存在感

常觉得，我，是独自的存在。

是同住在一个家里的陌生人。

只是需要我每个月赚钱养家，其它的我可以不存在。

反正也没有人在乎我说的、想的、在乎的，和我的存在。

话，说了也是白讲，和自言自语没有什么差别，都只有我自己听。

我的存在和不存在，对家里的其他人来说没有什么差异。应该就是要费点力忽略漠视和什么都不必做的不同。

是的，我就是这么没有存在感的存在着。

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I went out (11)

Since the previous entry of this series, I was out of the house ten times, so my total out of the house count stands at 63 as of today.

54th outing: went out to do chauffeur duty for kid's archery practise on 20th of March.

55th outing: went out to do chauffeur duty for kid's archery practise on 21st of March.

56th outing: went to office on 26th of March primarily to use up the meal subsidy, called into two meetings while there. Took the opportunity to buy lunch home from Batu Lanchang market.

57th outing: went out to do chauffeur duty for kid's archery practise on 27th of March.

58th outing: went to office on 1st of April to work in the lab.

59th outing: went out to do chauffeur duty for kid's archery practise on 11th of April.

60th outing: went out on 18th of April to takeaway dinner and to drive the car around for a bit to keep the battery healthy.

61st outing: went out to do chauffeur duty for kid's archery practise on 24th of April.

62nd outing: went out on 9th of May to drive the car around for a bit to keep the battery healthy.

63rd outing: went out on 26th of May, intended to drive the car around to keep the battery healthy, but the battery was already flat. Bollocks. Jump-started the car and proceeded to drive around, took the opportunity to buy lunch home.

Guess my plan of a drive every fortnight to keep the car battery healthy is not working, probably because I tend to slip and ended up driving closer to once every three weeks instead of two... Have to shorten the time in between drives and be vigilant about it.

Anyway, as of 26th of May 2021, 436 days have past since the beginning of Movement Control Order on 18th of March in 2020. I have been out of the house 63 times in 62 weeks, so 1.02 times per week on average, or about once every 6.9 days.

Here are the main reasons I went out:
- drive around to keep car battery healthy: 11
- work at office: 22
- bank: 1
- grocery: 1
- pick up takeaway meal: 9
- dine in restaurant: 1
- clinic: 2
- customer service: 1
- car service: 2
- pet shop: 1
- chauffeur duty: 10
- law firm: 2

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蟒蛇射箭

公司有免费的课程给员工的孩子学些简单的 Python 程式设计，我为孩子报了名。

过去的五个星期天，两个瓜都有上这 Python 程式设计的网课，应该是算有兴趣吧。

这星期天将会是最后一堂课了，老师给了学生们一份功课，要他们这星期天呈现他们设计的一个程式，主要是要看他们学到了些什么。

因为需要通知老师程式设计的题目，我便问大瓜他的计划，他说他要写个骰子的程式。

我问他会不会太简单了点？提议他想想怎么用那骰子的数字做些有趣的东西，可以互动的东西。看他不是很有兴致，我就自己想了想。

整理了思维后我建议他把骰子那随机的概念放进简单的游戏里，用他熟悉的射箭场景做游戏的背景。

三支箭，在随机的风向情况下，让玩家选择要瞄准的方向，风向和射箭方向的各种配合会有不同的得分，得分也是在适合的范围内随机选择。

把概念和基本程式设计的逻辑告诉他后，他觉得可行便开始设计他的程式。我也纯粹好奇看了看那些网课的资料，下载了课程用的软件开始设计那个射箭的游戏。

结果一个不小心就完成了，还真的有点意外，和佩服自己，呵呵！毕竟我就是看了看那些教材自学，和上网搜了搜教材里没有解释的而已。可能网课里有解释啦，不过我没有陪着他们一起上网课嘛。

哎哟，不错哦！一个晚上那几个小时就完成了一个简单的程式设计游戏，蛮有成就感的。

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Flying Snowball

After months of not biting me, something the younger son was rather jealous of, Snowball did it again a few nights ago.

Well, Snowball still tries to bite me when he's in a bitey mood, but usually after I dodged his attempt once or twice he would resign to just running away to hide, while I try to caress him.

When he's in a good mood though, he would stay still and let me caress his head, which he enjoys. Well, I assume he enjoys it since he would close his eyes as if he's content.

Anyway, the night he bit me, he drew blood and by natural reaction I withdrew my hand. His teeth were in deep so ended up he hung on to my finger for a while before he let go, causing him to go flying from the momentum of my hand withdrawal.

This time he didn't landed on the shaving of either of his containers, no soft landing on shaving but a hard landing on the floor tile, with an alarming flesh hitting floor sound.

