08 April 2018

凌乱错杂


心境凌乱不堪,思维交错混杂。

无法集中,坐立不安。

昨天在买机票的最后一个步骤打了个电话给爸比,他叫我不要去。

我听了,没有去。

要去,就只为万一。

我现在想,究竟是为了自己,还是为了妈咪?

为了若是万一我可以在场?

为了自己可以在若是万一前再见见妈咪,和她讲讲话?

有老年痴呆症的她,会知道我是谁吗?

她还会有清醒的时刻吗?

是不是应该给爸比私人的空间,独处的时间?

若是万一,善后的工作我比较能够贡献吧?

若是万一,过后关注爸比比较重要吧?

很多的犹豫、不确定。

总是想起同事朋友讲的那句:“不要留下后悔遗憾。”

唯一昨天没有去的好,就是我可以明天一早去银行处理妈咪为了万一和我联名的户口。

应该会在处理了那后才飞过去。

妈咪,我爱你。



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07 April 2018

Mommi, I love you


Mommi, I love you.

You know that, right?



Are you ready?


Am I ready?

Will I ever be ready?



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03 April 2018

有感而发:纳闷


二零一八年四月三日。

三个月换了三次的工作范围,还没有学会胜任一样管理层又改变主意了。

浪费时间精力学到半生不熟的知识技能,没什么屁用就已要改行。

废。

管理层的策划能力有够废。

自己又没有换工所以也是废。


最新的这工作范围有够旷。

就这样要我从零开始接过、什么都不懂的情况去应付名单里有接近九十人的工作。

废。


每天都有那胸口发闷,呼吸不顺畅的感觉。

整个人都不好了。

真的会短命。



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31 March 2018

Google Translate vs my translation


Last week I posted a Mandarin entry about my attitude towards work.

It's one of the entries I felt like linking to in my Facebook account (no, I don't link all my entries in Facebook), it got some responses and comments, but what surprised me most was that I got a reaction from my Indian colleague.

Turns out that he used Google Translate to view my Mandarin entry, and I was curious enough to try it out to see just how well my entry got translated.

Well... close but no cookie. It misses some marks and got one completely opposite of what I wrote.

Since Chinese and English have different structure, it's probably not wise to translate verbatim. At least I won't write the same entry in the same structure if I were to write it in English.

Anyway, below's what I got from Google Translate and my corrections to make it reflects my original meaning.





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29 March 2018

臭屁


我有清除即时通讯记录的习惯,每晚关机前整理要保留的讯息然后就清除其它的。

只保留觉得重要或有意义的讯息,一直留到我传送到电脑有个后备了才从手机记忆里清除。

今天清除即时通讯记录后发现这阵子保留下来的很多是自己写的嘞…

原来自己是这么臭屁的,呵呵! =P

以下是一些被我保留下来,华文的讯息(英文的比较多)。

去年十月间我说:

生活不缺烦恼,没必要为难自己。

要懂得网上多数是照骗和强大的乔装(化妆的加强版)后的假容颜哦,不要这么天真哦…

今天当同事朋友说老板的老板发送的电子邮件里说工厂的同事称赞感谢我们的努力和付出,其中一项几乎是我单枪匹马承担的功绩时,我说:

全都是屁,噗一声就过去,给我加薪比较有意义。

哎哟,不错哦,有押韵哦! =D

我真的很臭屁,哈哈哈! =P



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27 March 2018

Escaped


I have been with the same department since I joined the company eleven years ago.

Been through a few reorganisations, group name changes, and reported under different managers.

The job scope has changed throughout the years, not unexpected, but it's also gradually removing me from my initial role the company hired me for, one that utilises my strength and passion.

I have nothing against widening my horizon, learning new skill sets, keeping myself competitive. As long as my core strength is still the centre of my job scope.

Sadly with the latest reorganisation it's not. It's more like something taken for granted by the management nowadays. It has become the additional stuff they expect me to do while piling me with other things that has little to no relation to my core strength, but which they would gauge my performance upon.

So yea, it got to a point that I updated my resume and handed it in to another department, and went for the face to face meet up.

I didn't get a job offer, as there was none to offer at that time. I doubt I would accept it if offered anyway after learning more about the job scope. No point getting out from a shit pool just to get into another shit pool.

At least the old shit pool has familiar faces. =P

Anyway, I am not the only one who felt so with the latest reorganisation, and a colleague friend in the same group, someone who is among the first few people I met when I first joined the company all those years ago, was in the same situation.

And he got out! He got an offer from another department and he is moving out of the group in a few days.

I am sincerely happy for him, for escaping this shit pool, and I admire his courage.

All the best to him and hope we will still be as we are after the move. Don't be a stranger.



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25 March 2018

有感而发:只为钱


二零一八年三月二十五日。

工作真的就是为了赚钱养家。

不要爱上公司,因为公司绝对不爱你。

经理上司管理层说的东西,听听就好,随时都可以变的。

脚踏实地的完成份内的工作,能力允许就尽量帮帮同事,保持人脉。

确保自己一直有竞争力,有价值,才不会被淘汰。

一步一脚印。

替人打工,又是外国人的公司,难免会接烂摊子。

埋怨归埋怨,私底下就好,工还是要尽能力做到最好。

那是对自己人品的交代,自己的责任感和工作的质量不要被别人左右。

能够在工作中找到快乐,你很幸运,不能也没关系。

记得,工作始终是为了钱。

快乐可以工作以外找,毕竟公司请你不是为了你的快乐。



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