不悦

这几天，不开心。

睡得很不好，所以总是没有精神，很累。

身体也不行，种种问题。

咳不停、轻微肚泻、腰背部也不知为何突然旧伤复发。

通常都是打球才会弄伤的，但我都已经两个星期没有运动了…

站、坐、躺都不是，搞到人很不爽咯。

那很久没有联络的大学教授突然来了封电邮，每每讲到有关那我觉得自己很失败的学位就会激发我的忧郁症。

唉…

被逼换了部门后对工作都已经不是很满意了，再拿了那有史以来最烂的加薪后就更没有劲。

今天又来一件事让我更「度烂」。

和老板同级的同事转寄了封电邮给我，是上星期开始一大堆人就在做的事。

一直没有解决所以昨天已经投诉到更高层的上司去了。

那老板同级的同事到了今天才把我拉进那事件，说是我工作范围的事，要我今天去另一个工厂解决它。

他很理所当然的叫我放下我正做着的一切，马上去把他这件事解决先。

干！我这廉价劳工到底有多少个老板的？

我那真的老板、那没有帮我争取多点加薪、给了我至今最烂的加薪的老板，没有意外的一点反抗都没有，任由我给他人摆布。

我写了封我觉得很客气的回应说我会今天过去，尽我的能力去解决它。（根本都不知道要做什么…）

顺便再次提醒他们（好几个老板级的人）我提了很多次不要没有给我们适当的训练和知识就把我们丢进“战场”。

我也列出我至今获得的那一丁点训练，和还严重缺乏的那一大堆。

当然除了让我发泄下以外是没有任何屁用的，这一班不能依靠的人。

幸好工厂里的同事很讲义气，和我一起做，也顺便教我点点滴滴。

我应该协助帮忙解决他们的问题的“客人”，反而比我知道的还多，反而反过来教我。

失败。

都已经讲了那么多次了，这些经理级的，真的失败。

超级（失）败。

唉… 真的需要开心、需要快乐。

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Solo act

Today's the quarterly session for my usual karaoke gang.

Quarterly session, sounds so... formal, but that's the idea: in hope that the gang will think of it as something of importance, and to give it appropriate priority.

The idea is saving that one day every quarter for a karaoke session, usually it means taking a day off to not be bothered by work and to enjoy the cheaper day rate.

It's not asking too much, is it?

To me it's not. Others may think differently.

Anyway, we pulled in the quarterly session slightly to coincide with a birthday, thinking we could get birthday discount. But found out today the birthday person has to be a member to enjoy the discount.

Oh well.

So that's actually the karaoke session for the second quarter of the year, which really only starts next week. =P

An enjoyable session, with the usual laughters and some really impressive singing from others that gave me goosebumps, in a pleasant way.

When I commented about that, a friend said she also gets goosebumps listening to me sing. I didn't ask her whether it's the pleasant type or the horrid type, haha!

I think I did okay singing solo songs that the lyrics I can resonate with. Singing with feeling.

But somehow I am horrible at singing duet. In the recent few sessions I have tried a few duet songs and pretty much ruined every one of them... >_<

Why huh?

Probably should practise the duet songs with another singer to get used to the timing and key instead of just practising the songs by myself.

But then the others can do it so well...

Should just admit I suck at duet, hahaha!

