16 January 2020

Hello cave


Wish you would leave me alone, depression.

Wishful thinking, I know.

You came knocking, uninvited, unwelcomed.

Yet I have no say in the matter, I can't even refuse entry.

So hello cave, here we go again...



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14 January 2020

Yes!


Today is the first working day in 2020 when I don't have to work overtime.

Actually it's since my business trip but whatever.

Fantastical!

(Yes the balls are also feeling fantastic =P)

Just wanted to record this.



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10 January 2020

好累的一周


我二零二零年的第一个工作周,真的是忙到~

而且都不知道忙到虾那样,做了那么多模拟,到底有什么意义?

徒劳无功的感觉。

身心都好累。

准备的报告总是被断章取义只拿想要的部分,叫我冷汗直流。被省略的部分有很重要的讯息的啊!

客人很客气的告知根本不信方案的可行性,其实我完全明白他们的立场。

毕竟到现在为止就只是我热流模拟的一组数字、一些面积,少了热流模拟以外那些零件啊、机构啊、等等实物做得到的支持数据和资料。

少了那说服他们的全面方案,唉…

所以真的,还就只是一个想得很美的梦。

感谢客人没有直接嘲笑天真无知,就是很婉转的叫我回到地面。

我也很想有结实的地面的啊!但我现在就只能漂浮在一直在变的热流中。

我也很无奈,真的。

唉…

不要负能量,要往好的地方想…

今天只是加工两小时就下班了也,没到十二小时,嘢!

(因为放弃了,明天再继续吧…)



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08 January 2020

2020 work life trend


I took a break end of last year to rest and relax for the new year.

For a new and better beginning, all that.

My plan to be potato during the break didn't panned out as expected, but I did stuck to the plan of ignoring all work related stuff, so that's a win.

Anyway, my 2020 work officially started this Monday, so I have been working for three days now in the new year.

And all three days were 12+ work hours day, not a single day below twelve hours. Official work hours are 9 hours.

It's already been close to 14 work hours today and I still have to work about an hour later before I go to bed.

Bollocks.

So much for a better beginning.

It's like the slave pen has been upgraded in 2020 to be even more horrible... >_<

So if these three days are any indication, then this year is going to suck.

The latest reorganisation is not a good turn of event, because unlike the previous, the new job scope and nature do not put the group in position of power.

Very low down the chain we are now, which is not conducive to job satisfaction and work/life balance.

*Sigh...*

Can only make the best out of it, and if cannot adapt or change to my liking... well, been there, done that.

And not afraid to do it again.



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05 January 2020

Prick


This entry is first drafted on the 2nd of January 2020, expanded on the 3rd, and added a link to a relevant article today.


I am writing this with the intention of holding on to it until I posted something else since I don't want my first entry of a new year to be a rant.

The gist of it is that someone spoiled the Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker for me by posting a main plot of the movie in a WhatsApp group.

Initially I was just annoyed, unhappy about it, but chalking it as a careless mistake of an often over-excited, notorious spammer who pretty much always shove things down other people's throat through all his available social media channels.

I voiced my displeasure, since who likes to have a movie spoiled before getting a chance to see it?

Maybe there are people who like spoilers, who like to know what's going to happen in a movie before they see it, but I am definitely not one of them.

In fact, it's pretty well known among my old lunch gang that I hate it, which of course became one of the things the gang made fun of.

Those who watched movies soon after they were out would say they were going to talk about the movie, just to get a rise out of me. Never seemed to get old for them.

But nobody actually said or posted any spoilers. It's simple manner really.

Until now.

I was annoyed initially, but now I am really pissed off.

Because not only did the prick feel no remorse, he said it's alright to post spoilers two weeks after the movie is out, that it's my own fault I haven't watched it, that I am slow.

He can give as many lame excuses as he likes, jerks will be jerks.

I know him well enough, he will probably accuse me of being too serious next, trying to make light of it as a joke.

Well, I am old enough to know not to waste my time on toxic person.

And no thank you, I don't need to have my next anticipated movie spoiled because I don't watch the movie within two weeks of it being out, or whatever time period that suits him next.

Let's hope the WhatsApp block function works.

*****

The below is added in a later date.

Nope, blocking someone in WhatsApp doesn't do any good in group chat. I was hoping I will stop seeing that person's messages in group chat but no dice.

Bollocks.

Guess my other option is to leave the group, oh well. Maybe when the next movie I care about comes out.

