Confession

I need to make a confession for I have sinned.

Two actually. May as well.

Since Monday, I have become one of those ridiculous people who takes photo of their meal before eating it.

Just dinner, and just to show wifey what I had for dinner. No spamming on social media or group chat, I still have hope for salvation.

I promise this will stop as soon as I am reunited with my family. Promise.

I am so embarrassed of myself as it is, tried my best to take the photo as quick as possible, hoping no one sees it.

I also started playing one of those mindless games on Facebook yesterday night.

'Poisoned' by a colleague friend who started a group for this.

To be honest it's the "my six years old daughter played until she blistered her finger" that got me. =P

Feel absolutely ashamed of myself.

But I am going to continue anyway. =P

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心的频道：拍拖纪念日

今早，情人老婆仔来了个简讯，祝我拍拖纪念日快乐！

不知道为什么，觉得「拍拖纪念日」这名词很好笑。

当然回了简讯，也祝她拍拖纪念日快乐！

<3

二十一年前的今天，我们互相承认了对方的地位，开始了情侣的关系。

很多细节，已在我这逐渐老模糊的记忆中淡忘。

但我记得，那海边细雨中的漫步。

那紫白色雨伞。

忘了我是不是紧张到全身飙汗。

但我记得你牵了我撑伞的手臂。

之后你总玩笑的说是你把我追到手的。

我说这样讲不太好吧？

现在我早不在乎了咯，管它谁追谁的。

重要的是，我们要一直牵着手走下去哦！

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心的频道：很想歇一歇

下个星期是八月的最后一个星期了。

终于。

将会有四天的长周末。

很好，很期待。

希望可以好好休息一下，充充电。

整个八月至今就是累。

好累好累。

很多不顺心意，不必要的事物状况。

尽了力，剩下那些不是自己可以控制的，只好认命。

昨天惊觉很久没有关心下那些值得关心的朋友了。

有点内疚，我懂友情需要经营，但真的是有心无力。

自己的状况太糟了，自身难保的感觉。

低能量，和负面能量。

都是不要影响别人。

等自己的状况好点先吧…

将来临的那几天假期，祈求可以让我歇一歇。

由衷祈望。

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Not healthy

Wifey had a random conversation with the kids during dinner, here's part of their exchange...

Wifey: "How many students are there in your class, Young?"

Young: "Twenty four."

Wifey: "How many in your class, Hsiang?"

Hsiang: "Thirty eight, but only eleven boys."

Wifey: *naughty grin* "Wow! Isn't that great? Surrounded by girls!"

Hsiang: "Nope, it's not healthy for me."

Wifey *laughed out loud* "Why?"

Hsiang: "Girls carry virus."

Hsiang probably just made that reason up on the spot, we didn't pressed him, because we were laughing.

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八月啊八月

八月的第一个星期还好。

就是一贯的老板给我更多的工作，仿佛我很有空似的。

越南的同事又有自己不能解决的事，把我拉进去帮忙。

之前那 task force 都不知道完了没有，突然就没有了消息，终结了也该告知一声吧？

八月的第二个星期是年头开始就计划安排的训练，终于都发生了。

但我那整个星期都病了。

回到家后就倒在床上，根本没有精神复习学到的。

那个星期六感觉好了点，晚餐后和两个瓜玩了一阵 Nerf gun。

然后星期天我就一整天像死尸那样瘫倒在床上。

身体健康状况实在是太差了…

八月的第三个星期，星期一醒来还是头痛，所以留在家里养病。

星期二怎么都得去工厂，因为有些同事是不能够自己做工和解决问题的。

前个星期我整个星期在训练，那个说很急的工程就没有进展，连开会都取消了。

一向来都明白，要把一件事情做好，我都是自己亲手做就是了。

星期三上班途中遇到车祸，虽然我还是去了公司，但午餐后开完会交代完事我就离开了，去警察局报案，那整天就这么废了。

当然，晚间检查电子邮件时得知同事又有不能自己解决的问题，所以我又忙到三更半夜。

唉，连续几晚都这样，根本没有自己个人的时间。

去年年头我已经立志，要对自己好一点，不要这么为公司打拼，不要把工作带回家，要保留自己的私人时间，要消遣放松什么的。

这几天真是失败，超级败。

一转眼八月就要过了，我只觉得是个很糟糕的月份。

腰酸背痛了整个星期，整体的健康很不好。

忧郁症又来袭，虽然很习惯了，但还是会属于低能量的一个状况的咯。

唉，八月啊八月，为什么要这样？

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Sandwiched

Off to work after the morning meetings as usual today.

