有感而发：情感投入（又又）

刚看完了一个叫 Offline Love （线下恋爱 / 离线找真爱）的日本恋爱综艺节目。

不曾相识的五男五女，各自分散在法国一个美丽的城市里，在没有手机、网络和电子设备的情况下，靠缘分和手写信件来相约、相见。

节目组有提供一本类似旅游指南的书本给每位出演者，一直到第三天晚上全员被召集一同共进晚餐之前，出演者都是靠认出那本指南书来确认其它出演者的。

要相见要么就是靠缘分，要么就是手写信件写下日期、时间、地点，投入其它出演者的邮箱里，希望对方会及时收看到，和会应约。然后就是耐心等待。

我还是第一次看日本综艺。单纯由这出恋综给我的感觉是，相比韩国人，日本人比较有礼貌、比较会提他人着想、和比较真挚。

喜欢没有手机、完全离线、靠缘分、靠书信、提前规划的主题。喜欢出演者不同的个性，有酷酷的、可爱的、活跃的、内向的…

为两情相悦、双向奔赴的男女感到喜悦，感觉甜甜暖暖的。也为单恋的男女出演者感到心酸惋惜。感谢他们的真情流露，我又被情感带入，体验了那些情绪感觉。

期待下一个真诚好看的恋爱综艺节目，让我又又又情感投入。^_^

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More like work

So Raya is today, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

Third day of my four days long weekend, doing pretty well on the resting part, not so well on the complete Diablo IV season journey part.

There are seven chapters in the season journey, I have actually completed the minimum requirement for the seventh chapter but am still stuck at chapter six.

Simply because it's either party-up and kill some bosses, or grind like no tomorrow.

No thank you to party-up, I like to play it solo in my own sweet time and my own sweet pace, no need for hormonal potty mouth teenagers with anger management issue to spoil my fun.

I play game to have fun, so I can never understand my elder son's so called "gaming" when he just worked himself up to a rage and swear loudly and continuously, every single time. Stress and frustration are all I see, I don't see any fun or enjoyment. And he is actually bringing stress and frustration to all nearby, with his loud and constant swearing and complaining.

But yea, that's fun to him, he keeps going back to it like a true addict that he is.

Anyway, I have not completed the sixth chapter because I am gated by the grind, and grind is not fun. Grind is more like boring chore, like work. Nothing enjoyable about that.

Have to grit my teeth and bare it though, so close to finishing the season journey now. It's just a shame it's no longer enjoyable, just boring grind. You failed, Blizzard.

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Long weekend

Two days public holiday next week, initially set as Monday and Tuesday, thus making a four days long weekend, however yesterday they said could change to Tuesday and Wednesday instead.

Gotta see the moon to decide when Raya is.

Anyway, as soon as I saw that, I asked if it's okay for me to stick to Monday and Tuesday as holidays, and that I would resume work on Wednesday regardless. I worked overtime until 19:20 hours, while the manager has added to the message in team chat, didn't answered my question though.

I will take that as a yes and go ahead with my plan.

My plan for the long weekend is simple: rest, and complete the Diablo IV season journal. New season happening in April, I am seriously running out of time. I simply have way too little time for gaming recently.

This week, with the various visitors demanding demo, sharing and meetings, has been a super inefficient week. Additional workloads to prepare, present, and attend meetings, while simultaneously decreasing my work efficiency. A big waste of time as far as I am concerned, especially when things were rushed, prepared agenda being skipped, and the visitors not really paying attention anyway.

So ya, no thanks for wasting my time and causing me to work overtime just because I had to entertain you. As if I am not busy enough as it is.

Anyway, rest and complete Diablo IV season journal. Absolutely no work, and don't give a damn whether it's Raya on Monday or Tuesday, and sticking to my four days weekend regardless.

That's the plan anyway, hope I can stick to it.

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别来！

那些大老板、大经理、大人物等等，总之是需要大费周章，麻烦一大堆人的那些，就请你们别来了。

增加我的工作量，又同时减少我的有效工作时间，这双杀很累人。

真的，别来了。

随兴随想 |系列|

靠自己

很多事，如果可以靠自己完成，可能反而最有效率，也可能品质最有保证。

当然不是所有的事都这样。

有些事，原本就不应该是由一个人来做的，但要么求助无门、要么被拖延忽视，最终还是只能靠自己。

事与愿违、无可奈何。

唉～

越老失却的越多，当我已经无法靠自己的时候，会是怎样一个惨况？

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失却

跟着岁月的流逝，以为应该是越积越多的东西和事物，怎么反而是渐渐减少、失去的？

除了年龄和腰围，拥有的越来越少，失却的越来越多。

那感觉很强烈，甚至有点诡异。

为什么？

是不是一切本该化为零，生不带来，死不带去？尘归尘，土归土？

心语细述 |系列|

More than double

I feel like a fool for providing a reward offer for my kids if they could keep their mobile phone usage under 2 hours daily. A pure reward system, all for their gain and nothing to lose.

For the record, the 2 hours daily average is not a number from thin air, my daily average is 30 minutes or less for more than a year running now. Figured that most people probably cannot be like me so gave a generous 4x multiplier, also factored in that they have around 8 hours of useful time after school, spending 25% of that on the phone is already plenty.

Rather they spend the time on their studies or some other form of entertainment really, but what to do, phubber pandemic is real and deteriorating the society. Phone addiction is serious issue but way too many willingly embrace the rot.

But I digress. Anyway, to me, the MYR1000 reward is money well spent if the kids developed their self-discipline, self-control, and time management. All useful skills that will benefit their whole lives.

What did they do instead? They train their deceit and dishonesty on a daily basis, by cheating, manipulating the screen time, excluding frequently used apps and games, turning off the screen time tracking apps, et cetera.

And showed me the fake screen time week after week without shame or guilt.

Well, let's just say parents are not the fools the kids think they are, and truth always prevails. So based on last week's fake and real data, my kids actual usage were 2x and 2.7x what they showed me.

Needless to say that the reward offer is now cancelled. The disappointment is real. Massive and hurtful.

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