New view counter

Since February, the view counter for this blog that I used for many years has gone haywire.

I was hoping it's just a temporary glitch that would be sorted out, but alas, it wasn't.

From early February to early April, it reported negative view count for about twenty days. So the counter is no longer reliable and the view count is totally messed up.

I finally decided I have given it enough time to sort itself out, and since it didn't, I ditched it and changed to another counter from websiteOut (thanks!) yesterday.

So the view count (daily unique visitor) for this year is screwed, I will have to start over with this year being the new baseline. Oh well.

Blogspot does have its own counter though, which I displayed at the bottom of the left menu labelled Total Pageviews. That's Blogspot internal counter and it shows a pretty large number so I guess that must be from the beginning of this blog and most likely is page view instead of daily unique visitor count.

Anyway, let's hope this new counter is reliable.

Other |hyped up heads up| category entries.

生活点滴：选择

煎鸡蛋加上点酱清和胡椒粉，夹在两片面包间，是我从小就吃到大的三文治。

今天早餐，情人老婆仔也是帮我准备了鸡蛋面包三文治，感恩。=)

只是齁，今天用的是那吃起来干巴巴又哽喉咙的麦芽面包。=(

人生短短几十年，何必为难自己吃这么 dry 的面包哦？

午餐后洗盘碗时，我问情人老婆仔：“婆仔，为什么你买健康但不好吃的面包？你知道我比较喜欢不健康但好吃的白面包的吗齁？”

情人老婆仔一往精简的回说：“知道，没有白的了。”

我：“哦…”

结束。都还没有把也喜欢白面包的小瓜拖下水，呵呵！

唉，只好吃几天这很 dry（但比较健康！）的麦芽面包咯…

生活点滴 |系列|

Record!

Not even April yet and I have already completed my tax refund. This has got to be a record for me.

Yes yes, I know there are kiasu people who completed it as soon as the e-filing tool is available and some who already got the refund banked in.

I am not one of those people, I am the slacker extraordinaire, so the norm for me is doing it on the last few days before the end date.

This so un-slacker-like behaviour is due to this being the first time I am filing tax refund with wifey having income, so we decided to try to see whether filing together as one or separately net us higher amount of refund.

Hands down filing separately for our case, by a big margin. Now we know.

And since I have completed the two versions, I just submitted the filed separately version and be done with it.

So ya, 'tax refund completion more than one month before end date' achievement unlocked! =P

Other |nutty nuts| category entries.

Insecurity

My work involves working with customer to design their system to the best possible within their constraints.

So when I am not assigned to any project that works with the customer, but only assigned to internal projects, naturally I have some misgivings.

Truth is I feel a lot more comfortable not working with customer, because of my introvert and antisocial personality.

But I am not paid a salary to be comfortable, and the team charter is to work with the customer.

So there is sense of unease and insecurity.

Is this the sign of being next in line for the chopping board? That I am going to get axed soon?

Time will tell, and for the time being all I can do is worry myself senselessly.

The anxiety is real.

Other |sane side| category entries.

心的频道：老古董

我有同性恋的朋友，算是谈得来的。也有同性恋的亲人，很亲的那种。

我觉得有点奇怪的是，都是男的。我没有女同性恋的朋友。

没有刻意去交同性恋的朋友啦，毕竟我对社交越来越没有兴趣好多年了。应该超过十五年了吧？

人类很累人的！是的，我是反社会人格。

因为有同性恋的朋友和亲人，所以我认为我自己对同性恋是接受认可的。就是那些人的性取向嘛，我没有那样的性取向，但我也可以接受别人有那样的性取向的。我是那样认为啦…

昨天刚看最新一集泰国版的〈跑男〉，这一集是伴侣游戏，但只有一位女出演者，所以有很多对男男伴侣组合。

泰国应该是一个同性恋已经被普遍接受的国家，而我这在一个有很多无厘头约束的回教国家生活的人，还真的看那一集泰国版的〈跑男〉看到扑面的文化冲击。

每每原版韩国〈跑男〉有伴侣游戏时，男男伴侣组合是大家都抗拒厌烦的，男出演者总会想尽办法赢得女出演者的青睐来凑成男女组合。男男伴侣组合的其中一位需要男扮女装，而且都是走搞笑路线的，毕竟是小孩也合适的综艺节目嘛。

