Scribble Pad is seventeen years old!

Happy 17th birthday, Scribble Pad!

As per custom, here are the accumulated number of views based on the counter. The one for 2024 is as of 22:55 hours.

2008: 4746
2009: 13300
2010: 23226
2011: 31677
2012: 37412
2013: 42469
2014: 46926
2015: 50532
2016: 53716
2017: 56798
2018: 59939
2019: 62732
2020: 65840
2021: 68205
2022: 70269
2023: 72064
2024: 74382

I triple-checked the numbers to make sure they are right, because surprisingly, this year the numbers do not follow the trend. No idea why, just pleasantly surprised.

Truth is the thought of reducing the number of blog entry per month has popped up in my mind a few times, but somehow I am still doing eleven entries every month. Habit dies hard, I suppose.

Anyway, it's November this month, my self-proclaimed slacker month, and there will only be four entries. If you have been following this blog, then you know it has always been like this. Well, except the very first November when the blog started 17 years ago. Why? Because slacker extraordinaire (me!) said so. =P

Thank you for reading this blog. I sincerely hope you get something out of the stuff I shared.

Other |hyped up heads up| category entries.

Long weekend

Tomorrow is Thursday, Deepavali, a public holiday. I am taking annual leave on Friday and next Monday to make it a five days long weekend.

Won't be going into potato mode, hence this entry is no titled so, as I already know I will be working at least one day within this period, if not more.

My current plan is to work on Friday, with luck just for a few hours, and then only resume work next Tuesday. Yes, one can dream.

Intend to brisk walk outdoor during this long weekend, hopefully more than once. Gotta suffer to be healthy.

Other than that don't really have any other plan, just rest and relax if I can get it. Don't always have that luxury now, even in my own home.

Oh, need to fix that broken cloth hanger stand rack thingy. Been a few weeks now, always slipped my mind in the past few weekends (two? Three?), and nobody bothered to remind me.

Feeling low and demotivated, don't think it's depression. Not yet, at least. Hope a break will do me good, but don't really believe it will. Cynical, I know.

Other |hyped up heads up| category entries.

Discontent

Dull period of life.

Nothing much to write about besides the same old rants, and I am tired of my same old rants that are due to stuff outside of my control.

They just boil down to 'life sucks', really.

Work wise the foremost thought is a lot of wasted effort because those who decide the direction steered us wrong, so one quarter worth of work down the drain. Resentful, and very dissatisfying.

Life wise the word that came up immediately is discontent. Things that matter to me, things that I cared a lot about, things that are important to me, are getting deprioritised or ignored. More and more priorities are becoming unaligned. They became like flickering after thought, callously handled. Only myself holding them near and dear all these years.

Changes in priority happened without consent, whether I like it or not is moot really, because I have no say. A reminder of the insignificance of what I cared about is to the other. It's sad. It's bitter. It's reality.

Health wise the word is poor. This at least is something I can control, to a certain extent at least. So I am cranking up the frequency and intensity of my exercise. I am living in pain on a daily basis these few days, I hope I can keep it up. Suffer daily so I can be healthy, oxymoronic but true. It's a weird world.

Full of negativity, I know. No less true though, that's my life and the state I am in. Nope, not a happy bunny.

Other |sane side| category entries.

心的频道：虐·善待自己

老了，身体状况和健康越来越不行。

虽然从来也没有什么吸睛的体型可言，也离开那想要吸引人的人生阶段好多好多年了，但那越来越大的肚皮是自己也觉得很不健康的体型。

二零二零年新冠肺炎行动管制令开始，我的晚餐不再吃饭，只吃菜肴。四年后今天，肚皮依旧是大了很多圈…

应该认真养生的我，反而把绝大多数的时间和精力给了工作，健康每况愈下。真是的，唉…

真的，我需要开始虐待自己，每天要做多量不同的运动，让自己每天都活在肌肉酸痛的情况。

活得痛苦来善待自己，就是这么矛盾奇怪的世界。

说是很容易啦，我真的希望我可以坚持的做到。

虐待自己来善待自己。

心的频道 |系列|

Too frequent

As a hybrid headcount without a permanent cubicle in the office, going to work in the office is an efficiency drop for me.

Besides the commute to and fro being a time waste, the shared cubicle set up is not conducive to my working need, even having meal at home is faster and more efficient compared to at office.

It's Wednesday today and this week thus far I have had to go to the office everyday since Monday, and need to go again tomorrow, so that's a total of four days working in the office, assuming there is no last minute urgent stuff that needs me in the office on Friday.

Four inefficient days, and past two days were to entertain the management from overseas, meaning many meetings, forums and such, all non-conducive to getting work done. Quite the opposite, in fact, two days where I had little time to actually do work.

I don't go to office unless necessary, and that usually means only when there is staff meeting, which is bi-weekly.

So in this single week I have used up two months worth of quota, meh!

Other |runaway rants| category entries.

士气低糜

公司现状不佳，士气低糜。

至少我是这么觉得。

同事来来走走，来的是怎么样我还不知道，老实说又要开始去认识我是觉得累的。我不想要交际。

走的是一起工作过的、打拼过的，就算我不常交际，也难免有点交情。所以有点遗憾、有点不舍。

说的是同组的同事，不是那些一加入公司就认识的老同事朋友。那些老同事朋友荣誉退休，我是为他们开心的，真的。

老同事朋友虽然不在公司里了，但事实就是已经好多年工作上也没有接触了的关系，纯粹是私底下的联络和群聊。所以没有在公司里见到这些老同事朋友，反而是很正常的感觉。

同组同事也许还没有到朋友的关系，但是常常会见面，一起工作的人。那少了个熟悉的脸孔的感觉很重。

我是士气低落的，没有干劲、没有动力。

心语细述 |系列|

破功

连续十四天没有加时工作，也算是个新记录吧？

今天破功，因为项目又换方向，以为已经完事的部分，现在又有了额外的工作量。

主要是因为项目领导之前要我们做的，不是客户要的，所以忙了那几个月，就只是忙了个寂寞。

唉～

怎么都好，连续十四天没有加时工作，对命贱廉价劳工的我来说，算很长了。

感恩我也能够有正常工作时间、不必加时工作的十四天。

希望还是会有啦…

随兴随想 |系列|