31 December 2017

2017 in numbers


Last day of the year.

My thought at this very moment is: what a shitty year! And nothing to look forward to in the next year...

Yea, I am in depression, as well as physically sick.

Thought I had received the worst salary increment ever in my career last year, well, this year proved it wrong and set a new low. For the first time in my career I am seriously thinking about leaving the department.

Health is deteriorating. I am getting old, I know.


125 blog entries, no surprise there. This is the 10th year in a row. It's called consistency and discipline.

166 days of commute to ulu place recorded, which covered 16683.7 kilometres, giving an average of 100.5 kilometres per day.

80 petrol filling recorded. My 10.5 years MyVi is doing an average of 15.2 kilometre per litre of petrol, on the low side of the normal range.

37 days of worked till overtime-worthy late. Down from 45 days last year, a healthy trend.

13 days of leave taken.

64 badminton sessions attended, out of 87 that happened. 73.6% attendance rate, much better than last year.

36 tabletop gaming sessions held, up from 20 last year. A combination of 16 board and card games (including expansions) played. The most sessions since the beginning of this tabletop game group. =)

25 novels read, down from 33 last year. 14.6 days for a book, my goodness! I am getting slower and slower every year! =( 

40, 13, 10, 8, for my own reference.


Happy New Year dear reader, wish you a 2018 as you like it!



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29 December 2017

行尸走肉


年头一场病开始,年尾也要生病结束,真的是勾叉零蛋三角形!

在忙完了,终于可以享受清闲、好好休息玩乐的时候,就病了。

真的是命贱到…

勾叉零蛋四角形!


昨天看完医生回到家后就像死尸那样瘫痪在床上。

从那时一直到今天早上之间只离开床三次:晚餐,冲凉,宵夜。

头昏脑涨、头重脚轻、全身酸痛,连走下楼都没有把握那种。

真的感觉像废人。


今天还是头昏脑涨,但至少没有全身酸痛了。

可是开始咳嗽,而且一咳嗽就腰背部肌肉疼痛。

真是莫名其妙的啦!怎么咳嗽会和腰背肌肉有关的?

还是大多数时间瘫死在床上,真不明白为何医生会觉得我今天可以上班,坚持只给我昨天一天的病假?


真的,健康最重要,其它都是次要。

除非你很有钱,没有人会二十四小时随传随到服侍照顾你的。

都是好好照顾自己的健康啦!

不要陷入虚弱到需要别人照顾的窘境。



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27 December 2017

身心同一


今天是五天假的最后一天。

很惨。

早上一开手机就收到同事朋友的即时短讯,问我是不是还在病假?

什么病假啦?我拿了两天年假啦!

真是的。

下午,心里开始接受那明天要上班了的残酷事实,超烂的感觉。

身体也随着抗拒反应,开始不舒服。

到了傍晚就病了,感冒喉咙痛,鼻水流个不停。

唉,真的是身心同一。

像我的腹肌一样,很团结。

应该是被那位同事朋友诅咒到咯,讲我生病…

乌鸦嘴,哼!



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26 December 2017

Not the usual break


Fourth day of the five days break.

This is not my usual rest and relax break, it's actually rather happening as the in-laws are here. All of them, including the newly added member since the wedding two days ago, and her family. =)

Many activities planned, with the family photo shoot being the major thing today.

The thing is, with the number of people involved, and with some not as punctual as others, there are slips, delays, waiting and wasted time.

I actually started writing this blog in my room, ten minutes after the initial planned time of arrival at the studio. Yea, arrival time. -_-

There's a slip at the extended family side, so instead of continue to sit and wait like what I was doing forty minutes ago, I booted up my computer and started writing.

Don't get me wrong, my depression and antisocial tendency aside, I love the closeness of my in-laws. Very warm, very 'family'.

I consider myself an organised and punctual person, I like to know what's going to happen so I can plan accordingly. But these few days, to avoid frustration, I need to take things in a very generic, high level kind of way, and leave the details out because those are ever changing.

Like there would be a photo shoot some time today, which started about an hour later than planned. Like there would be a family activity some time yesterday, eventually it's a movie in the evening with part of the family members. Like there would be some people staying over yesterday night in certain room, which I eventually found out at midnight that I didn't have to sleep on the floor as initially planned.