所以当连续两位泰国版的〈跑男〉男出演者把唯一的女出演者推开来凑成男男伴侣组合时，我真的是看了个傻眼。

然后就是游戏中那些很真挚的亲昵举动，明明如果是男女伴侣做的话，我会会心微笑那种，但是男男伴侣做时，我看了是觉得怪怪的。有点不舒服的感觉。

也许我不是自己想象中那么思想开通的…

我是可以接受同性恋这事，但可以的话不想要看到男男亲昵的举动的老古董。

心的频道 |系列|

Potato mode on!

Replacement holidays next Monday and Tuesday, so it's a four days long weekend, woohoo!

Granted, I just finished my overtime work not long ago but at least I still have 3.5 days long weekend.

Cheap labour should not complaint.

Here's hoping I can truly rest and relax for the rest of the 3.5 off days. Goodness knows I need it. Desperately.

So heads up, potato mode is on! Don't contact me for work related stuff, bad karma and shittiest luck for the remaining of the year to whoever that does.

Other |hyped up heads up| category entries.

Random thoughts

Just gotta be ambiguous despite the advance in astronomy so we can play hit and miss with public holiday and replacement holiday. A good way to mess up plan.

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Somehow they have predetermined some desired results before there is any data, so when actual data showed not meeting the desired results, it's crunch time for me to come up with some way to get that desired results. Fun time.

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So, who's bullying you? Or what's bothering you? Perhaps the concern is unwanted.

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Running Man Thailand is bringing back many fond memories of the original (Korean) Running Man, those early days.

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Super unfit. Quality of sleep all time low.

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Spider-Man: Brand New Day coming on 31st of July 2026, woot!

Other |temperamental thoughts| category entries.

炒与被炒

几个月前辞职的旧同事朋友，今天告诉我一些有关炒公司鱿鱼，和被公司炒鱿鱼的差别。

说清楚点是自己丢信辞职，和被公司裁员的一些差别。

先说自己其实一直都有那帅气的丢信，加一句 “See you, suckers!”，然后拍屁股走人的幻想。炒公司鱿鱼，嘢！

至今那都还只是幻想，因为我既不帅气，也没有骨气。但有时这样想想，才会心里平衡点、好过点。

旧同事朋友说，自己辞职，就拿不到年尾花红；而那些被裁员，拿遣散配套的，就能够按工作月份比列拿到年尾花红。

真的有够抠。

还有就是还在职时帮公司做出来的专利，应该给的奖励金，也因为奖励金不是及时发放而是拖了几个月到他辞职后才发放，就没给了。有没有搞错？专利上可是写着他的名字的哦！

真的，要炒公司鱿鱼，还真的要有足够的底气和骨气。

当然可以选择臭骂…

随兴随想 |系列|

May there be light

This is the third consecutive weekend that I am working overtime.

I am tired of this. Really.

Will next week be the end of this streak?

One can hope.

Other |wretched workaholic| category entries.

Low batt

Tired. Just tired.

Very bad quality of sleep lately.

Is it the mattress? The pillow? Or somehow, the blanket?

Don't know. But the heat wave doesn't help. The recent full moon doesn't help. The stress from workload doesn't help.

Just did three consecutive days of overtime work, including the weekend. In fact, worked hardcore through the weekend from waking up until going to sleep, only significant breaks being the meals.

And still I can't see how I could deliver everything by the end of the week. Stressed.

So, constantly in a low energy, low mood state.

Dry.

Other |sane side| category entries.

