29 April 2017

Backlogs #17: Evil people


These are dated 12th of August 2013, they are screenshots from WhatsApp conversation, they are titled "evil people".

There was bad traffic on my homebound route on that day, I was hoping it would clear by the time I finish badminton, and my colleague friends said...



Evil person has evil friends, guess I deserve it. >_<



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25 April 2017

心的频道:如果…


如果我还有头发,这几天的煎熬应该也把它们掉光了。

不然就是被我自己抓狂时拔光了。

我承认,我就是容易焦虑,我就是弱于纾解压力。

我就是这么差的咯…

至少我知道自己的弱点。


如果我不是那么完美主义,这苦差应该结束了吧?

如果我只是抱着“可以交货就好”的心态,应该写完了吧?

过不了自己那一关:我的作品一定要是好质量的。

要做,就尽全力去做嘛…

就是这样啦,做到自己这么痛苦。


如果我聪明点、优秀点,应该会更有效率点吧?

多希望自己可以一看就明白,马上可以很顺畅流利的用自己的方式写出来。

可惜我不是咯…

一个字:差!

唉…


如果我多年前没有开始追求这学位,现在究竟会是怎样的呢?

如果早点承认自己不是「有料」的人,生活会快乐点吧?



心的频道 |系列|


24 April 2017

嘟!


拿假两天,加周末,加公假一天,一共五天来完成我的论文。

那拖了太久的太久的太久的论文。(重要的东西要重复三次)

那从博士学位变成硕士学位的论文。

最后的一个章节,最讨厌的章节:文学评论。

写自己做的东西已经要花那么大的劲了,写别人做的东西真的是…

超级非常十分的讨厌!


今天已是五天的第三天,进展非常的非常的非常慢。

勾叉零蛋三角形!

很想死的感觉。

第一天花在明白自己之前写了些什么(*嘟*!我到底写了什么啦?看得头昏脑胀…);看一些其他人的论文,看他们怎么写这章节;和一大堆的头疼和咒骂。


第二天把资料挖了出来整理,但还没有什么头绪就需要陪太子做功课,因为那瓜又和他母亲闹翻了。

老婆仔下午去出席会员大会,所以我看家和教大瓜做功课(他实在是超级慢和不专心)。午餐和晚餐间断断续续看完《奔跑吧》,这期不错哦。

晚餐后两个瓜去睡了才真的有可以专心的时间,快速翻阅资料,整理出需要的、重要的、和可以不用到的。

开始认真看和了解有关的资料。凌晨时分我又是一大堆的头疼和咒骂,*嘟嘟嘟*!


第三天是热醒的,因为停电了。

消息灵通的老婆仔说是四脚蛇爬进电房里电死自己和烧坏一些不容易买到的零件,可能要明天才能修好。

天啊!不要这样玩我啦~ 没电我怎么写论文啊?我特地拿假来写论文的嘞…

勾叉零蛋四角形!

太累太烦太沮丧了,我瘫死床上。

终于起床后的早上我花在准备应付晚间的照明,和咒骂那四脚蛇和造化弄人上。

*嘟嘟嘟嘟嘟嘟嘟*!

午餐后两个瓜去武术练习,难得清静,我继续看文章和资料。

三点多,电源回复了!我莫名的感动。过后老婆仔告诉我是一位有人脉的邻居从北海买到需要的零件。

我赶紧把最新的论文保存在闪存盘里,若再停电我还可以用笔记本电脑继续写啊…

然后继续看文章和资料。

终于都有头绪该怎么写那章节了,只是有很多的资料需要看和明白先。

看到头昏脑胀时老婆仔和两个瓜回来了,已是晚餐时间。

晚餐后开始写些,改些。这资料里抄一抄,那资料里抄一抄。

凌晨时已是头重脚轻,和那少不了的咒骂…

所以我暂停来写这文章,换一换心境。

上载了这文章才继续努力和咒骂啦!

*嘟~~~*!



随兴随想 |系列|


20 April 2017

StarCraft is now free to play!


StarCraft, the real time strategy game by Blizzard, had been a part of my university life.

And now, after all these years, Blizzard released patch 1.18 and made the game free to play.

Yup, both StarCraft and the expansion Starcraft: Brood War are now free.

What are you waiting for? Go get it already!

I can still remember playing it with my flatmates. Good old time.

Even though I bought both the games, I just reinstalled using the free download instead of the discs.

Think I will go through the single player storyline again.



