有感而发：活在当下

二零一八年十二月九日。

人生短短几十年，一转眼就过。

要活在当下，珍惜每一天。

不要过去了才遗憾，不要失去了才惋惜，因为那无济于事。

要在事物消逝前用心保护和珍惜，及时享受和表达、及时诠释和感恩。

不要只会受而不施，不要认为别人对你好是理所当然。

要有感恩的心，要懂得珍惜和感谢那些对我们好的人。

人生没有得倒带，很多事物过了就不再重来。

可以怀念过去，可以展望未来，但要及时的生活。

有感而发 |系列|

Backlogs #22: Trust

This screenshot is dated 3rd of February 2016, titled "trust".

Don't really remember what we were talking about that broached the subject of trust and promises, probably the friend broke a promise or something like that.

Just thought I should share this.

I keep my promises. Trust is earned when actions meet words.

In this series: |1| |2| |3| |4| |5| |6| |7| |8| |9| |10| |11| |12| |13| |14| |15| |16| |17| |18| |19| |20| |21|

The plunge (3)

So, I clicked the "I Acknowledge Acceptance" in the job offer letter at 08:15 hours on the 28th of November 2018, Wednesday.

This is it, no turning back.

And I haven't even discussed the transition plan with my manager. Oh well.

Then again, the disappointment with the management is one of the causes of my decision to leave the department.

To me, it all went downhill since the reorganisation in August 2016, when the management merged the local process/hardware team with the software team and all to report under the software group.

The misalignment with the group objective started since, and despite the many dialogues with the management, nothing changed.

There is this saying about when we are subjected to a significant change: first we should try to accept it, if we can accept it, then good, end of story. If not, then try to change, either change it to what we want, or change ourselves by adapting to it. If we cannot make the change happen, then as the last resort, leave.

So in short: "If cannot accept, change. If cannot change, leave."

Here I am, after two years of trying to change, choosing to leave because I just don't see a future staying.

I have more to say, but I am suddenly hit with lethargy and profound sadness, so I will write more on this topic some other day.

All I have now, is a long, heartfelt sigh.

Other |sane side| category entries.

Random behaviour for December 2018

While I had the discipline to execute October's resolution without fail, I didn't really feel good.

You see, I was hoping it rekindles my gaming passion, which it didn't. I stopped gaming as soon as October was over.

=(

November is slacker's month, so no impromptu resolution as show of respect, hehe. =P

Given that I am going to lose many of my other entertainment and hence stress relief means soon, I really ought to get back to gaming more frequently.

So, for December 2018, starting after I post this, my impromptu resolution is: to have at least three gaming sessions every week.

Because I can.

Other |flickering fling| category entries.

  

At long last... (4)

Finally received my certificate. Snail mail is... impressively slow.

So, at long last, this is the end of this long journey. All that, for a piece of paper.

Never again!

Granted, the knowledge and skills acquired in the research are probably what got me my current job, but the journey, oh boy the journey... just no, never again!

Like I said in the previous entry of the series, I don't get to say "trust me, I am a doctor", that's probably the biggest downer.

For me, that had been one big motivation to plough through the mire.

Oh well...

Two master degrees, so?

Just pieces of paper.

I am mightily glad this is finally over. Truly I am.

The long journey: | 1 | | 2 | |3 |

Other |hyped up heads up| category entries.

随想

其实，还真的以为这周末会写的文章将是这系列的句点。

但以为很直接的一个程序，竟然出现了插曲变数。

真的没预料到，蛮意外的。所以又回到懊恼纠结的阶段，真是的…

就再等一个星期吧，看看他们有什么可以改变我的想法。

其实到了这一步，我想应该是很难了。

毕竟能做的，我都做了。给了两年的时间，却不见好转，一个星期又会能有什么呢？

我是一位忠诚的人，但不会重视、不会珍惜我的，不配拥有我的忠诚。

改变不了能控制范围外的东西，我们唯有改变自己。

自己的人生自己决定。

*****

终于收到双十一时网购的电脑显示卡。

但我只有旧式接口的连接线，这显示卡上已没有这样类型的接口。

我那有点年龄的显示器也只有 VGA 和 DVI-D 接口而已，真是的。

只好又在网购了一条一头是 HDMI 另一头是 DVI-D 的连接线。

又再等啦，唉…

*****

非常抗拒就因为是有同样的星座而被列为和同事朋友同类型。

不要不要不要不要！

根本就那么不同的性格和言行举止嘛…

*****

令人费解的一句：

“你不在，我怎么办？”

随兴随想 |系列|

Nothing lasts forever

Nothing lasts forever.

So many things that are relevant, that I can associate with that statement now.

Also there are things I like to dispute that statement with, but perhaps it's a tad too philosophical and perhaps just a matter of the definition of the 'forever' time period.

I like to think my love to wifey is forever. ^_^

But anyway, this entry is about a solid object, not some emotion, feeling, or state of affair.

Got a black screen out of the sudden when I was using my gaming machine, a.k.a. home computer, a few days ago. My rudimentary debugging led me to believe the graphics card is the culprit. I was hoping it's the driver, and definitely hoping it's not the mother board or PCIe slot. 

My other computer in the house is a NUC, so I cannot test the graphics card in it to double check. Anyone willing to plug in a Sapphire Radeon Toxic R9 270X 2GB in their rig to double check for me? =)

Is it just me, or are things nowadays don't last as long as they used to? The graphics card was brand new when I built my gaming machine in 2014, so it lasted slightly shy of five years.

Gaming machine without a discrete graphics card is just... not a gaming machine!

That said, financial situation is at all time low, with way too many big expenses recently. I am definitely feeling the pinch.

And shameful to say as a self-proclaimed avid gamer, that I simply haven't been gaming all the regularly lately. No time, and no heart. I had to set a resolution for myself to play game, what has become of me?!?

Bottom line is that I cannot justify getting an expensive replacement, so I opted for the budget entry level graphics card at the moment: Gigabyte GeForce GTX 1050Ti 4GB.

Finance minister and Purchasing Officer, a.k.a. wifey, helped me to grab the card online at midnight earlier, when the 11th of November sales started.

Until it arrives, I am using onboard graphics. Good grief!

Other |temperamental thoughts| category entries.