生活点滴：阿伯味

今天又去了医院一趟。上星期见肾脏病学医生，这星期见眼科医生。

这篇文章不是要讲那医院没用的预约系统，而是我在医院里等看医生时突然就伤了身体右侧肌肉的事。

因为知道预约的时间是没有意义的，所以我带了本小说去，感觉至少时间不是白白被不能守时的人浪费掉。

然后齁，我就是那样坐着看书的时候，就不明不白地拉伤了身体右侧的肌肉。这是怎么一回事？真的是很扯咯！

看完医生回到家后冲了个凉，敷了肌肉酸痛的药水，然后去吃午餐。

一坐下来，情人老婆仔就笑说：“你越来越有阿 pek 味。”

我也笑着问：“那肌肉酸痛药水或药膏的味道？因为整天这里痛那里痛？”

情人老婆仔就是呵呵的笑。

然后午餐后她又帮我贴上两块药膏…

是啦，我就是老了啦。

生活点滴 |系列|

心的频道：形象

今天在即时通讯五人小群里，猜中了个谐音梗的谜题，所以自我感觉良好，呵呵！

其实是因为不久前看的一出韩国恋爱综艺节目的名字，就是那谜底，而我凑巧还记得那节目的名字。

我如实告诉即时通讯群，结果很意外的有两位朋友很惊讶得知我看恋综。

我这么情感丰富的人看恋爱综艺很奇怪咩？不是理所当然的事吗？

应该是他们其实不是很懂我吧？

真好奇究竟我给他们怎么一种形象的？

心的频道 |系列|

Meaningless system, part five

After one month, another visit to the hospital. Third appointment with the nephrologist.

Arrived around 07:40 hours, for the 08:00 hours blood and urine tests. Very familiar with the process now, so self-registration, guarantee letter verification, then went straight to the lab.

No hospital personnel behind the registration counter and in the lab when I arrived. I just took the number from the machine, it said L001 on the slip. Then I found a corner seat and took out my novel.

Didn't noticed when the hospital personnel arrived at their respective places, next thing I knew was my name being called. So I kept my book and approached the lab. I was indeed the first patient.

The nurse at the lab mentioned it's non-fasting blood sample collection, so the nephrologist nurse pulled my leg as she wrote fasting (blood test) in my appointment card. Oh well.

The lab personnel was still as efficient as the previous visit. So thumbs up for them. I was done with blood and urine sample collection in a jiffy and arrived the nephrology clinic around 08:10 hours.

Just waited a short while for my turn to have my weight and blood pressure taken, then I was free to go until the 10:20 hours consultation. At least that's the time written on the appointment card, but for once the meaningless appointment system was sabotaged by itself, as the automated reminder system told me the actual appointment time: 11:20 hours.

Before I left the nephrology clinic, I double-checked the appointment time with the nurses there, asking if it's 11:20 hours (coincidently I didn't brought the appointment card), which they said yes.

I came home to get some work done before returning to the hospital closer to 11:20 hours, even though I was on half day leave. I returned to the hospital and arrived the nephrology clinic around 11:10 hours, brought along the appointment card this time and handed over to the nurses.

I was called around 11:35 hours, a lot less time wasted waiting this time round, since I didn't fell for the fake 10:20 hours appointment time.

After three consultations with two blood and urine tests, the nephrologist confirmed what's known from the medical check up two months ago: that my kidneys are unhealthy, below the average of people my age. Not sure why but the nephrologist made some educated guesses, he did mentioned those were just his guesses, unless we do more tests to verify, which he doesn't think is necessary.

He also thinks it's not necessary to go on medication, and gave generic advices about exercise, healthy diet, watch the blood pressure, that sort of things. Said we keep monitoring and to go see him again in three months time, with the blood and urine tests.

I noticed this time the nurse wrote non-fasting instead of fasting (blood test) in the appointment card, heh.

Other |runaway rants| category entries.

Haywire view counter

The view counter for this blog has gone haywire. =(

Since early February, the counter started to show lesser number than the day before on several days.

I can totally understand having 0 view, that nobody visited the blog on that day, but negative view count?