As long as I expect a disruption to the usual routine, and that this is not the usual kind of leave where I rest and relax, it's all good. =P

The rest and relax break will be next weekend. I hope.



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21 December 2017

Gimme a break


Hey depression,

it's holiday season.

You are draining me,

can't you just leave me be?

I don't ask for ecstasy,

just don't drown me in lethargy.

I hate you so,

from my heart and soul.



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17 December 2017

Cave craving


Perhaps it's year end.

Perhaps it's the recent "bomb".

Perhaps it's the slacker within.

Perhaps it's another bout of depression.

Or perhaps it's a mixture of all that.

Whatever it is, I just feel like staying in my room. My cave.

Feel so drained of energy. Weary. Fatigued.

Don't want to go out, don't want to socialise, and definitey don't feel like working.

Just peace and quiet please. No energy draining demand or interaction.

Let me rest, let me recuperate. Just leave me be.

But life is a bitch, I seldom get what I want.

So still have to get out, to socialise, to work. Wearisome shit.

Mask on, expending the energy that I already lack holding up the facade.

Really, life is a bitch.

Just leave me be in my cave.



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13 December 2017

有感而发:徒劳无功


二零一七年十二月十三日。

今天,有像被原子弹击中的感觉。

不方便写出事件,所以只能写我的心情。

现在的心情嘛,就只是想骂粗话那样咯…

勾叉零蛋三角形!

年尾了才投下这样一个炸弹,你是想怎么样?

又这么巧选不能内部调动的时候,所以要实现我那总会幻想丢信讲 “so long, suckers!” 或 “see you, suckers!” 的情节也不行。

真的是没天理。

一时一样的自相矛盾,两边你都讲完了,赢了咯,我还能讲什么?

勾叉零蛋四角形!

一整年做我的强项的那些工作,突然觉得很徒劳无功的感觉。

超沮丧的。


说真的,今年总是有那会离开这份工的预感和念头。不是要离开公司,只是要离开部门。

还留下,就不能再为公司整体的好着想,要很自私的为自己的前途和钱途着想。

还真的希望我离开或不去做后事情会变得很糟糕,到时看他们要怎么样?

要学那些等到事情闹大上头紧张了才工作的同事。

变成那样,不知道我会不会鄙视我自己…

唉,烂透的心情。

*****

人类,真的是很累人。

交际,真的是勾叉零蛋五角形的消耗精神和能量。

又烦又累人。

都是自己静静不交际比较好。



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12 December 2017

生活点滴:牵手节


今天一回到家就迫不及待的跟老婆仔说:

“情人情人,快点来牵手。”

老婆仔很疑惑但还是伸出手让我牵着。

然后我说: “ I love you! ”

老婆仔只是很不解的看着我。

“ MyFM 说今天十二月十二日是牵手节,也叫告白节,所以我们要牵手和告白咯。” 我说。

“这样也能?” 她说。

“十一月十一日是光棍节嘛,激励那些单身的人去找伴侣,一个月后希望会修成正果告白咯。” 我解释。

“ Cheh!骗钱的东西。” 她不屑的说。

“是啦,现在很多节日都被商业化了,但我们庆祝原意咯…”

她放开手去准备晚餐。

呃… 她没有回说爱我咯…



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10 December 2017

Revisiting Azeroth


Capitalizing the Black Friday sales this year, I bought the 6th expansion of World of Warcraft: Legion at discounted price.

Don't know why I keep on doing this, buying the expansion when I haven't played the game for years.

The last time I played was a few months in 2015, at that time I had the 4th expansion: Mists of Pandaria bought but spent the majority of my game time playing a new character on the Horde side, going through the low level contents.

The 3rd expansion: Cataclysm changed the world and the low level quests, so I wanted to experience that, but the game is so vast and my gaming time so limited that by the time my gaming spree ended, I was just at level 53, meaning I haven't even reached the first expansion: The Burning Crusade content.

Three years prior to that, back in 2012, and the first month or so in 2013, I was playing the content of the 3rd expansion when everyone else was playing the 4th. I managed to get a few of my Alliance characters to the Cataclysm's level cap of 85 when the others were 90, looks like I am forever behind.