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心的频道：无奈

根本不想去但还是去了的越南出差，主要是为了两件事。

第一件事是被叫去的主因：帮忙确保两样产品在对的温度测验。

结果还没有去之前的星期五已经得知其中一样产品根本没温度上的问题。

到那儿后收集了一些资料，发现第二样产品也一样没有温度上的问题。

顿时有那「这出差很多余」的感觉。

被告知要我去越南时我已经说过，我觉得可以用即时通讯来完成这些事的咯…

浪费我的精力和时间。

真无奈。

第二件事是附加的工作，应该是加了这才比较讲得通这次的出差…

是要我去教越南的同事们有关控制和调解温度的知识。

这要说回去年老板要我写份把自己变多余、把自己淘汰掉的那份文件。

写份让看过的人可以做我做的工作的文件。

我费了好大劲写完了，呈报了，但不见得有人去读、去看、去学。

同事们仍旧是找我帮忙解决控制测验温度的问题，就算现在把我换成软件组的人了还是一样。

真的是浪费我的精力和时间。

无奈。

不过… 这次去越南分享我的经验和知识，那文件终于派得上用场啦！

越南同事的学习态度和工作态度都比较好，所以我分享和传授知识也比较有劲。

可惜他们多数都很忙，实习课需要在第二天加时好多就因为工作而无法出席了。

只有一位真的完成了整个实习的课程。

我给他们的经理报告时也很坦白的说只有那么一位完成了全部。

但我相信她是可以教导其它的同事做整个实习的课程的。

我半开玩笑的跟那同事说她毕业了，从今以后越南工厂里温度测验上的事就交给她了。

传授了功夫，我应该可以全心做软件组的工作了吧？

虽然我一点都不想做软件性质的工作…

虽然我一点都不想属于软件组…

没选择的被换了个软件组经理。

真无奈。

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家

没有瞬间移动的能力，也没有小叮当的任意门，所以我无法每天工作完就回家。

只能等到出差整个星期后才坐飞机回家。

那一大堆机场的手续、长龙、和等待。

还有那总是迟到的飞机和闷死人的飞程。

浪费精神、浪费时间。

好无奈。

终于都回到家了。

累，但好开心。

回家真好。

家真好。

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Downhill

Last year, I received the worst salary increment in my whole career.

This year, it got worse.

A faction of a decimal less, but still it's less.

So it's now the new low.

Zero in performance bonus target, that's a first as well.

I guess my contribution is just not valuable anymore.

Makes me wonder if there's another group or company that values me more?

Hmm...

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Stop!

A month ago I saw something online that resonates with me so I shared it on Facebook.

It's this sentence with a random picture: "Sometimes having a big heart sucks, because you expect everyone to care as much as you and they don't."

Yea, it's about time I stop caring so much because it has started to suck.

Being nice and caring takes a lot more energy than being evil.

It's time for me to be evil again.

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蜜糖柠檬和凉茶

上星期五喉咙开始疼痛，回到家发现也发烧了。

那晚没开风扇睡觉（每两小时醒一次），出了一身汗。

星期六烧退了，喉咙继续疼痛。

不想吃药，所以开始灌自己蜜糖柠檬水，和单眼佬凉茶。

每晚不想要但仍就是每两小时会醒一次的“睡眠”，都不知道自己到底是吸血鬼还是人狼？

今天起身喉咙还是痛，开始咳嗽，咳出浓浓的绿痰。

想到这星期可能会被派出差（十万八千分不想要那种），还病着就会更幸苦，所以只好去看医生。

没有时间给我靠自然草药复原了啦，给我化学药品吧！

以前更固执的我是不看医生不吃药的，现在算好了啦，不再是到要死了才去看医生。

不过抗生素真的可免就免咯，一把年纪了，要养生了，不是抗生。

但今天医生给了我特强的抗生素，因为我说可能要出差。

无奈。

我说，应该是知道要被派出差，又非常十分的不愿意所以就病了。

身体健康素质实在是不行了，唉…

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有感而发：咸鱼的梦

二零一七年三月十二日。

我有那感觉我已经写过这样的文章，但我快速翻阅过去几年的文章却没有找到。

也许我只是讲了很多很多次，没有真的写下来吧？

算了，就算是写过的东西还是可以再写的。

这是一篇有关梦想的文章。

会去寻找自己有没有写过，然后决定写，是因为 WhatsApp 里朋友开始的一个话题。

讲你啊，「罪人」。 呵呵！ =P

讲到梦想，一定要引用周星驰的金句：“做人如果没有梦想，那跟咸鱼有什么分别呀？” （粤语：“做人如果无梦想，同条咸鱼有咩分别呀？”）

因为我不要做咸鱼，所以我有梦想。

我的梦想就是要至少有一个女儿。

我的梦想就是要有自己的屋来做自己的家。

我的梦想就是要可以不烦经济的随兴写作出书。

很过分咩？

我觉得很合理的梦想啊…

但是齁，如果梦想需要依靠别人的话，那就很难实现了。

很难很难很难。（重要的东西要讲三次）

还有就是钱，经济能力。

没有钱，梦想也很难实现。

所以我还是咸鱼一条，只有发梦想的梦。

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Random behaviour for March 2017