We can unsee things now? And the view counter is aware of that?!?!!

So hard to find, reliable stuff.

Other |hyped up heads up| category entries.

开工

昨天开工了。

网上看到的资料说是开工吉日啦，我八字的知识还不足，唯有盲从。

情人老婆仔去年中开始工作了，所以昨天我也给了她个开工红包。

过去几年就只是她给我开工红包，今年我也有得给她了，呵呵！

还是她写的开工吉祥语好，但我给她的开工红包除了吉祥语还加了钱。没什么特别意义，就是想要给她带钱的红包。

希望我们都可以有个工作顺心顺意的一年啦！

随兴随想 |系列|

明天开工了…

两天农历新年公假、三天年假、前尾周末四天，一共九天的假期就这样过去了。

我还因为昨天开的长途车和三晚很差的睡眠累得不行，疲倦不堪呢。

明天就要开工了，不要不要不要！

唉～

放了长假应该是充了电，满血状况复工的嘛，我反而是更糟糕的状况。

真的很「显」咯…

随兴随想 |系列|

新年快乐！

农历新年快乐！Happy Chinese New Year!

贺碧彩妮丝妞伊儿！

兴啊！旺啊！发啊！Heng ah! Ong ah! Huat ah!

愿，人人身心安乐，事事顺心顺意。

随兴随想 |系列|

Rest in peace, Squeaky

Rest in peace, Squeaky (3rd November 2023 to 13th February 2026), you were the most adventurous of the three hamsters we brought home back in 2023, and the most curious, acutely aware of our presence within your domain.

So nosy indeed that you stuck your head out of wherever you were resting so you don't miss anything. You would hang your head out standing in a container until you fell asleep and slipped back into the container, often jerking yourself awake to poke your head out again.

You made so much noise on the day we brought you and your siblings (well, cage-mates) home from the pet shop, hence 'mommi' named you Squeaky.

And you continued to squeak when you and your siblings all shared the two interconnected containers. You sure were vocal. You became quiet after we separated you and Pearly, after Brownie left.

Missed your squeaks since then, and only once did you made some noises for a lengthy period when 'mommi' was near, sounded like you were singing. You sounded happy.

Oh, and your angry hiss when the nephew disturbed you rudely. That was not a nice sound.

You were sociable and like to interact with us, unfortunately you also like to bite, especially 'mommi's' fingers and hand. You did bit me, but not often, and in the later days you no longer did that. But your biting branded you though, 'mommi' and your young owner did not like to interact with you because of that.

You were pretty good at making tunnels, you could make some nice round passages and hidey-holes. And when you were younger you would burrow everywhere, exploring every inch of the containers.

You lived the longest among all the hamsters we brought home so far, you outlived your older sister Pearly by two months. And thankfully you didn't had any severe illness or issue in your advanced age, only the minor degradation in your rear legs.

Thank you for being part of the family, I hope we had provided you a nice and comfortable life.

Now you three sisters are reunited in hamster heaven, I do miss you. All of you.

Other |sane side| category entries.

高楼·停电

我住的公寓有通告说今天早上十点到中午两点会停电来做维修。

以往的经验是不需要这么久，通常会比预期早就结束的，所以我也不特地浪费那一、两小时来回公司，就呆在家工作，告诉同事们那段时间我会暂时断网。

这星期已经要去公司两天了，不想再多去一天。我就傍晚做迟点补回时间就是了。

赶在十点前把昨晚跑的模拟做完善后的工作，然后又设了另一个模拟去跑。十点前我就搞定了，反正也不知道几点会断电，没有网路我就无法工作，所以十点多我就下楼洗车去了。那时还没有断电。