I actually still have a few game cards left from years ago, each is for two months worth of game time. On impulse I activated one...

back after two years

This time, I am even further behind, three expansions worth of content. My highest character being level 85 when the max level of the 6th expansion is 110, urgh...

The game has changed so much that I had the urge to start fresh with a new character, but then I remembered my previous experience back in 2015 and knew I will never make it to any new content before my gaming spree ends. So I picked one of my level 85 and jumped in blind, praying for the best.

familiar, yet so foreign

Have to admit it's rather overwhelming. I probably spent more time reading online to figure things out than actually playing the game.

in Pandaria, we travel on a kite

I didn't even finished the first zone of Pandaria, the 4th expansion, when I hit level 90. Decided to not spoil my 5th expansion: Warlords of Draenor experience by being over-levelled, I jumped into the Dark Portal right away.

So basically, I pretty much have bypassed majority of the Pandaria content. Hopefully I will still have time to get back to it before this gaming spree ends. Will be over-levelled but nothing I can do about it, oh well. =(

parallel universe and alternate timeline stuff

Warlords of Draenor introduced this garrison thing, which is another thing that made me spent a lot of time reading online. I still don't really get all of it but I trudge along trying to get as much enjoyment as I can out of it.

garrison, another thing to manage

By the time I finished all the quests in the first zone of Draenor, my character was already level 97. Three more levels and it will be the 6th expansion: Legion content entry level. But there are still so many zones in Draenor and that darn garrison thing is not even fully upgraded.

I should go to Legion content when I hit 100 to not spoil the experience, but this garrison thing needs babysitting, dammit!

Guess I will cross that bridge when I get there.

as a frost mage I can solo most enemy, but perhaps I should wait a few more levels for this one...

So many quests to do, so many zones to see, so many enemies to slain, so many items to loot, but so little time. I haven't even tried the new demon hunter class!

If only I can play 24/7... =P



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07 December 2017

心的频道:奇怪的情人老婆仔


上个星期,告诉老婆仔我和一位女人单独约会,她什么详情都没兴趣,只是坏坏的笑问:

谁那么不幸?

原本是要激一激她的,不过她一点都不在乎,还那么贬低我的一问。

听了超没劲的。

所以我也只是草草讲了那破纪录最快的约会:为了花完公司每月饮食资助金,约了一位刚巧在即时通讯通话的女同事朋友到食堂换了几瓶汽水,全程没超过五分钟。

欸,那也是约会哦!约了时间地点,会了面,呵呵。 =P


几天前,帮了一位女同事朋友解决一些事后她在即时通讯里道谢,还发了一个飞吻。

我说不要随便发飞吻叻,觉得有点压力。

她说飞吻没关系的啦,还笑说只是调戏我而已。

我跟老婆仔告状,开玩笑的叫她去骂那女同事朋友(她们是认识的)。

老婆仔竟然说:“做么要骂她喔,要感谢她才是。

她调戏你的老公喔!

好啦,这样你的生活才不会这么 dry 。

什么啦!我都没有觉得我的生活 dry …


做么我的老婆仔是这样的?

可不可以有一点点的担心、不爽、吃醋什么的?

别的男人调戏你我会不爽的咯…

你和别的男人约会我会在乎的咯…



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04 December 2017

The wedding month


November, the slacker month, is over. =(

Can't slack no more, gotta get back to my blog writing routine. Eleven entries per month.

I am going to call December this year the wedding month, since out of the five weekends, I have three wedding dinners to attend.

Ten to fifteen years ago I probably won't find it strange, since that's probably the normal age when people of my age range get married.

I ain't no young ciku no more, and I really only have a handful of friends that's more than ten years younger. Generation gap is a real thing, simple fact is that I don't have much in common with people more than ten years younger than me.

The way they think is very different and they are simply at a vary different stage of life. Me being antisocial doesn't help either.

Anyway, so it's really strange that I have three weddings to attend this month. All three are people important to me, so I want to be a part of their important milestone.

It's costly though, so good thing there is year end bonus.



