Musing

Suddenly sick yesterday evening, high fever, had been bedbound since.

Couldn't sleep though, just tossed and turned the whole night, so I am feeling like a zombie now.

During the long night, when the fever had abated somewhat, I dragged myself out of bed and booted up the computer to surf the net.

The restless mind wandered and wondered, particularly after viewing the photos of friends having fun, gathering. And I felt a sudden... longing? Jealousy? Envy?

How happening their lives are compared to mine.

Have I been antisocial for so long now I no longer know how to reach out, to connect?

Or have I isolated myself so much so that I no longer have those circle of friends? Have I ever have such circle of friends?

Melancholic thoughts.