缺人脉

换了部门，断了人脉。

少了人脉，工作上的阻碍、难题变得比较烦心。

从来没有认为自己是万能的，所以从来不觉得向强于难题区域的同事请教求助有什么不妥。

反正我这命贱的廉价劳工也没有什么身份啦、地位啦，什么这些那些好纠结的。

只要不贬低或破坏我邪恶的名誉就可以了，呵呵。

只是齁，现在连该向谁请教求助都不知道，真是的。

总要麻烦好几位才能找到对的人，找到了也不一定肯帮、或及时的帮。

是这样的啦，还没有那交情，没有那人脉嘛…

决定换部门时已经知道会是这样的了，但事实不会因为我们知道了而改变。

接受了事实，困扰还是困扰、懊恼还是懊恼、烦心还是烦心。

唉… 又能怎么样？

这就是生活。

随兴随想 |系列|

还好

较好的同事朋友问我，换了部门怎么样？

唔… 还真的不知道该讲些什么。

好像没什么特别好或不好的，才一个月多，还没有什么结论。

应该算是上轨道了吧？

当然懵懵懂懂的我还有很多一知半解的，但开始实际的做热流模拟了，感觉开始会有实际的贡献。

这么多年没做模拟了，除了重学以前用过的软件，还要自学一个从没用过的软件。

暂时还可以应付啦。

新加入部门当然是被点去做团队建设活动咯。

比起只是给十个人，要给三十到四十个人的计划比较麻烦些。

要大点的场地选择就相对少些。

还有穆斯林的同事们所以午餐的选择也少了。

但还好啦，不是棘手难题。

仍旧常常一个人用早、午餐。

蛮喜欢那说走就走，不必等这等那、拖泥带水什么的。

但也开始会和同事，还有以前的同事朋友一起吃午餐啦，只是不常，因为时间通常配合不到。

当那就坐在我旁边办公位，新加入公司的同事说要一起吃午餐时，我还真不忍心拒绝。

公司分派给他的伙伴应该陪伴他嘛…

还好啦，必要时我还是可以交际的。

记得有一天会议拖晚了，在公司食堂和同事们一起吃午餐，同事们讲起那位拿了博士学位的经理级同事。

他们言语间仿佛不是对有博士学位的人有好感，觉得是麻烦的工作伴侣那样。

当他们说:“你知道啦，博士学位的人…”

我还真的不知道该讲什么？ 沉默是金，呵呵！

虽然我做完了博士学位的课程，但心安理得，我真的没有博士学位、也不是经理，希望他们不会觉得我是很难一起工作的同事啦…

每个部门都有办公室政治，唉…

我当然是尽量闪开，逃远远咯。

暂时还没有被卷入其中，希望不会被烧到啦。

第六感和直觉已经标记了些有心机的人，还真的要有所警觉。

真是的，我就只是要安安静静的做好我分内的工而已。

让我过我简简单单的生活啦…

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Um, hi Miss not Gary!

I was having lunch in a hawker centre today when I noticed a lady in a black t-shirt with this on the back:

"IM GARY"

So I was like, huh?

Gary can be a lady's name?

Or was she like, wearing her male partner's t-shirt or something?

Or was she just ignorant of what's written on the back of the t-shirt?

You know, just me being curious, the pondering of someone having a meal alone, that sort of stuff.

Then she finished her lunch and stood up to leave, and she adjusted the shoulder strap of her handbag to reveal another character...

"KIM GARY"

Ooooh, now I get it!

Haha, silly me. =P

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Simmering

No sane parents will wish ill of their children.

We love our children regardless of how they frustrate us, anger us, disappoint us, because they are our children. It's just that simple.

We want them to grow up healthy and happy, and wish no harm will come to them.

So it made my blood boils when my elder son was injured in his wushu practice and the instructors just left him sitting there in pain, until wifey found out when she went to pick him up at the end of the practice session.

I understand that accident and injury can happen in sports, I have no qualm with that. What angers me is the fact that the instructors didn't even thought of informing the parents.

In my current mood, I am hoping they get their bones broken and sit in pain for hours before someone even noticed and sent them for medical aid, see how they would feel.

For that's what happened to my son, his bone is fractured, and the freaking idiots thought nothing of it and let him suffer until wifey found out.

Granted they are no doctors, but informing the parents or next of kin when someone got injured while under your care is a no-brainer. So, no brain indeed.

Bollocks to all of you, I hope karma deals you justice.

My elder son, *sigh*...