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28 November 2017

生活点滴:三个月


晚餐后如惯的帮情人洗她的盘碗,她煮我洗,一向如此。

老婆仔忽然从后面拥抱我跟我说: “谢谢你帮我洗盘碗。”

老婆仔很少会主动抱我,几乎每次都是我抱她或和她索抱的,所以有点惊喜。

“不用客气,但是不要抱太紧,肚子很饱。” 我说。

情人笑笑开始摸我的肚子。

“两个月了。” 我开玩笑的说。

“比较像三个月了咯。” 她笑说。

我们一起笑。

“还好啦,飏飏的应该是四个月了。” 她加一句。

我们又笑成一团。

两个瓜越来越肥了,跟他们说要开始减肥了他们还是那么好吃,唉…



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18 November 2017

StarCraft II is now free to play!


Blizzard made StarCraft free to play a few months ago. Then a few days ago, they also made StarCraft II free to play!

Basically, the Wings of Liberty campaign, the first single player campaign of the StarCraft II saga, is now free, along with all of Starcraft II multiplayer, and some level restriction on Co-Op Commanders.

Not sure what that Co-Op Commanders is since I have never played it, but they do keep the three main characters of the saga completely free (without level restriction) so I guess player with free version will not be gimped.

You can read all the details in the article, and get the game there.

What are you waiting for?








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07 November 2017

天马行空:别哭了


我四十岁生日那天,老天爷哭了一整天。

我说嘛,老天爷,每个人都会老的嘞,而且四十还可以啦…

老天爷继续哭。

欸,老天爷,我是病得七彩,但生日也是平常一天,会生病也不奇怪啊。

老天爷还是哭。

嗯…

您知道吗老天爷?这样普普通通、平平凡凡的人生可没差啊。简单就是幸福哦!

老天爷不停的哭。

我知道啦老天爷,四十岁还那么多梦想和心愿不能圆,是有点惨啦… 但是齁,人生总是有无奈和遗憾的喽…

老天爷哭个稀里哗啦。

唉… 是啦是啦老天爷,您哭跟我一点关系都没有。但请您就不要再哭了啦,到处都水灾了嘞,很惨的啊!



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04 November 2017

A decade of scribbling


Happy 10th birthday Scribble Pad!

Important milestone.

At least there is something to show for my persistency, consistency and discipline.

As per custom, here's the number of viewers based on the counter. The one for 2017 is as of 18:37 hours.

2008: 4746
2009: 13300
2010: 23226
2011: 31677
2012: 37412
2013: 42469
2014: 46926
2015: 50532
2016: 53716
2017: 56798

Not going to write much as I am sick, gotta rest more.

Thank you for reading this blog, I hope you get something out of it.



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31 October 2017

心的频道:黏黏虫


我喜欢拥抱。

每天我都会抱一抱情人老婆仔。

好几次。

早上出门前抱抱和吻掰掰。

晚上睡前抱抱和吻晚安。

间中只要我是宅在家里,总会有突然想拥抱的兴致,然后就去找老婆仔。

好几次。

我不知道她有没有拥抱的需求啦,但可怜的老婆仔总是被我索抱,呵呵!

她应该是很无奈,但也已见惯不怪。

也因为这样,每次要过夜的外出公干,或情人和两个瓜丢下我回娘家时我就会若有所失。

少了那习惯了每天几次的拥抱,有点不对劲、不平衡。

黏黏虫没得拥抱是很惨的咯…



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28 October 2017

The need for speed


Saw a colleague friend posted on Facebook the abysmal internet connection he is having these few days. He posted a speed test that is in the sub 1 Mbps region both upload and download.

Well, he is with that craptastic service provider that would probably be out of business if everything was fair and square.

But things are not fair and square in this country, so many have to endure the craptastic service provider for the lack of alternative.

I am lucky that I got out of that crap when another service provider with better option decided to install their fibre optic line in my apartment. I switched without second thought.

Sometime last year, my service provider upgraded my 8 Mbps line to a 100 Mbps line at no additional cost. Yup, you read that right.

I had no complaint with a 8 Mbps line, so a 100 Mbps line is just icing on the cake.

Anyway, out of curiosity I did a speed test to check out my internet connection just now, using speedtest.net.

all is well and good

I can only say that I have never looked back since I switched service provider. It's a no brainer.



