21 January 2018

Hmm...


While I definitely know when I am entering a depression bout, I usually am not aware when it's over.

It's just part of my life nowadays.

Anyway, today I found myself singing a few songs, with emotions, something I have not been doing for a while.

I don't have the energy nor the mood to sing when I am in depression, so I guess this is an indication that the depression bout is over.

Yay?



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17 January 2018

生活点滴:算得快的办法


这是小瓜跟我讲的…


情人老婆仔近来在做新年糕点,做好的一罐罐整齐排列在桌上。

小瓜今天在数那些罐子,要知道妈妈已经做了多少罐。

他一罐一罐的来算,我见了便教他用横排乘直排的方法来算。

他跟我的解说算了一遍后(天啊,他的乘法好差!)才跟我说:

那天妈妈也是问我要不要学算得快的办法,我说我算得很快啊!

他接着说得很快很快:

一二三四五六七八~

>_<

哈哈哈! 这么好笑的事老婆仔竟然没有告诉我! =D



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15 January 2018

Rift


A rift is forming among my colleague friends.

I hate it.

From my point of view, this rift forming is due to misdirected anger.

I understand the anger and the frustration, the last reorganisation has been bad for some of us not of the original team job role that we got mapped under. And probably there's some preferential thing going on too.

The management may be saying one thing, but the job and tasks assigned to me is indicating another. I am losing my identity.

So yea I understand, since it's the first time in my career that I seriously considered changing group. It's that bad.

But this is not about me, this is about my colleague friends, whom are my closest friends from work as these are the first few people I met when I joined the company all those years ago.

It's really sad seeing this happening.

Misdirected anger, should really direct it at the management, which, to me, is the real cause.

Work life is not just about work. To me it's definitely not. Work is just something I have to do to get the salary, work life is a lot more than that.

The friendship made, the lunch chat, the camaraderie.

The badminton, the foosball, the tabletop gaming sessions.

And all those other social and fun stuff we do together outside of work.

Hope things will calm down and the rift will mend.

I sincerely do hope so.



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12 January 2018

生活点滴:拍拖


今天回到家情人问我:

今晚会累吗?

老婆仔知道我这几晚都不是睡得很好,夜间一直会醒,所以比较累。

但我也知道为何她会这样问,所以我说:

要去 Tesco 买东西啊?

嗯。

嘢!去拍拖!” 我开心的说。

很可怜齁?去 Tesco 拍拖。” 她说。

不管,只是我们两个人就是去拍拖。

两个人一起傻笑。 

所以等下我们要去拍拖啦,呵呵!



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08 January 2018

At long last...


Important milestone that I want to record, but too tired now to write much.

So screenshots instead.





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03 January 2018

That's the question


Last day of my break.

The first five days break was for the wedding and the activities with in-laws. Not my kind of relaxing break.

Then the unexpected illness, which caused me to be bedridden for the two days in between my breaks.

Which also turned my second five days break, the supposingly all relax and chill out break, into a recovery time-out.

Twelve days away from work. If only it was in the way I wanted it to be.

Alas, such is my life.


Initially planned to watch all the Star Wars episodes during the two breaks, but ended up only managed to watch the first four.

Really don't know why people are crazy about Star Wars, it's just okay for me.

Managed to get my character in World of Warcraft to max level of 110. Getting to max level is easy, completing all the quests is the never ending part, something that I have never managed to do all my years playing this game.

Still haven't unlocked flying for the latest two expansions, and still haven't tried the demon hunter class. Don't think I will have time for either now that my breaks are over.

Oh well.


Anyway, slacker extraordinaire is ready to go back to work.

To shave or not to shave? That's the question.



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01 January 2018

心的频道:新年第一天


疲累。 不喜欢,但也一点都不新鲜的感觉。

原本只是想要起床和老婆仔说声新年快乐,然后再睡回,但起床后脑子就静不下来了。

翻来覆去半小时后放弃,很无奈的起身,知道今天又会是疲累的一天。

早知道就干脆和老婆仔和两个瓜一同去吃印度烧饼,共度些家人时光,唉…

*****

新的一年,新的开始?

算了吧,新年也不过是一天,和昨天一样的一天。

真的要改变,什么时候都可以开始。

日期也不过是记录时间的一个公式而已。

*****

这次忧郁症比较严重点,所以我现在对什么都悲观消沉。

满满的负能量,不是适合和人接触交流的时候。

加上还是咳嗽不停,还是有那么多浓浓的黄痰。

至少不再需要曲缩成一团来减少腰背的疼痛了。

有些东西只有自己懂,有些苦只有自己知。

*****

还没有预定六月的羽球场。

还没有呈交上司要的整年报告。连写都还没有开始写,反正都是无谓。

还有那从博士文凭变成硕士文凭的论文要做的修改。真的应该是最后一次了…

还有那些还没有看的信件堆积在桌上。

还没有为电脑文件做备份保存。

有许多要做的事,有重要的、有琐碎的。

但今天我要过得清闲、悠闲。

就看看书、看看戏、写写东西、玩玩电脑游戏。可以的话,睡睡觉。

如果新的一年的第一天真的有什么特别的话,那我要用我喜欢的方式去过。



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