洗车用了一小时半，完事后公寓是断电的状况，所以我拿着洗车的用具爬了十七层的楼梯。

明天除了腰酸背痛应该还会加上大腿肌肉酸痛…

冲了个冷水凉，还是没有电，我那时还不担心，只要一点半前复电就行了。我有个一点半的会议。

结果靠近两点半才复电，我错过了那一点半的会议，真是的。

随兴随想 |系列|

没气氛

一星期后就是农历新年了。

家里完全没有要过年的气氛。

除了情人老婆仔做的，卖得七七八八剩下那些给自己吃的年饼以外，好像就没有什么跟农历新年有关的东西了。

昨天外出晚餐后碰巧在附近有卖柑，才买了一箱回来，不然连柑都没有。

没有大扫除、没有装饰、没有新年的氛围和味道。

车子方向盘有问题也都没有时间去维修，脏得不像样也没有时间洗。

我好像没有要过年的心…

随兴随想 |系列|

不会开的签唱会…

时隔六年，唱片公司终于把我从冷宫拉出来，给我出张超级限量版的虚幻专辑。

真心感恩。

如果不出我所料，这应该是我的最后一张（虚幻）专辑了。

这么多年之间，发生了很多事，那位十三年前曾默默赞助我开签唱会的唱片公司经理已离开了公司。很多曾经一起打拼、一起组团合唱的歌手们也离开了唱片公司，还留着的要么已单飞，要么就有各自的团队了。

所以以往出唱片就开个签唱会的习俗也消失了。感觉应该，但不会开的签唱会…

是遗憾，但也有庆幸。我承认我老了，没有了以前的精力和热情。

怎么都好，希望专辑可以大卖，纾解些供孩子读书的费用。

花钱的人比赚钱的人还要潇洒…

这篇文章，这些内容，懂的人就懂。主要还是写给我自己。

心语细述 |系列|

立春

今天立春，丙午（火马）年的开始，祝大家马年快乐！

今天开始到明年立春前出生的宝宝就是属马的啦。

我有皮毛的八字命理学知识，略懂五行属性: 天干「丙」是太阳的火，地支「 午」也是火，所以今年是双火年。

那些八字里需要火，或火是有利的五行的人，今年应该会很旺。

我已经忘了自己的八字和五行的利弊，没时间重温，就笼统的希望今年会给我带来好运和福气啦！

太需要了…

附笔: 社交媒体可能又会被那些把鸡蛋站立起来的照片洗版。真是的，每天都能做到的啦，不是只有立春而已。

随兴随想 |系列|

心语细述

有些习惯很难改。

每年一次的祝福，重复了很多很多年的那种习惯。

“妈咪，生日快乐。”

有些习惯不想要改。

心语细述 |系列|

破功

还真的以为，会成功坚持一整个月都没有加时工作。

结果在一月的最后一天（星期六）破防，已经加时工作了六小时半，今晚可能还要继续。

就因为星期四那会议里，那位经理的一个热流模拟要求。报告下星期三要，不然就已经迟了。他是那样说啦…

问题是，我还在更新基准的热流模型，应该还需要一个星期才会完成。所以是等不到这新版本了，但用旧版本的模型又跟实物有很多差异，有缺精准度。进退两难的处境。

还有就是星期五我拿了假，几乎一整天在医院里耗费掉。原本以为还会有些时间可以（加时）工作，但精神也被弄得恍恍惚惚，所以就那样浪费了一天。

来着的星期一是大宝森节的补假，所以不加时工作的话，我只有星期二一天来完成那不可能的任务。

我不是神仙，也不是超人，只是个平凡无奇的普通人，所以我唯有加时工作。还是那种就算我加时工作也不一定能够及时交报告的情况。

唉～

真是命贱。

心语细述 |系列|

Meaningless system, part four

Another week, another visit to the hospital. Second appointment with the nephrologist (kidney specialist), and new referred appointment with the ophthalmologist (eye specialist).

Arrived by 08:00 hours for the blood test, which went smoothly all considering, got delayed at the registration part but the lab part was smooth. Thumbs up to the lab people.

Done within 30 minutes, including the surprised urine sample request, which I wasn't awared of until then. Gave them what my bladder could produced then, not a lot but they didn't called me back so I guess it's sufficient.

