Intentional and unintentional

Worked overtime yesterday (Saturday) for about three hours. That was intentional, a planned overtime.

New issue popped up while I am still working on two different projects, bandwidth is tight now. Wanted to give myself some buffer in the coming week, as I am going to take a half day leave to service the car, hence decided to get some work done yesterday.

The plan was to just work on Saturday and at least have a one day break on Sunday. Unfortunately I missed an important step when setting up one of the three thermal simulations to run yesterday, and I only realised it when I was washing the car this morning.

Funny how it just popped into my head when I was washing the car, a true "bollocks!" instance since I knew then I had to get it fixed today, else it defeats the whole buying myself some buffer next week initiative.

So I resigned to the unintentional overtime today, and since there are some downtime when meshing a model before I can set it to run, I ended up utilising the downtime post-processing one of the solved cases from yesterday, and set a new one to run after that.

So there is a net gain of one extra case compared to the initial plan, but I ended up working overtime on both Saturday and Sunday.

Oh well.

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时间不够用

要做的事很多，希望可以达到的目标也不少。

但现实和梦想是有差距的。

时间有限 、精神有限 、体力有限。

人生不能倒带，无法重来。过去的时光再也拿不回来。

可以现在就开始起步，但岁月依旧不留人，五十岁的起步就是五十岁的起步，怎么都不会是四十岁的起步，或三十岁的起步，或二十岁的起步…

在生命结束的时限前，开始的时间点，决定了可有效执行、用来达到目标的时间长度。冥冥中注定的生命数额，不会因为迟了起步而改变。

总觉得我离生命的终点不远了，但还是没有能够退休的能力和条件。

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Sunday ruined

Wifey went out early morning and was gone most of the day for some charity event, back late in the afternoon, around 16:00 hours.

So the rest of us went out for lunch, with a grumpy elder son in tow. Grumpy because he was woken up close to noon, when pappi could wait no longer. Also grumpy because he didn't want to go have lunch at all, prefer to stay at home glued to his mobile phone.

First thing after he wakes up, and last thing before he goes to sleep, and pretty much most of the time in between. He is a true addict.

Anyway, started to get the information ready for my tax refund after lunch, still not done by the time I need to send the younger son to tuition. Enough tax stuff for the day anyway, always make me imbalanced when seeing how much the government has taken from me. Probably will get the rest done next weekend, this is the slacker way.

Wifey was already home when I got back from my chauffeur duty. Decided I should enjoy my Sunday so turned on the computer for entertainment purposes, but had to stop 20 minutes into a variety show, because the headache had built up to unbearable level.

So it's zombie in the bed till dinner time. Tried to continue the variety show after dinner but still suffering from the headache lingering after effect, and feels like the headache is building back up...

So ya, my Sunday thus far is just meh! And it doesn't seemed like it's going to be better.

=(

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命

昨天和朋友聚会晚餐，是同事朋友，那些有一起外出吃午餐、一起打球玩桌上游戏、一起唱歌游乐的死党。

是的，反社交的我竟然会做这样的事。只能说，要看是和谁。

其实昨天我的状况不是很好，工作到午餐后已经累了，但幸好没有开始头疼的程度。状况不佳，但也不是太差，还可以享受和同事朋友的聚会。

我们就四人，我觉得很好。四、五位是我个人觉得最佳的数目，再多就不会是一起交谈了。要么就距离远听不到，要么就会变成两组人的聊天，而不是大家的交流。

食物不错，但那不是重点，那只是相聚的藉口。我们边吃边聊了三个小时多一点点，很开心他们都好好的。

唯一令我有点沮丧的是谈到公积金这话题，我真的是太迟才开始工作了，加上是家里唯一的收入来源，财务状况真的很不乐观。退休后和情人老婆仔的生活费用是让我很懊恼的一件事。

也在交谈中，和回到家后赶紧查询对证，才惊觉由于公司组织架构，我的团队不是我以为的组织架构下的。而我的薪水上下限，是跟这有关的，唉…

需要高一层的薪水，而且是要几年前就是，才能在退休时达到一个还可以的公积金数额。我既不是那个级别，也已超过了年龄临界点，真的很糟糕。

要加薪就要升级，升级是有条件和代价的。我觉得自己是有能力再升一级的，但我也非常了解我自己，如果我在现在的等级已经为了达到自己的要求水准已经做得那么累了，再上一级后我不堪设想。

