Ball curse

I think I am cursed.

As far as I can remember, whenever I play a hand ball sports, for example, basketball, volleyball, captain ball, dodgeball, any ball sports that uses the hands in direct contact with the ball, my finger or fingers would get hurt.

Without fail. Like clockwork.

>_<

What kind of curse is this?

Even though I found out just how unfit I am nowadays, and my left pinky is like a bloated sausage now, I thoroughly enjoyed the captain ball game today. ^_^

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命

为什么，一直都只追求简单的生活、简单的快乐，但生活却偏偏变复杂、烦恼重重？

唉，我这命…

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Diablo Immortal, eleven weeks in

Have been playing Diablo Immortal since it arrived for Asia Pacific, slightly more than eleven weeks ago.

Many call it a 'pay to win' game, I have no dispute there. It's just that I belatedly realised it's not simply 'pay to win', because it's more like 'pay to get a chance to win'.

It's still down to random number generator, so it's luck. It's gamble.

Those who sunk a lot of money in do get to see the power gap between them and those who choose to play free. It's a whitewash most apparent in PvP content.

So in other words, it sucks for those who choose 'free to play' in those content, because skill matters little. Them 'pay to win' whales will just steamroll the 'free to play' players.

I was about to stop playing my first character and be done with the dull daily grind that achieve very little in progression when I was recruited into an active clan that eventually became the Immortal. That brought some new contents for me to experience and kept me playing the last few weeks.

But eventually the novelty wore off and it's the crappy grind all over again. I am not surprise at all that so many people quit, it's very apparent from the clan membership.

I have started another character simply because I like to play all the classes from scratch, but I am not sure if I can bear the dreadful grind over and over again.

Game with this kind of business model is not for me.

Comparatively, Diablo III season 27 has started and even though I pretty much only play Diablo III once or twice in the weekend, I have made meaningful and tangible progress on the season journal. I am already more than half way through! That kind of grind is a lot more satisfying and fulfilling.

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Rubber duck squeak

The previous hamster, Snowball, was deaf, so while not dumb, it seldom made any sound. Can count with one hand the number of times I heard it made any sound.

The current hamster, Cocoa, is neither deaf nor dumb, but it is rather quiet. It does squeak, just not often.

Still cannot tell whether it's a happy sound or a frustrated, angry sound when it squeaks. I am still amazed that tiny body can make such a sound.

It's not exactly like, but the first thing that comes to my mind every time Cocoa squeaks is the rubber duck sound.

Don't really know how else to describe it.

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Win?

I didn't worked during the four days break, which usually is a win in my book.

Perhaps I should say I didn't do any actual productive work during the break, because I did turned on the laptop and tried to get some work done. I just didn't managed to get any actual work done.

Tried the first two days, but I lack the energy and the mood, the depression is hitting hard this round. I didn't even bothered trying on the last two days.

I know I will be stressed when I resume work, I will not be able to deliver since not having anything done in the four days break, but I am just... down.

The sense of lethargy, the lack of energy and enthusiasm, the constant low mood.

I am definitely not feeling well.

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Drama

My elder son is an egocentric person. The world is supposed to revolve around him and everyone and everything should follow and bend to his wants and whims. He is a drama king as well, exaggerates and magnifies things out of proportion.

Unfortunately, his sense of responsibility and time management skill need a lot of improvement, but being egocentric, he thinks he is perfect so there is no real effort to change.

He has rather short fuse too, and lacks anger management. In anger, he can say seriously nasty and hurtful things. And he shouts a lot.

My wifey loves to watch drama, primarily Korean and Chinese dramas lately, she can go through them incredibly fast. Being a mother, naturally she cares about her children, and their shortcomings grated her. Her fuse is not very long and her voice volume is not low.

The attitude and behaviour of my elder son often causes blood to boil, resulting in heated drama between him and his mother. To be honest, I often feel like slapping some sense into him.

Anyway, I was woken up by the shouting match downstairs this morning. Another drama, one of the many reoccurrences. At times it feels like it's a daily thing, often it's a few dramas in a day.

This will not change until someone changes, either the son starts to behave, or we no longer care about him.

So my simple, quiet and peaceful life is ever eluding. Instead, I get these dramas.

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累

这几天，生活只有累。

就是累。

身躯、精神、心灵、思维，由内到外都是累。

低能量、低情绪、低睡眠素质、低精力。

整个人都感觉不好，唉…

好累。

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