Not even twelve yet, already fractured his toe and his shin bone in two different incidents.

Is it just carelessness, or fragile bones?

Really need to find out about the strength of his bone, whatever that medical term is.

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So many games, so little time

I am a gamer, very casual gamer, not hardcore or competitive whatsoever. I primarily play computer games.

Don't always have time for gaming, but I get my fixes whenever I can, when the mood is right.

There are so many games I want to invest time in, but too many games, too little time! >_<

Remember that Baldur's Gate saga that I hope to complete through to Baldur's Gate II: Throne of Bhaal? Well I got to Baldur's Gate in the original game, that's chapter 5 if I remember correctly, and I stopped there since.

According to my blog, which is really my online diary of sort, I went back to playing World of Warcraft and got my Legion flying.

And then there is a period playing Diablo III where I found Mjolnir.

In between these, I have been keeping up with my Neverwinter daily praying, and played some of the Heart of Fire campaign.

And there was that Dungeon Siege that I got further than my previous attempt to complete that game, but have stopped in, I believe, the early chapter still this time round.

Some time among all of these I also replayed the Starcraft campaign, I think it's because Starcraft II: Wings of Liberty became free to play and I wanted to revisit the stroyline. I was sporadically playing that, when in-laws started a Starcraft II multiplayer group that made me fast forwarded to Wings of Liberty.

Yea...

So, I really do want to complete the Baldur's Gate saga, complete Dungeon Siege, replay Starcraft I campaign, as well as Starcraft II Wings of Liberty campaign.

And I just found out yesterday night that only in January, Diablo III has this Darkening of Tristram event, so that bumped up the priority since else I will miss it.

Annnnnnnnnnd~ eldest brother is coming back for Chinese New Year with the World of Warcraft game time cards I exchanged with my soon to expire mileage points, basically free game time subscription as far as I am concern, so...

Yea, so many games, so little time.

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"Noble people"

Instantly understood if I wrote this in Chinese, but I don't feel like writing a Mandarin entry today so I shall use the term I learned from Joey Yap's BaZi series of books.

"Noble people" (贵人), someone who helps you, your benefactor (usually does not mean in material or monetary terms), someone who makes life easier for you.

I started getting names of colleagues to reach out to for sharing and guidance regarding this new role in the new department, and one on one meetings are gradually happening this week.

Had two thus far, both pleasant, both beneficial, and both ended with me filled with gratitude.

Thermal engineers unite! =P

Goodness knows we are few enough.

Really glad to have friendly and helpful colleagues willing to share, guide and teach. Restored my faith in humanity somewhat.

Let's say I am cautiously optimistic. (Jeez I am such a gloomy pessimist...)

Also glad to find out that all that studying in the past few weeks had been the right move, for I don't sound like a complete idiot and can actually have meaningful discussion with the colleagues. I did my homework right, hehe!

Felt good. =)

Really grateful to these colleagues, hence decided to write about it.

Will give them recognition when it's over, of course, to show my appreciation and really, that's just good manner.

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心的频道：累

和变成朋友的同事们过了一个很开心的星期五。

美味佳肴、谈笑娱乐、唱歌一起走调、破音、失声，把好好听的歌唱烂、大伙一起笑垮。

爽。

然后累了整个周末。

身心都累。

身累，因为人老了，不能玩太夜，要早点睡觉。

已经很久很久没有一觉到天明了，每晚都会醒来至少两、三次，睡眠质量非常差。

加上又换了工作时间，很早就起身了。

心累，因为惆怅吧？

聚会后散场离别总是会心里沉重。

本来就是重感情、容易感伤的人。

情人老婆仔说，大瓜像我，也是这样。

可怜的大瓜，注定一生人常常会心累了。

这是命。

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Efficiency

Took me an hour and forty five minutes to get home last Friday. Unacceptable.

Granted I had to go pick up my son and there was an accident on the bridge that caused the traffic all the way back to the industrial zone, but still, that was a freaking long time for 18 kilometres distance.

Seriously, could have driven to Ipoh in that time.

Complaining about it would achieve nothing though, so I changed my working hours earlier again this week.

I was doing 07:30 to 17:00 hours last few weeks, this week I changed to 07:00 to 16:30 hours.

Time from home to work is still around 25 minutes, but the average time from work to home has reduced from 50 minutes to 36 minutes.

More importantly, the frustration level has reduced significantly, and that's immeasurable.

On the days I have to pick up the children, guess I will just wait there instead of in the office, so I can be away from the industrial zone choke points before the traffic starts to build up.