Same route, same road user behaviour, same old same old.

Until about the midspan of the Penang Bridge, when the driver in front executed an emergency brake, which I in turn had to execute my own emergency brake to avoid a collision.

Before I could exhale and say "phew, that was close!" though, I got hit from behind, and propelled forward to bang the car in front.

Bollocks.

The driver in front got down, inspected the rear end of his CX5, didn't notice any damage and just left with a "nothing, no problem."

My MyVi is apparently not made of such tough stuff, neither is the Elentra behind.

The Elantra driver wanted to claim the insurance for the repair so there goes my badminton session, spent the afternoon after the meeting going to the police station to make the report instead.

The Elantra driver made his report later in the day so I guess I will have to send my car to the workshop tomorrow or the day after.

*Sigh*

I guess the good thing is nobody got hurt, still annoyed by the inconvenience though.

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Hello cave

Hello cave!

How long is it going to be this time?

Oh well, let's do it...

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有感而发：流星雨

二零一七年八月十二日。

这几天，网上很多有关流星雨的资讯，这几晚不用望远镜只是肉眼都可以看得见什么的。

让我想起中学期末的那一段日子。

高中政府的考试完后等待成绩放榜时是有好几个月是闲着的。

大学先修班、学院、或直接上大学，都得等到开学的那天。

我中学时有一群因为课外活动而结交的死党，闲着的那段日子我们晚上会到海边打发时间。

工业区哪儿的海边，那时没有百货公司，没有什么建筑物，那条路都还没有完全建好。

所以那时还算偏僻的一个海边，没有灯光的污染，夜空很清晰。

也没有做些什么特别的事，还是我已经忘了，嗯…

但我记得那些流星。

第一次看到时大伙都很兴奋，呼唤其他人快看和赶快许愿什么的。

但不知道刚好是流星雨季节或什么的，不断有流星哦，所以渐渐也就见惯不怪了。

就一伙年轻男孩们，没有同性恋的（至少我不知道有啦！），所以也没有什么浪漫的啦。

而且也无法一下子想出那么多愿望吧？

我第一次看流星雨，就是给了这班猪朋狗友咯。

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Sick

Sick, since Monday night.

Fever, not the bedbound severity, more of the "I rather rest in bed and do nothing" level.

But I cannot.

In training this whole week, something that I have requested for for months and finally happened, so I shall endure and persist through it.

Doesn't help that the training room is like winter, prolonged sitting in front of the computer listening to the instructor slowly turns all of us into frozen statues.

Three students out of the initial six, I don't know if it's bad organising or people's attitude. I bet all would mark down in their calendar, cancel other stuff that clashes, and turn up if they had paid for it themselves.

Oh well.

Feel ashamed since the instructor knows we are all from the same company. Wonder how he thinks of the company now...

Anyway, my initial plan for August impromptu resolution is probably going to change, since I just do not have the energy for it.

Bollocks.

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Triggered

Occasionally, I would link a blog entry in Facebook.

I don't really have a fix criteria of which entry to link, however I almost never link the more personal and serious ones.

This blog is really just my online diary, recording things that happened around me, or a particular thought that I like to remember.

Very rarely I will actually create some fictional stuff, but mostly it's just a record of actual things that happened.

Two days ago, linked the random thought I had in Facebook and was pleasantly surprised by the amount of reaction it got.

Don't really know what triggered them, but I am just doing the same old same old and not expecting anything, as not having any reaction or comment is the norm, and I am honestly used to it.

Well, at least I now know that that particular entry has been read by a few people.

That's nice. =)

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如果…

今天突然想到一件事。

如果，我是说如果，我离开了现在的部门，换到槟岛上班的话，我开始的那些康乐活动该怎么办喔？

那些有益身心健康、流流汗减压、笑笑没烦恼、让人心情好、更有劲工作的康乐活动啊！

对我来说很重要的咯…

应该会像去年我被卖去做廉价劳工那六个月那样吧？

羽球应该还会继续，桌上足球也一样，但桌上游戏应该是凶多吉少。

以前还有两位偶尔会策划安排桌上游戏的，但变成师奶后都很少参与了，又怎么能期望她们呢？

唉…

我自己应该是会停止羽球而换个人可以做的运动吧？跑步？

桌上足球应该就是放弃了，要和那群“损友”才好玩的咯…

我真的很在乎的是那桌上游戏咯，应该会再慢慢找一群有同样喜好的同事吧？

还是像以往一开始时那样把他们硬拖进黑暗的这边，呵呵！ =P

但是想到要再开始寻找这样一班朋友就觉得好累哦，唉…

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