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16 April 2017

颓废天


今天,我自暴自弃。

睡醒就决定颓废,自甘堕落。

所以我一整天到现在都很认真的在发呆,浪费时间,和无所事事。

也不是真的无所事事啦,就是应该,但没有,把时间用在写论文上。

很任性的玩电脑游戏、看书、看《奔跑吧》、和呃… 发呆。

《奔跑吧兄弟》改名叫《奔跑吧》,换汤不换药。

我这 Running Man 的粉丝,虽然还是比较喜欢韩国原版,但对中国版也是支持的。

中国版换了女成员,韩国版这星期将会有两位新成员,希望新加入的不会破坏成员们的默契啦。

说回我的堕落颓废…

其实也没有什么好讲了,就是放弃了这周末可以完成论文,然后压抑着内疚任自己放纵咯。

写完这篇上载后应该是再玩些电脑游戏,或看一部电影。

继续颓废!



随兴随想 |系列|


15 April 2017

System hang


Last major chapter: Literature Review.

Tried a few times today, same outcome: brain went blank.

Why is this such a huge road block?

I read, and read, and read some more. My own work, and also the references.

But nothing registered, the brain just stop working.

Like my congnitive system just hung, froze.

Bollocks.



Other |runaway rants| category entries.


12 April 2017

天马行空:虾米·虾仙


这篇文章纯属虚构,如有雷同,纯属你比我更丰富的想象力。所以乖啦,不要想太多,看了笑笑就好…


曾经,本小姐是高高在上的虾仙,笑看那些凡人每天需要浪费时间来进餐。

仙,是不需要进食的只需要看靓仔

但生活太 dry 了,所以竟然下了凡变成了虾米。

唉,真是的。

下了凡只好进食咯,但常一起吃饭的那一群猪朋狗友没一个好看的,唯一一个颜值高的又离开了。

真的是造化弄人,每天没有滋润,继续 dry 下去。

猪朋狗友还算有义气,不时会带些小鲜肉来给我爽下。

最近又带了位小鲜肉,看起来「啵啵脆」很美味,让我顿时非常的有精神!

早就应该这样嘛,让我天天有滋润,不再很 dry 。

说不定我天天受润就可以变回虾仙咯…

让我暂时变成另一种虾仙吧!

「仙」小鲜肉的「仙」,呵呵!



天马行空 |系列|

  

07 April 2017

Facade


Written communication, unlike face to face verbal communication, is relatively emotionless, feelingless. One cannot tell the tone from just the words, hence the many smileys and emoticons to help establish the mood.

One can hide his or her true emotion and mood behind chosen words and emoticons, projecting a tone that differs to what he or she is actually feeling.

Like writing a polite e-mail to complain about a lousy service when you really just want to swear out loud.

Thinking about it, even in verbal communication we talk differently to different people. In daily interaction we show different sides of ourselves based on the people we are dealing with, the context and situation.

Sometimes we have to adopt different personality, put on a different mask, project a different image, based on what we perceived is suitable and socially acceptable.

Or simply to hide our true feelings and emotions.


It's another tiring and frustrating work day today, I got home in a down and negative mood.

Usually when I am in this kind of mood I cease social communication, as I don't want to trouble the others with my negative energy.

But something I saw on my way home made me posted in a WhatsApp group as soon as I got home, something that continues a running joke I started yesterday, so I thought I should share.

What I realised today, is that while I could be projecting a cheery and cheeky facade in one WhatsApp chat, I could also be baring my rubbish mood in another chat, at the same time.

Feel as if I have a split personality.

I guess it's because of the people. Perhaps I just don't want to be fake to close friend.



Other |sane side| category entries.


06 April 2017

心的频道:需要正能量


最近,很多很不顺心顺意的事。

觉得自己的负能量太多太多了。

不喜欢这样的自己。

以前总是可以保持乐观,让自己充满正能量的。

现在怎么不行了?

如果可以像汽车加油那样添加自己的正能量该有多好…

我要开心,我要快乐。

可以吗?



心的频道 |系列|


02 April 2017

Random behaviour for April 2017


Learned exactly two new songs in March, so I succeeded in my March's impromptu resolution. 

Don't really fell good about it though, because when I set the resolution, I had four songs that I like to learn, and only managed two. More importantly, one of the songs I learned was a duet, and we had a karaoke session in March, and I totally ruined the song. feel good -1

Aiiiiih...


Anyway, while I have finished my antibiotic course and recovered from my sore throat and cold, the coughing never ceases, and my health has been poor lately so...

For April 2017, starting after I post this, my impromptu resolution is: no cold drinks.

Because I can.



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01 April 2017

Fool's dream


Happy April Fools' Day everyone!

When I checked my work e-mail this morning, I was half hoping to get an official e-mail telling me that the 2016 performance review has been an elaborated April Fools' Day prank.

That the company actually values my contribution last year, that I am actually going to get an average or above average salary increment, and that I will be getting a performance bonus target as well.

Oh, and with share options that shows they see potential in me and wants to retain me. Since, you know, I survived all the shits they threw me into.

Yea, something like that.

No dice, of course, but one can dream.



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