I sang at least a song every day but for two days last month, so I consider myself successful in February's impromptu resolution. feel good +1

The two days that I didn't sing were because I was not in the condition. I had a splitting headache that rendered me pretty much useless, and then I had a severe bout of depression that I wasn't able to bring my mood up to sing. Bad days.

To me, singing requires the right feeling, and when my depression takes a nosedive, it can leave me with just fatigue and numb greyness.

Anyway, I realised that I was singing the same few songs throughout the month, six to eight-ish, definitely less than ten. So when I couldn't think of what to set as resolution this month and asked the colleague friends for suggestions, I decided to do this suggested resolution...

For March 2017, starting after I post this, my impromptu resolution is: to learn at least two new songs of my choice.

Because I can.

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生活点滴：（臭）男人味

今天打球可能有点过头，不然就是自己的身体又更差了，驾车回家途上有一阵小腿要抽筋的感觉。

幸好没有真的抽筋，有那感觉时我尽量换姿势纾解小腿的肌肉。

今天好像特别热，流了很多汗，换下的不吸汗衣挤得出汗水那种。

我是很大汗的人，而且汗很“毒”，白色衣会染成黄那种。

回到家后臭到自己都顶不顺。

两个瓜还没有睡所以我快快去跟他们道晚安，没有拥抱和吻脸颊，因为自己太脏太臭。

只是在大瓜的门口跟他说晚安，小瓜的我则是进房去。

因为老婆仔在小瓜的房里，而我突然有个邪恶的念头，嘿嘿。

小瓜很敷衍的（他很专心在看书）跟我说过晚安后，我跟老婆仔说：

“情人，我有一件事要跟你说。”

“什么事？”

我特地靠近她才说：“我很臭。”

“早就嗅到了啦！”

小瓜也做应声虫：“我也是早就嗅到了。”

“哈哈哈哈！” 我笑着离开房间。

老婆仔加一句：“没有讲只是不要伤你的感受罢了。” 

爱你哦！

号外：

「猫山王」被那说自己不是 dry 只是很友善的「本小姐」 拒绝同队玩桌上足球后，应该是受到刺激。羽球时特地跑来观看，只是观看，没有玩，然后就一直要我脱衣来打球…

我不是那样的人来的，你可以不可以不要这么 dry？

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Flyday

Friday. Flyday.

Two back to back morning meetings, then restarted the laptop since there's a push for BIOS update.

BIOS, hmm... but it's pushed through the usual company update and upgrade tool so I just accepted.

The laptop went black screen during the update, and forever stayed that way.

Great. Corrupted BIOS would be a major pain.

Good thing the IT support was able to get it sorted before lunch, apparently it's the second case they received this week so they know exactly what to do.

Fast forward to the journey home, as Friday's long lunch hours are happy hours, and time flies when we are having fun. =)

Surprisingly smooth drive home.

Granted I left early to avoid the Friday traffic, but it was a lot smoother than usual.

It's as if the idiots were all not on the road during that time. Only encountered one who ran the red light. Didn't encounter any selfish bastard who cuts queue, probably because there was no queue. No brainless snail who hogs the fast lane driving at turtle speed. No witless driver who drives on two lanes. I am sure there were the usual jerks who changes lane without giving signal but none made it suddenly in front of me during my drive home.

All in all, a relatively nice drive home. =)

Turned on the laptop to get some more work done after I got home. Called it a work day about half an hour ago and decided to write this as the start of my weekend.

Flyday, fly!

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