Went straight to the nephrology clinic, the nurse took my weight and blood pressure and told me in a nice way to bugger off. The appointment with the nephrologist was scheduled for 10:40 hours.

So I went out to breakfast. Oh, I walked to the hospital in the morning, and walked back home when I was finally done. Everywhere else in between that was also walked, for a total of 1 hour and 47 minutes split between six walking sessions.

Took 15 minutes to walk to breakfast and 15 minutes back to hospital, still more than an hour until the appointment with nephrologist so I went to the ophthalmology clinic first, see if I could get lucky and get that appointment done first.

No luck, the appointment was at 11:00 hours. I told them I had a 10:40 hours appointment with the nephrologist so most likely I would be late. They smiled, they know. Well, at least I prompted them to sort out the medical insurance thing, which strangely was issued for yesterday instead of today, so not totally a waste of effort.

Went back to the nephrology clinic and took out my novel to pass time, slightly more than one hour to kill. If the consultation was on time, that is, which it wasn't. No surprise there, and no prize for guessing if it was earlier or later than the appointment time.

The nurse called me 37 minutes after the appointment time. Took 6 minutes for the consultation, basically being told my blood test showed same results as the one done in December, and still need to wait a few days for the other test results. So another appointment was scheduled in late February and none the wiser on what's wrong with my kidneys.

So naturally I was late for the 11:00 hours appointment with the ophthalmologist. The consultation happened at 12:24 hours, but if we take away the time delayed by the nephrologist, then really it's "just" 41 minutes late.

The ophthalmologist said maybe it's the spectacles, or maybe dry eyes. Advised me to make a new pair of spectacles and gave me some eye drops, and said to go back early March. So another appointment. Looks like I still have to visit the hospital on weekly basis end of February and beginning of March.

I went straight to the optometrist to get a new pair of spectacles made. They tried to sell me two pairs, one multifocal for distance, intermediate and near, the other an office glasses for intermediate and near. I resisted and said I only need one, the office glasses. Already cost me an arm for that, I don't need to lose both arm and leg.

After all that is done, went for a late lunch and by the time I reached home, it's already 15:25 hours. That's another leave gone.

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随兴随想

一转眼一月只剩一个星期。时间都去哪儿了？

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原本是中文的故事，我竟然用英文写了个前序的开头。

故事情节一点一滴的浮现脑海里，需要好好整理时间点和怎么相互连接。

已经想成是三部曲的大纲是不是有点可笑？毕竟连一个篇章都没有完成，就只有那些片片段段的情节。

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还不会赚钱养活自己的孩子，花钱倒是很豪爽。

还是诸多抱怨、感恩有缺。

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期待不用每星期去一次医院的日子到来。

随兴随想 |系列|

让我 emo 一下

又有一位同事辞职了，两个星期后离开。

感伤。无奈。

是团队里最开朗友善的人，也是位可靠能干的同事。当然最叫人羡慕妒忌的是他有吃不肥的绝世好运（或基因）。

团队越来越小了，唉…

就是觉得忧伤、不舍、遗憾。

唉，有时还真的希望自己不要这么感性，情感不要那么细腻，感受不要那么深刻。

好累人。

心语细述 |系列|

Meaningless system, part three

Yes, another follow up, exactly one week after the previous. Neurologist wanted a MRI scan, and when I left last Monday, the nurse told me they will inform me of the MRI date once they have made the booking.

Well, true to their word, they told me the date for the MRI scan alright, as they called me at 11:30 hours today to inform me that the MRI is at 14:00 hours today. Yes, a 2.5 hours notice before the appointment. What a "fantastic" system that is.

The nurse said they sent me SMS last Friday, which strangely I did not received. Let's just give them the benefit of doubt.

Good thing there wasn't any critical meeting this afternoon, so I scrambled to inform manager that I needed the second half off. After a not so leisure, somewhat rushed lunch, wifey dropped me off at the hospital. By the time I finished the self registration and reached the appropriate part of the hospital, it's 14:02 hours.

