Uncertainty

Was told by a caring colleague friend that a colleague whose cubicle is close to mine has tested positive for Covid-19.

A bit of information gathering and fact finding later it seems like the colleague was tested positive yesterday.

I was in the office on Monday, and I talked to the colleague, was the colleague already carrying the virus then? I don't know if I am a close contact or not, I have not heard from any health care personnel.

Besides feeling tired, which is usual for me and which I think has more to do with the sleep quality than anything, I don't feel different to usual. Of course I could be asymptomatic...

Anyway, I have asked all family members to do a self test tomorrow morning, and was rather surprised by wifey's reluctance. Just for peace of mind, if nothing.

Hopefully nothing. *Fingers crossed*

It's always the not knowing, the uncertainty, that's mentally torturing.

And I already know that even if the saliva self test kit shows that I am negative, I will still have doubt. Saliva test kit is not that accurate after all.

Oh well, better negative than positive.

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重振

十五天的农历新年过了，该好好收拾和整理下心情。

不喜欢最近工作的状况和自己的心态，仿佛没有方向的忙碌，那迷茫、迷惘的感觉。

需要策划怎么应付那多项的工作，和积极的一一完成它们。

应该是最近态度和精神太散漫，不集中，所以事倍功半、效率差。

也可能是对工作有点厌倦，所以总是提不起劲。

是什么都好，那徒劳无功、白忙的感觉很烂，所以不想要继续这样。

年过完了，重新出发吧！

是的，我这样来催眠和说服自己。

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晒屁股

刚过的星期很忙、很累、也背着很大的精神压力。

年假一过就没日没夜的忙。赶工为了星期五的一个会议。

老板有个主意，想要得到大老板的赞同，申请公司资助几年的大型计划。数据由命贱的我提供，一个月的工作分量四天要完成…

当大老板说主意虽然很好，但不适合大型计划时，老实说我还真的松了一口气。

星期六我过了中午才起床。是的，我真的很累。

很久很久已经没有睡到太阳晒屁股了，感觉自己这周末很成功！

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Friday finally

What an arduously long, exhaustingly busy and overwhelmingly stressful week!

When will the managers understand to use 'week' as the time unit when it comes to thermal simulation, not 'day'.

Despite the many reminders and past experiences, some people just never learned.

Perhaps because the one burning the midnight oil and losing sleep is not them...

Failing to plan is planning to fail, if you have such big ambition or grand idea that needs thermal simulation support, you plan ahead and give your thermal engineer the time needed to do the job properly.

Rushed job is crappy job, and it does not go well with the perfectionist within me. I hate giving subpar results when I know I can do better given the proper time.

I have my own standard to pass for what I deliver, no thanks for ruining that for me.

All that stressful time and effort ended up a waste anyway, bollocks!

Fish and duck it! I am not working overtime this weekend.

I am glad Friday working hours are over. Truly I am.

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初六

今天初六，星期天，明天要开工了。

世上有各种各样的人，有那些周末也心甘情愿开心的做工、还很迫切期待周一正式工作天的到来的热忱过头工作狂。

那些会说 “太好了，明天要开工了，嘢！” 的人。

我不是。

我是非常不甘愿加时工作，会抱怨发牢骚和希望周末不要完的人。

我是 “明天要做工了，唉，显到～” 的那种人。

以前我会说自己是闲懒达人，现在讲了自己都不相信，还会很愧疚，觉得太对不起自己了…

很遗憾的现在的常态是不断重复加时工作的恶性循环。

高官重任不吸引我，我的目标没有改变过，我要的是简单的生活。

工作忙到没有了生活就毫无意义了。

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立春

今天立春，壬寅（水虎）年的开始，今天出世的宝宝就不再是属牛尾而是虎头啦！

两天前妈咪生日，所以和她视频通话祝贺她，她没有反应…

除夕傍晚喉咙痛至今还是没有痊愈，病着过年。

今天从娘家回自己的家，感恩路程顺利，没有像去时那样塞车。

还是自己的家最好，希望今晚能有高质量的睡眠。

只剩周末两天来休息，然后又要开工了，想到就显。

根本都没有休息到，倒是觉得更累，而且还病了，唉…

这就是命。

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初一

今天初一，祝大家农历新年快乐！

昨晚团圆饭后开始觉得喉咙痛，没有其它症状，但没有测试器，所以…

我喉咙痛，小瓜也时而流鼻涕时而鼻塞了两天，所以今天没有像以往那样和岳父一起去他老家拜年。还是小心谨慎为上。

和身在他州的父母视频通话拜年，妈咪依旧认不得我，加上得知爸比团圆饭独自一个人吃，心里很难受…

呆在岳父母家里无所事事，生蘑菇。一样是宅在家里，但始终都还是自己的家比较方便自在。

新年就是要吃个不停，但现在喉咙痛，连这都不行了，唉…

初一到此时，不是很好。

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