Random Musing

Why want a "more-than-just-friend" friend, otherwise known as boyfriend or girlfriend, when you always prefer to spend time with your "just-friend" friends instead of boyfriend/girlfriend?


Why want a "special one" when you do not care how he/she feels, do not care what he/she is concerned with?


Why tie up someone and waste his/her prime period when you don't commit him/her high in your priority list?


Is it some kind of status thing, or is it just for sex? (the former is just sad, the later plain sick)


I don't know. It baffles me.


Call me old fashion, boring, or whatever else you like, but isn't having the "special one" about someone to care for and being cared by? Having someone to bring the best out of you and vice versa? Someone to complete you and brighten the world? Someone to share all the ups and downs in life? The good old love and being loved, and that 'they live happily ever after'?


If being with the "special one" is just constant heartaches, with no way out of the vicious cycle even when you have tried your best to make it work but your efforts not reciprocated, isn't it time to stop and ponder if this is really the "special one"?


Do you really want to spend the rest of your life with this person and 'live happily ever after'?


If not, isn't it time to cut loose while you are still in your prime, move on, and actually be happy?


It's like having a bad tooth, you can choose to leave it and prolong the relatively lesser pain (until it gets out of control, that is), or you can choose to have it extracted bearing that short period of sharper pain, and move on to the healing process.


I believe in choices. Happiness is a choice.

Oops...

Erm...

Turned out that my router and modem have a love/hate relationship, the later doesn't like the former poking insistently when it's not up to it.

I gotta manually stop the router trying to connect when the modem is in bad mood.

Reboot the modem, let it calm down a bit, then only manually ask the router to connect (gently).

Troublesome, but works.

Now that they have kissed and made up, I can go online again, yay!

Good thing I haven't called tmnet. =P

Okay okay, it's my bad, I will go stand in the corner facing the wall now...

Arghhh!

Got the hardware bit sorted and was able to surf the net during the weekend. The instability of my favorite game server meant I didn't get to play any online game during the weekend though.

Oh well, at least there was internet.

However since yesterday, something has gone bonkers again. No matter what I do the modem simply refused to get a connection.

Arghhh, me no likey! >.<

Since even the unsecured wireless network that some neighbour of mine has was also down this morning, I missed the 07:00 hours meeting. Was thinking to go online and attend the meeting from home, you see.

Initially I thought it must be the *sarcasm on* oh-so-reliable-Streamyx *sarcasm off* went down for my area, judging purely from the unsecured wireless network that also couldn't get me online this morning.

But I am now writing this through the unsecured wireless network, and yet my home line still refuses to get me online.

Me is not happy. =(

Gotta give the *sarcasm on* oh-so-reliable-tmnet *sarcasm off* a call tomorrow.

Have to go learn some mad scolding skills from Hum Lee first.

Yes, I am assuming it's their fault even though I have no proof whatsoever! =P

No, my modem is not dead, at least I don't think it is...

Bye Bye Polly

A few days ago, we celebrated Paul's birthday as well as his farewell lunch, for he has decided to leave our department to pursue his career in another department.

I am sure Paul, or more affectionally headmaster Polly, has his reasons for leaving our bestest department. I am guessing the Wii and games room of his new department must have been the weighing factors.

Shame that we no longer have our "headmaster" patrolling the aisle and doing spot checks on us. Who would take photographs of Nelson sleeping in the office now (which reminds me, I haven't posted those)? Who would stop the Bowling Queen from playing with her virtual pet in Facebook now?

Surely our department will fall into disarray now that Polly is gone. Oh no!

Okay, not really. Just wanted to let Polly thinks he is important, give face lar.

Hope you find what you seek in the new department Polly.

If not, don't come back, we don't want you anymore you deserter!

=P

Down Time

Router died on me three days ago.

Took me so many days to get the new router to talk to the computers in LAN and the modem at the same time without them giving each others cold shoulders, silent treatments, or slammed doors.

Computer savvy I am not. Me da caveman.

Trial and error is the way to go! =P

Anyway, finally back online at home, booyah!

State of Mind

Happiness, like sadness, is a state of mind.

There is nothing wrong being sad, for it's through sadness we appreciate happiness. Prolonged sadness though, is not a healthy state to dwell on.

I know, because I have been depressed for a long period of time. During which sparks of happiness were short-lived, never sustained, and I stayed in my cave wasting away my life.

Depression is a psychological illness, so in other words I was mentally imbalanced, a psycho. I never denied I am a little crazy, ever read what I wrote on my office white board? =P

There came a point when I didn't want to be depressed no more. I really, really wanted to be normal again. After all, there are only so many years I will live, I don't want to waste them in sadness.

I didn't really know what to do to be happy, so I told myself to stop being depressed. It's an inner battle of telling myself repeatedly that I want to be normal again.

Saying is always easier than actually doing it, however I also know that we won't get anywhere if we do nothing. First step is always the hardest, persist and it becomes a habit.

Smile, for I believe the physical affects the mental and vice versa. By making myself smile, I hope to lead my mind into happiness. Nothing to lose trying, since smiling makes one look better anyway.

It took time, and I still suffer bouts of depression every now and then, but that's okay, it's normal. Although a teeny-weeny insane, I am generally happy nowadays, because I chose to be.

Happiness is a choice.

Happy Birthday, Brother

Here's wishing you much happiness that will increase many-fold with the coming of your bundle of joy!

Happy last birthday before parenthood!

p/s: sleep now while you can =P