15 April 2017

System hang


Last major chapter: Literature Review.

Tried a few times today, same outcome: brain went blank.

Why is this such a huge road block?

I read, and read, and read some more. My own work, and also the references.

But nothing registered, the brain just stop working.

Like my congnitive system just hung, froze.

Bollocks.



Other |runaway rants| category entries.


12 April 2017

天马行空:虾米·虾仙


这篇文章纯属虚构,如有雷同,纯属你比我更丰富的想象力。所以乖啦,不要想太多,看了笑笑就好…


曾经,本小姐是高高在上的虾仙,笑看那些凡人每天需要浪费时间来进餐。

仙,是不需要进食的只需要看靓仔

但生活太 dry 了,所以竟然下了凡变成了虾米。

唉,真是的。

下了凡只好进食咯,但常一起吃饭的那一群猪朋狗友没一个好看的,唯一一个颜值高的又离开了。

真的是造化弄人,每天没有滋润,继续 dry 下去。

猪朋狗友还算有义气,不时会带些小鲜肉来给我爽下。

最近又带了位小鲜肉,看起来「啵啵脆」很美味,让我顿时非常的有精神!

早就应该这样嘛,让我天天有滋润,不再很 dry 。

说不定我天天受润就可以变回虾仙咯…

让我暂时变成另一种虾仙吧!

「仙」小鲜肉的「仙」,呵呵!



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07 April 2017

Facade


Written communication, unlike face to face verbal communication, is relatively emotionless, feelingless. One cannot tell the tone from just the words, hence the many smileys and emoticons to help establish the mood.

One can hide his or her true emotion and mood behind chosen words and emoticons, projecting a tone that differs to what he or she is actually feeling.

Like writing a polite e-mail to complain about a lousy service when you really just want to swear out loud.

Thinking about it, even in verbal communication we talk differently to different people. In daily interaction we show different sides of ourselves based on the people we are dealing with, the context and situation.

Sometimes we have to adopt different personality, put on a different mask, project a different image, based on what we perceived is suitable and socially acceptable.

Or simply to hide our true feelings and emotions.


It's another tiring and frustrating work day today, I got home in a down and negative mood.

Usually when I am in this kind of mood I cease social communication, as I don't want to trouble the others with my negative energy.

But something I saw on my way home made me posted in a WhatsApp group as soon as I got home, something that continues a running joke I started yesterday, so I thought I should share.

What I realised today, is that while I could be projecting a cheery and cheeky facade in one WhatsApp chat, I could also be baring my rubbish mood in another chat, at the same time.

Feel as if I have a split personality.

I guess it's because of the people. Perhaps I just don't want to be fake to close friend.



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06 April 2017

心的频道:需要正能量


最近,很多很不顺心顺意的事。

觉得自己的负能量太多太多了。

不喜欢这样的自己。

以前总是可以保持乐观,让自己充满正能量的。

现在怎么不行了?

如果可以像汽车加油那样添加自己的正能量该有多好…

我要开心,我要快乐。

可以吗?



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02 April 2017

Random behaviour for April 2017


Learned exactly two new songs in March, so I succeeded in my March's impromptu resolution. 

Don't really fell good about it though, because when I set the resolution, I had four songs that I like to learn, and only managed two. More importantly, one of the songs I learned was a duet, and we had a karaoke session in March, and I totally ruined the song. feel good -1

Aiiiiih...


Anyway, while I have finished my antibiotic course and recovered from my sore throat and cold, the coughing never ceases, and my health has been poor lately so...

For April 2017, starting after I post this, my impromptu resolution is: no cold drinks.

Because I can.



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01 April 2017

Fool's dream


Happy April Fools' Day everyone!

When I checked my work e-mail this morning, I was half hoping to get an official e-mail telling me that the 2016 performance review has been an elaborated April Fools' Day prank.

That the company actually values my contribution last year, that I am actually going to get an average or above average salary increment, and that I will be getting a performance bonus target as well.

Oh, and with share options that shows they see potential in me and wants to retain me. Since, you know, I survived all the shits they threw me into.

Yea, something like that.

No dice, of course, but one can dream.



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31 March 2017

不悦


这几天,不开心。

睡得很不好,所以总是没有精神,很累。

身体也不行,种种问题。

咳不停、轻微肚泻、腰背部也不知为何突然旧伤复发。

通常都是打球才会弄伤的,但我都已经两个星期没有运动了…

站、坐、躺都不是,搞到人很不爽咯。

那很久没有联络的大学教授突然来了封电邮,每每讲到有关那我觉得自己很失败的学位就会激发我的忧郁症。

唉…

被逼换了部门后对工作都已经不是很满意了,再拿了那有史以来最烂的加薪后就更没有劲。

今天又来一件事让我更「度烂」。

和老板同级的同事转寄了封电邮给我,是上星期开始一大堆人就在做的事。

一直没有解决所以昨天已经投诉到更高层的上司去了。

那老板同级的同事到了今天才把我拉进那事件,说是我工作范围的事,要我今天去另一个工厂解决它。

他很理所当然的叫我放下我正做着的一切,马上去把他这件事解决先。

干!我这廉价劳工到底有多少个老板的?

我那真的老板、那没有帮我争取多点加薪、给了我至今最烂的加薪的老板,没有意外的一点反抗都没有,任由我给他人摆布。

我写了封我觉得很客气的回应说我会今天过去,尽我的能力去解决它。(根本都不知道要做什么…)

顺便再次提醒他们(好几个老板级的人)我提了很多次不要没有给我们适当的训练和知识就把我们丢进“战场”。

我也列出我至今获得的那一丁点训练,和还严重缺乏的那一大堆。

当然除了让我发泄下以外是没有任何屁用的,这一班不能依靠的人。

幸好工厂里的同事很讲义气,和我一起做,也顺便教我点点滴滴。

我应该协助帮忙解决他们的问题的“客人”,反而比我知道的还多,反而反过来教我。

失败。

都已经讲了那么多次了,这些经理级的,真的失败。

超级(失)败。


唉… 真的需要开心、需要快乐。



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