为了退休后有钱可以过活，而赌上自己现在的健康和生命… 可能，根本就活不到退休。

唉，这就是命。

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有感而发：神经很大条

我是神经病。是，我就是，没有否认过。

没差，这让我很自然、没有违和感、没有纠结不安的接上男神…精病。

不表示很多人叫我男神啦，呵呵！=P

但我这神经病，跟那自大国的疯子总统相比下，根本就微不足道，连个影都没有。

我不喜欢历史，因为我有金鱼记忆力，但连我都知道历史里有很多事故告诫我们不要让疯子拥有权力的地位，那会肇祸人群。

偏偏自大国里就有那么多都不知道也是精神有问题、还是就是那么智障的人民，把那彻头彻尾活在自大妄想自我良好世界里的自恋狂唐老鸭选做总统。

真的不会觉得羞耻的吗？

天知道我对自己国家那某些废材领袖做的那些无脑事件感到多耻辱，那丢脸丢到外国去，巴不得每个人都知道我从来没有投给那些白痴的感觉。

给自大狂人那么大的权力，可以左右整个世界经济的权力，就是等着灾难的发生。有点智慧逻辑可能还好点，偏偏是一个白痴卡通人物，经典的卡通或电影里那些不讲理、没有廉耻的恶棍。

谢谢你们哦，自大国人，我很努力的例行感恩心态。真的勾叉零蛋三角形！

我有忧郁症，忧郁症是精神病的一种。所以是的，我精神有问题。

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Revisiting Sword Coast

Back in 2018, I reinstalled Baldur's Gate I and its expansion the Tales of the Sword Coast, intended to finally complete the expansion areas and get my character ready for Baldur's Gate II.

Let us just say that I still haven't played Baldur's Gate II: Shadows of Amn and its expansion Throne of Bhaal, game that I bought like some twenty years ago. slacker point +1

What I remember is that I have made it to Baldur's Gate, my last save was just before I enter the city. My plan was to follow the main storyline to level up my characters, then to explore all the Tales of the Sword Coast quests and areas, then only go finish off the last boss to properly end Baldur's Gate I.

This blog entry in 2019 confirmed my goldfish memory is right for once. However, when I loaded my saved game, my party was not in front of Baldur's Gate, but in the wilderness in between Beregost and Nashkel. At least the journal says I am in chapter 5.

Probably didn't save the last saved game files (changed computer since), or perhaps this is indeed the latest progress because my main character is a human thief (with stats to dual class to mage) and no longer the half elf mage/thief multiclass.

Anyway, so ya, questing in Sword Coast once again. One can always hope that this time will be the time that I finally complete the Tales of the Sword Coast, and am ready for Baldur's Gate II.

Slacker time applies, as always.

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有感而发：情感投入（又又）

刚看完了一个叫 Offline Love （线下恋爱 / 离线找真爱）的日本恋爱综艺节目。

不曾相识的五男五女，各自分散在法国一个美丽的城市里，在没有手机、网络和电子设备的情况下，靠缘分和手写信件来相约、相见。

节目组有提供一本类似旅游指南的书本给每位出演者，一直到第三天晚上全员被召集一同共进晚餐之前，出演者都是靠认出那本指南书来确认其它出演者的。

要相见要么就是靠缘分，要么就是手写信件写下日期、时间、地点，投入其它出演者的邮箱里，希望对方会及时收看到，和会应约。然后就是耐心等待。

我还是第一次看日本综艺。单纯由这出恋综给我的感觉是，相比韩国人，日本人比较有礼貌、比较会提他人着想、和比较真挚。

喜欢没有手机、完全离线、靠缘分、靠书信、提前规划的主题。喜欢出演者不同的个性，有酷酷的、可爱的、活跃的、内向的…

为两情相悦、双向奔赴的男女感到喜悦，感觉甜甜暖暖的。也为单恋的男女出演者感到心酸惋惜。感谢他们的真情流露，我又被情感带入，体验了那些情绪感觉。

期待下一个真诚好看的恋爱综艺节目，让我又又又情感投入。^_^

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