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26 October 2017

自己讲自己爽


一转眼,这部落格已经十年了哦。

我这样自己讲自己爽也能写了十年,不是开玩笑的咯。

可能因为我根本就不在乎观看率的关系吧?

纯粹写日记心态,记下生活里的点点滴滴,以后可以回顾。

没有特地写给什么人看,但也不在乎和别人分享,愿者上钩,呵呵! =P

或许可以让看的人笑笑娱乐一下,能让别人欢乐是好事来的。 =)

也或许有些人可以学到什么,有点领悟、启发什么的。

那就更好,更有意义的贡献。 =D

不用客气哦!

讲到好像真的会启发别人那样,真的是自己讲自己爽,哈哈! =P



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22 October 2017

Don't feed the trolls


My first encounter of internet troll was around twenty years ago, when I started frequenting gaming fora. It's also from these fora that I learned how to handle these trolls: don't feed them.

There will always be weird people who derives pleasure from causing discomfort or negative emotional response from others. Damn sadist.

Trolls are attention seekers, craving responses, any reply to them is like fuel that keeps them going.

The best way to handle these trolls is to ignore them. Don't reply, just disregard anything they said or posted. Hence the phrase: "don't feed the trolls", i.e. responding to them is feeding them more fuel, so don't.


Initially I thought that the spammer in my instant messaging group is just that, a spammer who doesn't care whether others are interested or not, whether the subject is appropriate or not, and force whatever he fancies down the others' throat in the false pretense that it's "sharing".

Oh, and that he cannot handle paragraph, so he can only post in short, fragmented sentences. Several messages that could be done in one.

It's only when another friend suggested that he should create another group with the number two spammer (he actually posted a spammer championship with all the data of how much he spammed...) so they can spam all they like without affecting the rest of us, where he responded that it's not fun if his spam doesn't make others angry that I realised he is actually a troll.

Wow, I actually know someone in person who's an internet/chat group troll. Achievement unlocked! =P

I have pretty much just directly deleted all the spam they generated anyway, now I have to remind myself not to give any response, and hopefully the others will do the same.

But there always seems to be someone who will feed the trolls though, bollocks.



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18 October 2017

失声快乐


昨天是和常常一起唱歌的那班朋友每三个月一次的飙歌日。

是个难得的好日子,因为大多数的我们还是在同样一间公司工作,而我们的公司昨天是假期。

只有我们的公司是假期其它公司是工作日是去唱歌的最佳时机:不用拿假、不用塞车、和可以去最便宜的午餐时段。

午餐时段的价钱是晚上时段的一半到稍微多过三分之一,看是星期几。

不是开玩笑的,去一次晚上时段要花两次到三次午餐时段的钱啊!

总之,这样的日子不常有就是了啦。


但是齁,昨天出席的原班人马只有六位而已,其它四位是第一次和我们唱歌。

我竟然在几乎一半是陌生人的情况下还能唱哦!

看来我的脸皮厚度和无耻功力又增加了,嘿嘿。

也不能说是陌生人啦,完全没见过的只是一位,其它三位算认识的,只是从来没有一起唱过歌。

我知道有那么多第一次一起唱歌的人后是有点小紧张的。

我只是在认识久了的朋友面前才会疯疯癫癫的嘛…

所以昨天我唱得蛮谨慎的,应该没有走音或破音。


值得记下来的是,那讲了好几年,真的是几年,说要一起唱歌的那位同事终于都实现承诺啦!

她邀了另一位同事,她们两个自己没有唱歌的时候就讲个不停。

我不知道别人是怎么想的啦,但是我觉得齁,K 房不是一个适合谈天的场所咯,那么吵。

还有就是,别人在唱歌嘞,你们自顾自的高声谈天是不是不太尊重在唱歌的人啊?


怎么都好,像我讲过的,我脸皮够厚,所以我唱了蛮多首歌。

遗憾的是一直想唱〈遗憾〉却又没有唱到,换房后忘了再重点,唉…

还有就是我真的是不能合唱的咯!

昨天又再次破坏了很好听的合唱歌,真是的。

我唱到最后已经没有声音了,很满足。

失声得很开心。



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