07 May 2023

如果…


如果你的同学、朋友或认识你的人说你是:

自大自我的,
没责任感的,
满口粗话的,
没有礼貌的,
虚伪假面的,
没有信用的,
自以为是的,
没有教养的,
脾气暴躁的,
没有实力的,
言而无信的,
不尊师敬老的,
夸口说大话的,
手脚不干净的,
不老实讲骗话的…

儿子,那不是毁谤,那是看清、看透了你而已。

拜托你要清醒了,不要再执迷不悔。要知错能改,不要再找借口耍赖了。

错了就认,诚心道歉后真心悔改,不要自以为是的一错再错。



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06 May 2023

Demotivated


The all company meeting is projecting one message, while my department is doing quite the opposite, prime example of what I called "the management talk".

To reduce cost, company asked the employees to volunteer for pay cut, saying one of the main reasons for the pay cut is to save jobs, so company does not have to let go its employees. As someone who could only have any saving when there is bonus, with the monthly salary barely covering the living cost, I couldn't in good conscience bring myself to accept so I let it defaulted to accept instead.

Anyway it's all for nothing. My department is asking for voluntary separation again, and if the volunteer count does not meet target, there will be involuntary separation. Yes, the company is going to let go its employees, so much for the main reason of voluntary pay cut.

When the pay cut started and the pinch on living cost felt, it's already a great blow to morale. Now this double whammy.

Totally demotivated, demoralized.



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01 May 2023

自祝


五月一号劳动节,祝自己劳动节快乐!

辛苦了。

很多的辛酸劳苦只有自己懂,也只能自己撑。

真的,辛苦了。

好好的慰劳自己吧。



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29 April 2023

心的频道:不缺


不富裕,但生活不缺。只要节约,过得还可以。

我不是追求物质享受的人,实用就好。庆幸情人老婆仔也不是奢侈的人。

当然钱不嫌多,毕竟实际现状就是退休金养不起情人老婆仔和我两人,也没有本事让孩子们出国深造。是很可悲的情况,烦恼又无奈。

所以我不缺烦恼,已经常常昼夜难眠,请不必再为我增添烦恼。需要的是能帮我减少烦恼的贵人。

我要的是简单朴素、悠闲清静的生活。但生活总是不简单,唉…



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27 April 2023

Potato mode on!


Annual leave reaching maximum allowable limit so taking tomorrow off to not lose any hard-earned leave.

Next Monday is Labour Day and next Thursday is Wesak day, both public holidays that my company observed. So I am taking next Tuesday and Wednesday off as well to get myself a seven days break.

I already know I have to work tomorrow, even though I am on leave, still have three tasks to complete before I can really be off.

And I am sending the car to service and going to sort out some life insurance stuff as well, so don't think I will be getting much rest and relax tomorrow...

But still, it's going to be a seven days break, well, maybe six. Hopefully not any less and I can control myself to not work overtime. Less motivated to work overtime lately, the pay cut is a big damper.

So, potato mode is on, don't contact me for any work related stuff, and unless you are really close to me, don't ask me out because I really just want to stay in and chill.



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24 April 2023

空头支票


这世上,就是有空口讲白话的人。讲就天下无敌,什么都可以、什么都行,事实却是只能做个废。

我不能理喻为什么这些人能够这么没良心的睁眼讲谎话,开他们不能兑现的空头支票?

这些人的诚信、良知、灵魂在哪?内心真的可以这么黑暗、空洞、腐烂的吗?

为什么我这烂命这么不幸总会碰到这样的人?

说一个月内会归还的金额,借出去七年了,假如每个月都还一点点也早还清了… 真的,心已死。买了个很贵的教训,也看清了人性。

给钱买服务,答应的和提供的骗很大。是物质上不对标的劣品或差劲服务也就算了,但买的是无助老人的照顾,人命关天啊!怎么能够那么敷衍了事?怎么能够一提再提的重要检测做都不做,甚至都不知道怎么做还一口答应?

怎么能够药物给错份量啊?会死人的啊!

人类,就是可以这么虚伪、无良、恐怖。

我反社会、反社交就是因为碰上太多这样的人。

人类,累人。



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22 April 2023

Need some voodoo


Didn't slept well yesterday, no thanks to a certain religion that has to force their prayers down everyone's throat. But of course we cannot say anything about it because, well, religion stuff is always touchy and sensitive, especially in Bolehland, where it's religiously used for political agenda and personal gain.

I am more of a silent prayer type. To me whatever between me and divine forces is just that, between me and the divine beings, it's private, it's in the heart, it's in my actions, and definitely not something I broadcast out loud and force on everyone within 3km radius.

After all, to me the divine teaching should be for us to be a better person, to be considerate, and definitely not to force onto others what they do not want, or to disturb others' peace and quiet, resting and sleeping time. Not sure why it has to be broadcasted out, actually, not sure why it has to be broadcasted at all, just keep it within the building where the faithful gathered for prayers would have been an elegant and respectful way of doing it. Oh well.

Anyway, while I was bombarded with loud prayers at some ungodly hours, making sleep impossible especially for a light sleeper like me, I was thinking of ways to get my peace and quiet resting time.

The immediate thought that came to my mind when I was rudely disturbed in my sleep was to blast the speakers to hell. If only I had some magical power that can destroy those speakers with merely my thought. Poof! Return the night to peace with a single thought.

Since unfortunately the prayers did not stop, and the dogs howled along as they always do, my then woken mind started thinking. If I had magical power, while breaking the speakers would definitely satisfied my vengeance, it would not solve the problem, I could do better with my magical power...

So I was thinking if I had magical power, I would make it so that only the people of that religion can hear the broadcasted prayers. That would be a win-win situation, those of the religion are the ones who wanted the prayers broadcasted, those not of the religion would rather not be disturbed. So as long as I could cast a spell and make those who don't want to be disturbed by the prayers not to hear it, and only those who want to can hear it, then everybody win!

Too bad I don't have magical power, and while I believe this can actually be done using science and technology, for example with implant into auditory system of the people of that religion so only they can hear the prayers, the prayers being broadcasted in digital signal instead of acoustic wave, there are human rights and all that, but first and foremost is that religion actually buys in into the whole thing about not wanting to disturb others, because if not, all is moot.

So, still it goes back to if only I had magical power, then those who want loud noise would get loud noise, those who don't would get their peace and quiet, my spell would respect your choice.



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