And unsurprisingly, the prick is still harping on about it's okay to talk about the movie after two weeks, quoting someone said so. Pure coincidence it's the same time period, to the dot, as when he watched the movie and couldn't keep his mouth shut.

He then tried to get the others to talk about it to lessen his guilt.

Of course it's okay to talk about the movie you watched, go ahead and discuss it with those who want to, whenever you like to, like as soon as you finished watching it. Why bother with some period of time someone else said?

The timing doesn't matter one bit, a spoiled movie is a spoiled movie for those who haven't watched it and who are looking forward to the enjoyment watching it. 

The point the prick totally missed, or chose to ignore because that implies he is in the wrong (ridiculous! The prick is never wrong! Yea, I broke my sarcasm meter a long time ago...), is that it's common courtesy to ask first, or at least put a spoiler warning, before you blurt.

You know, let those who don't want to know or discuss with you have the option not to be involved.

Something any decent person would understand and do, surely.

But I guess it's like common sense, common courtesy or decency is not common at all. Else there wouldn't be so many jerks and pricks around, right?

Or is it something like what this article (in Mandarin) says?

Anyway, onto the shit list he goes.



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03 January 2020

不番薯天


明明就拿了两天假来筹足五天长假,好宅在家里做番薯、生蘑菇、结蜘蛛网什么的。

偏偏今天一点都不番薯,在外溜了一整天。

没有在家里睡觉、看书,没有生菇、没有结网,但还是很爽。

因为去和较好的同事朋友们聚餐吃顿收工宴,一年一次的项目。

有许多真的是好久不见了。

虽然见了也不知道要讲什么,毕竟交际不是我的强项,但还是很开心见到他们。

是一群见了嘴角就会自动上扬的同事朋友。熟悉的面孔,不会觉得不自然或不舒服的一班人。

好啦,是有一个我现在是超不爽的啦,但认识也够久了知道他就是那样「衰款」的人。

一大班人里总有一些不是那么合得来的。八字不合,还是性格不合,还是价值道德处世观有太大差异吧?

没关系,不睬他就是了。

大伙一贯的谈笑和恶搞,笑声不断。吃了什么对我来说一点都不重要,重要的是和他们聚一聚。

餐后和少了很多的一小群去唱歌。

我们说好的每三个月一次的聚唱也渐渐没了,这次的人数也就只剩一半…

很多东西是不能尽如人意的,曲终人会散。

很难会大家坚持同一个意愿的,毕竟每个人注重的东西不同,优先次序不同。

人是会变的,在所难免。

不过不要讲伤感的话,因为我今天很开心,真的。

谢谢这一班同事朋友,由衷感激。谢谢你们接受反社会、反社交的我。

因为你们,我选择不番薯一天,呵呵! =P



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31 December 2019

2019 in numbers


Another year gone, going into a new decade.

2019 was a year of heavy workload and many, many overtime, my work/life balance was thrown out of the window. It's also a year of growing distant, getting more and more disconnected from family and friends.

Here's hoping 2020 will see some improvement, but honestly not holding my breath.

Anyway, 2019 numbers...


125 blog entries, this is the 12th year in a row. What can I say? I am disciplined, persistent and consistent.

218 days of commute to work recorded, which covered 7893.8 kilometres, giving an average of 36.2 kilometres per day. That's about 36% of the distance compared to when I had to commute to ulu place to work. No complaint here!

19 petrol filling recorded. My one year old Civic is doing an average of 14.5 kilometre per litre of petrol in urban traffic. My ex-MyVi was doing 15.8 kilometre per litre, but that's a mixture of about 70% highway and 30% city traffic.

98 days of worked till overtime-worthy late. More than double the highest of any previous years, and more than quadruple of last year's. This is simply horribly disgustingly shameful! My slacker extraordinaire reputation is totally ruined. This new department is definitely not conducive to my work/life balance and my health! >_<

8 days of leave taken. First ever single digit day off count, lowest since I started recording this. My goodness, this department is a slave pen!

18 days on business trip. Nope, hate them still.

No more badminton nor tabletop gaming session. My work life is absolutely dull nowadays. Sad. =(

30 novels read, 12.2 days for a book. I probably reread more old novels than I read new novels this year, didn't improve my read rate though, oh well.

42, 15, 12, 10, for my own reference.


Happy New Year dear reader, wish you a healthy and smooth 2020.



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