Probably means I will be wasting some productive time waiting but at least I can avoid the frustration.

Still a win in my book.

Only hope I can sustain this, but figured that when the work load starts building up, leaving at 16:30 hours may not be feasible.

Oh well, will see.

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随想

我真的是很孤僻的人。

或许说，我很习惯独来独往。

换工至今，没有主动去交际或参别人，但也没有特地回避啦。

今天老板带我六个月的伙伴来互相介绍，整个过程可以说是很精简的嗨和掰，嘿！

反而希望伙伴是那位以前就认识、我已经问了好多东西的那同事朋友，那就可以用公司的钱每个月和他吃一餐好的来答谢他。

Oh well...

工作上有必要时，我当然会跟同事交流接触，不然我就静静的在我办公位，戴上耳机一边听音乐一边看网上资料。

不是开玩笑的，我这几个星期复习和学习了很多东西，很有成果的自修。

我甚至有了好几个挑战自己的计划主意，是跟工作息息相关的。

不过没有一些成果前不会跟老板说，以免变成在定时内要完成的任务和压力。

早餐和午餐，我常常一个人吃。多年自己一人用晚餐，我已惯已为常。

不是同部门的同事没有邀约一同吃早餐，只是怕输、怕没泊车位的这儿，午餐时间偏早。

太迟吃早餐很快又是午餐时间了，感觉怪怪的，生理时钟不太顺。

同事吃早餐的时间对我来说偏迟了点。

加上我把工作时间移前来避开车龙，蛮早就到办公室了，吃了早餐开工，就不必做到一半中断。

欸，我绝对不是工作狂哦！ 主要还是不想早餐和午餐之间太靠近啦…

自己一人吃其实也比较容易和省时间，没有模棱两可、没有拖泥带水，说走就走、要去哪就去哪。

午餐我还是会问问把我加入圈中的同事朋友的，我有时还会邀他们下午茶，但那些大忙人，我对他们没有什么期望。

工作慢慢开始上轨道，等能做模拟的电脑办妥了，就可以做很多东西了。

哦！今天拿到了柜子抽屉的锁匙，终于可以把东西搬回办公室了！

但跟之前的办公位相比，这柜子超小的，无法容下很多东西。

应该是之前的八分之一吧？

看来要好好清理和决定什么该搬回办公位才行。

随兴随想 |系列|

Addendum

A few things to add to the first entry of 2019.

I am back to a work place with many ladies keeping their hair long and wearing skirt or dress to work. Wonderful.

Pleasant to the eyes and conducive to stress management.  ^_^

Also, I am back to many choices for lunch, I particularly like having many hawker centres to choose from, since I have 'cheap' taste and like hawker's food more than all those restaurants.

If you are too busy to have lunch, then your priority needs some adjustment. Why work so hard that you forget to live?

Don't we work so we can afford to live in comfort? If there is no time to live, why work?

But I gotta add in a negative thing though... the traffic sucks!

Big time.

Took me an average of 50 minutes to get home, a 18km journey.

And that's on a normal day with me leaving around 17:00 hours. On a bad day like yesterday, it took me 1 hour and 45 minutes.

Da suck!

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First entry

First entry of 2019, let me try to make it a positive and cheery one.

No promise, I am the grumpy old man after all. =P

And while a recent online article indicated that I am a very positive person, I often feel that I am full of negative energy, so...

Whatever.

Got my cubicle to myself today, yay! No more sharing with the contract worker, and the surface was cleared of everything. Clean start. =)

They also came and changed the incorrectly spelled cubicle name tag, so finally the name is spelled as my parents intended it to be.

Though I still don't have the key to the cabinet locker but hush! No negative stuff!

I actually went and sat with the other colleagues in the cafe this morning, despite already had my breakfast before that. Small talks and mostly listened, I am a listener after all, but hey, I went to a social thing with strangers.

Crazy or what? =P

Of course I don't remember any of the names, goldfish memory for the win!

I started to get tied in into stuff and got things assigned to do, woohoo!

Nothing major yet, more like getting me sorted with the relevant laptop and software, and getting to know the project, but at least it's a start!

While I have no qualm reading up on stuff that I think is relevant, which may or may not actually be relevant to the project, and I still have many subjects I want to read, I am also eager to start getting involved.

Tomorrow, I will start to bring stuff to my cubicle, and do a proper cable management.

Then go bug the colleagues if they haven't sent me the project material.

One step at a time, go go go!

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