淡化

二零二四年最后一个月。其实还有三个星期左右的工作时间，但最迟两天后我已经需要交上年终报告。

三个星期是可以完成很多东西的，不过算了吧，我的心已淡。

每天重复的做足完整的正式工作时间，然后那非常不健康比率、过分频密的加时工作量。

累了。腻了。厌了。

挂一个项目的名下，推几个项目的工作量，用人不必本钱。

项目领导的计划能力就是那么差吗？没有一个项目是跟着计划走的，计划每几天改一次。要求我做热流模拟，模型还没有完成已经改了计划。从一个项目变成两个版本，那还算好，因为至少还是局部差异、大体相同的两个版本。但过后直接就把原本项目完全变质，变成不同的两个机型，其实就是两个新的项目…

要求我提供热流模拟报告，但需要建模型的数据却没有，就是随便丢些问题和错误满满的资讯给我做参考和依据。等我一一发现那些问题和错误他们才来修改，就是等我替他们做他们应该做的事啦。就是让我跑在最前面，开了头他们才用我的数据来做参考和依据，然后他们做好了就要我重做我的模型和模拟。

我没有那个等别人做妥了我才做的命，而是那个命贱需要不停重做来减少别人工作量的廉价劳工，唉…

真的，没劲了、没动力了、心淡了。这工，唉～

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Pain (2)

The back pain is getting a lot better, almost can't feel the pain anymore, but of course I am still being careful with my posture and movement.

But then not sure what higher force decided that my life has to be painful, so the disabling headache hit me today, shortly after lunch.

It was a struggled to keep working, and immediately after work hours I hit the bed and stayed zombie-like until about two hours later.

After a late dinner it was slightly better, but now it's coming back. So soon I will back to be zombie-like.

Interestingly it has always been behind the left eye, where I feel the pain propagates from, but today for the first time that I can recall, the pain started from behind the right eye.

Anyway, it's one pain after another. Such sad and woeful life.

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Pain

I have history of back pain, I don't know which one came first, or was the cause, but the two triggers that I am aware of are: (1) standing long hours, (2) badminton.

My days of standing long hours in the production floor are a distant memory now. Actually, my days of playing badminton regularly also feel like a distant memory now, but I think they are just slightly more recent compared to long hours in the production floor.

Anyhow, since both of those are distant memories now, I have been free from back pain for a blessedly long time. Until three nights ago, that is.

Honestly do not know what caused it this time, it happened on Saturday night, when I was reading in my bed just before sleep.

I read in my bed before I go to sleep every night, propped up against the headboard with pillows supporting the back. So it came as a nasty surprise when I felt the sharp pain of the familiar back pain when I wanted to change my position.

Back pain, just like that. Followed thus far by three low quality sleep nights no thanks to painful turning, and three irritable days of painful posture change especially turning upper body to the left and the dreadful standing up from sitting position.

Getting a back pain just like that is veli de meh, this is absolute bollocks!

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Something profound

Tomorrow is the last day of November, while today, Friday, is the last working day in November.

My official working hours are 08:00 to 17:30 hours, Monday to Friday. No weekend, and no overtime pay.

Out of these 29 days in November, I have worked overtime on 18 days. Initially my thought was, okay, not saying that's good, but it's not too bad.

That is, until I looked at the calendar and counted out the actual working days in November. 21 working days in November, and I took 3 days annual leave so it's a 18 working days month for me.

18 working days and I worked overtime on 18 days... Granted, the reality is I worked overtime in some weekends and even when I took leave, but to have worked overtime 18 days in a 18 working days month is just horrible. Profoundly sad.

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Not sure why high school graduation seems like a big thing now, for I honestly cannot remember my own high school graduation.

Not even sure if there was a ceremony, or was it just so unimportant to me that I cannot remember it at all.

Ironically, high school was the time that I considered my peak, in both academia and co-curriculum. My only straight A examination, and representing the school and state in co-curriculum, all happened in my high school time.

Anyway, today's my elder son's high school graduation. Don't really know what to make of it, the education system and school year being so screwed up nowadays. He hasn't taken his governmental high school examination yet, and the school year still has a few months to go, but the graduation is today.

That certification is probably the first useful qualification in terms of getting a job, but honestly it's the bare minimum, and for limited choice of job. Nowadays a university degree is just too common for a high school certification to be worth much, if anything.

What's profound is that my elder son may not even get it. Failing the governmental high school examination is certainly a possibility based on my elder son's academic record.

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Many milestone events in November for me and wifey, that's profound.

And that one thing that is finally happening. *Fingers crossed*

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生活点滴：二十年

昨天拿了假，因为是结婚二十周年。

没有做我原本想要做的任何一样事：没有两百朵玫瑰、没有住宿酒店一日游、没有新的一对戒指、没有烛光晚餐或午餐…

就是一早和情人老婆仔去看车，陪她试车，因为她要换车了。早餐是路旁的小贩，然后就继续看车和试车到中午。

因为要载孩子放学，和看完车的时间的关系，所以午餐也就只是在学校外的咖啡店吃杂菜饭。

载了孩子回到家后，犯贱加时工作到傍晚五点半左右，然后去附近的商场买了戏票，匆匆吃个拉面晚餐，多亏那十三分钟的戏前广告我们正好赶上电影，没有错过开头。

看完戏就回家了，然后我又继续犯贱加时工作到半夜。

通常会在当日写篇文章上载部落格，但终于停工时已经太累了，所以今天才写这文章。

结婚二十周年了，我觉得是比平时更有意义的里程碑。

没有在这特别的日子做些特别的事，因为情人老婆仔不以为然，所以就跟着她的方式过了一天。

是平淡无奇，但几乎一整天是两人一起度过的，还是难得的。

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Slacker month not

Two weeks into November, fourteen days over in a blink.

Slacker month is not living up to its name, there ain't no slacking happening, meh!

Worked overtime nine days out of the fourteen. Horrible, just horrible.

Besides working like a maniac, there are also many things that happened in these two weeks. Serious and big stuff.

No slacking whatsoever. This is just sad.

Maybe there is still hope, as there are still two more weeks in November, perhaps I will get my fair share of slacking in the remaining of November.

Yea, right. I don't believe it either.

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Scribble Pad is seventeen years old!

Happy 17th birthday, Scribble Pad!

As per custom, here are the accumulated number of views based on the counter. The one for 2024 is as of 22:55 hours.

2008: 4746
2009: 13300
2010: 23226
2011: 31677
2012: 37412
2013: 42469
2014: 46926
2015: 50532
2016: 53716
2017: 56798
2018: 59939
2019: 62732
2020: 65840
2021: 68205
2022: 70269
2023: 72064
2024: 74382

I triple-checked the numbers to make sure they are right, because surprisingly, this year the numbers do not follow the trend. No idea why, just pleasantly surprised.

Truth is the thought of reducing the number of blog entry per month has popped up in my mind a few times, but somehow I am still doing eleven entries every month. Habit dies hard, I suppose.

Anyway, it's November this month, my self-proclaimed slacker month, and there will only be four entries. If you have been following this blog, then you know it has always been like this. Well, except the very first November when the blog started 17 years ago. Why? Because slacker extraordinaire (me!) said so. =P

Thank you for reading this blog. I sincerely hope you get something out of the stuff I shared.

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