Bothered

Honestly, climbing the career ladder is not my thing.

My job satisfaction doesn't come from the position I hold in the company, or my grade level.

Ultimately I work for the money, feeding the family is my top priority and responsibility. So high salary is always a good thing, no denying that.

In my company, the salary ceiling is tied to the grade level, so unfortunately upon reaching the ceiling, the only progression is to get a promotion to the next grade level.

Naturally, higher grade comes with higher expectation and responsibilities. That's not conducive to my wellbeing given that I already feel being stretched so thin, I am not sure I have more capacity to give.

Anyway, this entry is not about me getting a promotion. Like I said, I don't care about the grade, I just want the salary. This entry is actually about a sudden realisation that hit me when I checked my payslip for July.

Received the latest patent award money in July's payslip, that's a happy thing. Not quite sure why the amount seemed to differ from previous awards but I am not complaining.

And then it suddenly hit me, in my 18 years career with the company thus far, I have more patent awards than I have promotions. It feels... strange.

Don't get me wrong, I only have a few patents to my name, nothing like the impressive numbers my colleagues achieved, so that makes my number of promotions seem even more pathetic.

I shouldn't be bothered, but I am.

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