司去买白纸然后又再回去公司。

终于可以离开时,外面就下起大雨了。

是的,我洗得发亮的车… 让我腰酸背痛后马上就前工尽费,然后还要让我淋湿。

老天爷,你很臭款、很衰样咯!



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04 July 2021

一瞬间


光阴似箭,一转眼二零二一年过了一半。

虽然寻求的是简单平淡的生活,但现实总是事与愿违,半年里有许多上上下下。

无能的后门政府和无脑的害群之马造就了新冠肺炎疫情继续肆孽,已经变成孤岛的我对人更加失望。

工作依旧那么忙,有成就、也有无奈。不后悔换了部门,主要就是管理层会欣赏和认可我的强项和贡献。今年至今多了一个专利,是去年开始的一个概念,终于修成正果。

工作以外也没有什么,还有联络的朋友没有几个,而且也没有什么共同的话题。我真的是一个孤岛。

今年尝试重启桌面游戏的活动,和以往那一群一起玩的同事朋友。变成网上的方式,遗憾的少了面对面的元素,但也有了许多的方便。对我来说策划变得简单了,就是定好大家都合适的时间而已,不再需要准备好游戏和预定房间,所有的摆放、移动、计算都是自动的,也不必做游戏后的善后清理,就是下线退出网页而已。可惜玩家少了… 嗯,人是会变的。

每个人一天都只有二十四小时,怎么用这二十四小时,就看什么对你来说是重要的。有一个我记忆深刻的事件,有一次我在忙专利的事,搞得头昏脑胀,决定歇一歇看一看群聊里在讲些什么话题时,就刚巧有人转贴一个对我来说是有的没有的、那些无聊的东西。当时感触很深,我们把时间精力用在多么不同的事上!

家,我的避风港,遗憾的也是常常有大风大浪。简单平淡的生活是很难得到的。总会觉得我是一个外人,我说的也不过是自己讲给自己听,没有人在乎,唉…

不写了,感恩还活着,希望下半年会变得更好啦。



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01 July 2021

Sharing is caring


Happiness shared is happiness multiplied, sorrow shared is sorrow lessened.

Something good happened to me and I am overjoyed. I promised not to tell but I want to share my happiness.

A promise is a promise, and I keep my words.

Can you be happy because something good happened to someone else that made him or her happy, without needing to know what happened? You know, just be happy because they are happy.

I can, seeing others happy and well is a nice feeling, if they care to share their happiness with me then I am honoured they have me in their mind. Goodness knows we need more happiness and positive energy in this world.

Same thing with when someone just needed an empathetic ear, without grilling them about what happened. I have always said, I don't need to know what happened, I can just be there for you, lend you my ear, or my shoulder.

And no, I am not trying to brag or show off, I just want to share my happiness without breaking my promise. That's all.



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