Hamsters must be tough animal, because that 1 to 1.5 metres in height drop didn't do any apparent damage, but did gave Snowball a shock and he immediately played dead.

Good thing he played dead, because he was on the floor, unbounded territory, and hamster can run very fast.

I quickly got wifey to help while I put up cardboard fences surrounding him. When he stopped playing dead, which was always shortly after he starts playing dead since he is deaf and can't see very well and thinks the coast is clear, wifey managed to get him into a milk bottle we regularly use to relocate him, and he was back in his containers roaming happily like nothing had happened.

So ya, Snowball went flying again, his highest thus far.

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梦醒五更

已经连续很多天，我都会在夜深人静时突然醒来，搞到睡眠质量很差。

留意了几天，总是在深夜过去黎明来临前的那寅时五更时段醒来。

不知道是什么原因？是否是身体健康有了什么问题的现象？

睡眠质量不好，精神就差了。好累。

能不能，就让我一觉到天明？

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1 out of 70

Malaysia current population is 32776194 according to this website when I checked a few minutes ago.

Official report today says the accumulative total number of people in Malaysia infected by Covid-19 since the outbreak is 466330.

That is 1.42 percent of the population, which is 1 in 70 people in Malaysia has been infected.

The virus relies primarily on human to spread, and the unruly human is doing exactly that.

Honestly people, curb your whim, have some self discipline, don't go out unless absolutely necessary.

Just stay home. Just do it.

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用屁股想

我国新冠肺炎每天的新病例已经逼近五千宗。

真的，没有最高，只有更高。

为什么会这么糟糕？因为有超无能的后门政府，和超鸡歪的智障群。

用屁股想都知道是什么导致如今的局面，根本不应该允许的事让它进行了这么久，新病例翻倍爆发了，才姗姗来迟的禁止。

是的，我们都知道这次最大的祸首是什么，但在大马你如实的说出来分分钟就会被煽动法令关进监牢。

昨天我在天台看出去，那些管它什么不准放鞭炮，斋戒期已经放了一个月，而且是凌晨十二点才开始放到两三点那纯粹为了打扰别人睡眠的废民，成群结队不带口罩，没有遵守人与人该保持的距离，从一家去到另一家拜访，肩并肩拍大合照。

是的，无能的后门政府，加上这些智障，疫情不糟糕都很难。

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Let it rain

Rained heavily in the afternoon.

Too soon. That's my immediate thought.

Will do a lot of good if it rains heavily closer to midnight, and all night through.

Then rain throughout the long weekend, heavy enough to give those who want to go out second thought.

Goodness know the damage these people have already done to the pandemic situation.

If the rain cannot stop them going out to mingle, then please make them as inconvenient and as miserable as possible. Soak them through, hopefully that will wake them up.

Yes, let it rain.

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有感而发：无知·愚蠢

二零二一年五月九日。

大马新冠肺炎疫情会变得这么糟糕，无能的后门政府是一个大因素，另一个就是那些智障的人。

绝不是无知，而是明知故犯。那些自私、没有自律、侥幸心态的人的放肆。

那样的人要玩命，我绝对没有意见，毕竟死了或许是他们对社会最大的贡献，帮助提高人类的智商水平。

但他们玩命会危害其他的人，那我就非常有意见！你要死请自便，但请不要危害和拖累其他人。

这些人不是无知，而是自私的选择放肆，害己害人。除了没有自律，绝对是没有责任感的人，是社会的累赘、祸害。

后门政府无能，人民就更应该要懂得自保，而不是自行增加危害。这么简单的道理，都不能理喻吗？

不是无知，只是用他们选择明知故犯、害己害人的行动来表现他们的愚蠢、的智障。

世界上少了这些人，会变得更美好。

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Geek +1

Got to try a new game today: Kingdom Builder.

Kingdom Builder is a board game on my wish list that didn't get realized since tabletop gaming sessions ended for me when I switched department.

With TTG 2.0, a lot of games are now available to choose from, and I didn't waste any time to pick Kingdom Builder. =)

I enjoyed the game play, it's a strategy game with a bit of luck factor and a lot of replayability given the number of mix and match maps and game objectives. Player interaction is inevitable as the players expand their kingdom and try to hinder each other.

The play duration is about an hour for a four players virgin game, most likely shorter when we are all familiar with the game.

Definitely a game that I will play again.

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命贱如我

过去的星期六是五一劳动节，公司昨天补假。

我今天也拿了假，凑成四天长假。

然后这四天假期，每天起身后就是先工作…

命贱，但也很无奈，毕竟老板要我星期四交上报告，若我星期三复工才开始做，是肯定无法及时完成的。

我又还有什么选择？

安慰自己，至少，我午餐后是有半天假的…

真的很命贱。

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