The next serving of the "fantastic" system was when the nurse at the MRI place told me that the MRI scan was booked for 15:30 hours. When I told her the nurse who called me earlier said it's 14:00 hours, she asked me to wait and got on the phone to that nurse.

After their conversation, the nurse at MRI told me nope, the MRI booking was at 15:30 hours, asked if I had lunch, hinting me to go do something else and come back later. I told her I already had lunch, didn't said it's somewhat rushed because I wanted to arrive by 14:00 hours, and told her I would just wait there. She said if any of the prior bookings freed up, they would slot me in. I thanked her and found a corner and took out my novel.

15:30 hours appointment but asked me to be there by 14:00 hours, wasting 1.5 hours of my time. Such "fantastic" system!

Not sure if someone really cancelled his or her appointment, or the unfortunate person just got his or her time slot given to me and made to wait (common theme in the "fantastic" system), but they got me on the 15:00 hours slot. One hour after the fake MRI time slot but 30 minutes before the real MRI time slot.

First MRI scan in my life. It's loud, noisy and uncomfortable. I tried my best to stay absolutely still for the entire 20+ minutes. I think I did okay, since the neurologist showed some pretty sharp cut-plane images of my brain when I eventually saw him later in the day.

I moved from the MRI place to the neurologist place and sorted out yet another registration by 15:29 hours. Then another time wasting wait commenced. Honestly I thought of bringing another novel with me before I left home, seeing that I am close to finishing the novel I am currently reading, but I didn't, naively thinking they can't always be that bad.

Well, unfortunately, they sure can. I checked the screen after the 15:29 hours registration, it showed no number in the queue to see the neurologist. So I had to be next, right? I asked, twice, to two different nurses, once at registration, and the other when they called me for blood pressure and weight measurement about 15 minutes after registration, whether the neurologist was already in, and both of them confirmed that he already was.

Fine, I figured the neurologist must be waiting for the MRI scan results. Must be some really gigantic file size coupled with slow computer and slow network connection, that sort of thing. I guess not all institution has the computing and network resource that can transfer 100GB file across the globe in 15 minutes, which I think is already not fast enough with technology nowadays. So ya, must be that.

I finally get to see the neurologist at 16:52 hours, which is strangely similar to the 1.5 hours 'waste of my life' time period earlier in the day. Makes me wonder if the "fantastic" system has this 1.5 hours buffer to the actual appointment time? Hmm...

Anyway, done with the consultation in 4 minutes. The good news is that there's nothing wrong with my MRI scan results, thank goodness. The bad news is that the neurologist hasn't a clue regarding the cause of my headache, so he is referring me to the ophthalmologist next...

Not sure if I am being referred from one to another and undergoing different tests and diagnostics because I am claiming company's medical insurance, but goodness know I am glad I have that medical insurance. I really don't want to know the amount of the medical bill, and it's not even over yet.

I do know I am visiting the hospital on a weekly basis, next appointment is Friday next week, and every singe time my precious time is being wasted away.

Pfft!

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- Prelude -

Copyright © 2026 Chin Kung GOH. All rights reserved.
Currently untitled. Edition: 0. Revision: 1. Sequence reference: 0.1.

This is a work of fiction. Unless otherwise indicated, all the names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents in this book are either the product of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
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So it's real and not just a saying, that life flashes before our eyes before our imminent death.

That was what happened to me as I was thrown out of the car, through the shattered windscreen, over the side of the bridge, and falling towards the dark water below.

My entire life flashed before me in minute details and sharp clarity, in reverse order, going backward from the most recent incident of that reckless BMW ramming into my car, to that devastating discovery of the betrayal, to the deteriorating relationship and the many episodes of fights, to all those wonderful moments when we were each other's whole world, to meeting her the very first time... The graduation, the schooling years, the childhood, the warmth of mother's embrace, my first breath and first cry announcing my arrival to the world.

A whole lifetime in that few seconds for me to fall that thirty metres, heading straight to a collision with the sea that would break my bones.

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